I Could Neva (JGE RETRO)

Chapter 62... Trouble In ParaDIE?

Shad's P.O.V
That lil argument me and Markita had wasn't right. I'm not saying its all her fault but she ain't have to talk about my son like that. I feel like I'm a good dad. I came up wit a good verse tho. Just talking bout how I ended up with him and how the story went. Something y'all can relate to. "Shad" I heard. I turned around facing the stairs and saw Markita. "Wssp" I said and sat my notebook down. "I wanna apologize for what I said yesterday. Do I take it back? Not at all but I know it was wrong" she said and walked over to the couch. "Mhm" I said. "Look, I'm cool wit the fact that u wanna help me out with Sj and all but u can't say you his mama, I want my son to know his real mama and the situation. I'm not gon lie to him" I told her straight forward. "I never said once that I was his mama. And I don't wanna be. Kiara is fucked up, I don't see why u slept with her in the first place" she said. I can't believe this. Everything is always my fault. "Aye aye don't always blame shit on me. Its not all my fault. She was my gf at the and we had the right to have sex. It shouldn't be yo concern what we did" I said. "Ok ok, from now on no more talk about this. I'm tired of arguing, like I said I apologize. End of story" she said and got up and walked upstairs. Well there's that. I rubbed my face in frustration. Da kid gettin old man. I been checking out a few houses and searching cuz this ain't gon work. What I look like being a grown man living in somebody else house. I got big dreams that I need to live up to and follow through on. *ring ring*. I grabbed my phone answering it without lookin at the ID. "Hello" I said. All I heard was breathing. "Who is this?" I asked. "Shad?" Somebody asked on the other line. I recognize that voice from anywhere. "Kiara" I said and stood up. "How is he?" She asked in a whisper. Referring to SJ. "He good, but he miss u alot. He told me his birthday was May 4th right?" I asked for her to confirm. "Yea, tell him mommy loves him. Take care of my son Shad. He means a lot to me" she said. "Aye babe. I have a name for the baby" somebody said in her background. "Kiara who is that?" I asked. This is the longest we've ever been on the phone. "Sorry I gotta go" she said and hung up. I let out a quick breath and threw my phone on the couch. Too much shit is goin on. "Dada" Sj said walkin in. "Wssp lil man" I said looking at him. "Audey " he said. "We can go over there later" I told him. IG he like tha lil girl. "Oh lil man mommy said she love u" I told him rememberin my convo with her. "Mommy kira" he said. She's Kira now according to him .
Keeso's P.O.V.
Its getting so depressin being in here with this lil girl. She need to learn how to stfu. Sorry but u don't feel my pain. Its worse being with her than actually being here. "Helpp" she screamed like somebody could hear. "Nobody can hear u" I told her. She rolled her eyes. "Stop talking to me please old lady" she said all stuck up. "U lucky ima victim myself, or I woulda put the duct tape on ya mouth" I said. She had a shocked look on her face. "Well sorry" she said and turned the other way. *creak creak* I looked towards the door. "Michelle, here eat up" jacobee said and threw a bag of McDonalds at her. "Wtf what am I gonna eat?" I asked mad. "Omg get this away from me. I seriously need my lawyer. Do you know how much fat is in this bag. I only eat organic fruits" she said. This lil bitch. "Eat it or don't idgaf" Jacobee said and walked out ignoring my damn question. "If u won't eat it I will shit" I said. She kicked the bag to me. I opened it and looked inside. Hmmm a mcchicken, fries and cookies and a fuckin Mcflurry. Damn she don't know she got the hookup. "Michelle u missed out" I told her and ate a French fry. "I don't eat high calorie food. I can't get fat. I have a boyfriend" she said disgusted. No wonder she a stick. "Michelle if he doesn't love u for u its no point in being with him" I told her. She's so busy living up to everyone else's expectations that she isn't living her life to the fullest. "Of course he loves me. I think you're just jealous" she said. "Well if he loves you so much, why he ain't lookin for u?" I asked. "Maybe he doesn't know where I am and he is, ik he is" she said. I finished the food and started eating the mcflurry. Why didn't I get the special treatment? *creak creak* I looked at the door and Jacobee walked in with a TV. "Finally the fuckboy came back, did u bring my fruit and healthy stuff back this time?" Michelle asked. Damn. Iain know she was like that. Kids these days outta control. Jacobee walked over to her and punched her hard as a mfcka."U need to eat something , no wonder u look like a damn crack head. See keeso that's why I told u to eat. This Is a great example of not having the nicki/ jlo booty. Niggas don't like em stick. We like em thick" he said and pointed at her. Ik that had to hurt.Aha and wtf are we gonna look at on that. "What is that? A tablet?" I asked and laughed. He ignored me and plugged it into the wall. When it came on it was on the news channel. "13 year old Michelle Townsend has gone missing. She was last seen walking home from a school event a day ago" the news lady said and started talking about her. "Omg I told you. They're looking for me" she said and sat up watching it covering her eye. Her parents were talking in the microphone. After the news jacobee turned the TV off. "Aye we were watchin that" I said. "U want me to punch u in your fucking eye so u can't watch shit at all?" He asked. Damn my bad boo. "But then I couldn't look at you and you're so fucking sexy" I said starting my plan. "U guys can have one phone call. Tell whoever it is you're ok if u say anything that could give them hints. I'll kill u" he said and took the cuffs off of our hands. Bingo. Its not much but its a start. We stood up and followed him out. I've never seen this. Its wet and bumpy like a cave or sumn. " Wait before this. We goin outside for some fresh air. Cant have yall dyin on me" he said and we walked to a big brown door. Its a window next to it. Maybe if we keep getting these outtings I can escape through it. He opened the door and we walked out. Its gates all around and we aren't even underground like I thought. Dis mfcka just dirty and nasty. "U girls got 30 more seconds breathe in all u can" Jacobee said holding a taser. I looked at him and turned around to look at the gates. All of a sudden i felt myself make a run for it. I cant handle this no more.Then i stopped and started shakin noticing i was gettin tased. He stopped and I hit the ground. Michelle started screamin. "Shut tf up" He yelled and ran to her slapping her. After my lil shock I got up and he pushed us back inside. "Better make this call quick and good, this the last one you'll ever get" Jacobee said and handed michelle a flip phone. She quickly opened it and dialed the number. "Hello" she said. "Babe its me Michelle" she said smiling with tears formin in her eyes from that slap."Put it on speaker" Jacobee whispered. She rolled her eyes and followed his instructions. Ugh I hate it here more and more. "Umm who is michelle?" The person on the other end asked. "Caden what are you talking about. Its your girlfriend" she said. "Baby, come cuddle, I'm not feeling good. " somebody said in the back. "Caden who is that?" Michelle asked. "Michelle I'm sorry but I don't wanna do this anymore. I have a girlfriend so please stop calling me, delete my number" 'Caden' said and hung up. I feel bad for her. She handed Jacobee the phone and ran back into the room we were in. "Here," he said and threw the phone at me. "Rude" I said and opened it. Shit I still feel dat electricity. Idk who to call. Nobody has even been lookin for me. I guess I have to call her. I dialed the number. "Hello?" She asked. "Hey, its me Keeso" I said. "Bye, I have nothing to say to you. I wish you the best in whatever u do. Don't call me ever again" she said and hung up. Jacobee started laughin. "It's so easy to get you.nobody is even caring" he said laughing even harder. I flicked him off and walked back to the room. He walked to the door and closed it locking it from the other side. Huh. I heard sniffles and saw Michelle in the corner with her head in her hands. I feel bad for her. Ik I don't like her but she needs comfort. "Michelle are u ok?" I asked walking to her. "Do I look like I'm ok, and you heard what happened so don't even act dumb" she said. Well excuse the hell outta me. "Look I'm tired of yo shitty ass attitude. You're 13, how could u be so in love anyway. All you know is passing notes and candy." I said. "You don't understand, have u ever been in love and it'd way more than that. We even had sex the day before I got snatched. I thought it was special and intimate" She said turning to look at me. She had red puffy eyes with tears all over her face. "I have been in love. But the guy I want doesn't want me. He's too busy being stuck to his past." I said thinking of Shad. And damn kids are gettin worse. Ain't no way a 13yr old should be fuckin. "This has never happened to me before. I'm usually the one to breakup with guys. This can't happen" she said and started to cry again. "Aye ik this may be rude but stop being a lil stuck up bitch and maybe someone will like you. Again ik u may be a baby and damn show don't act like it but ok Sorry for being rude,jeez stop acting like that" I said. She looked at me surprised. "How could u say that?" She asked. I can't believe this. Its like talking to a brick wall."How could u act like that?" I asked. She sighed. "I want to fit in ok, my friends are all normal and I'm just the rich snobby kid who barely sees her parents and gets whatever she wants, can u teach me how to be ghetto?" she asked. Poor lil girl confused. "What's wrong wit dat?" I asked. I'll take that any day. Except the parents thing. "Anddd apparently just lost her boyfriend " she added. "Michelle you're a really good girl just stop the bullshit. This whole bitchy bad girl act ain't gettin u nowhere but to hell" I told her. "Hey maybe we could become friends. I could be like a big sister to you" I told her. "But you're not even white" she said. "See you didn't even have to take it there. I can be whatever the hell I wanna be. Bitches just can't be nice" I said. I'm done trying. "U know what just help yoself. That's why u have that black eye now. Screamin? Really don't pull a stunt like dat again if u wanna live lil one. Iain talking to you no more. From now on that's my side of the room and this yours" I said pointin then walking to my side. Ima continue my plan and she can be a brat and not follow through. I'm gettin my ass outta here!
Shad's P.O.V
I been thinkin bout errthang since I talked to Kiara. Even thought of some more stuff for my verse. Wonderin who that was Inna back tho. I stood up off the couch and stretched. My lil man takin a nap. Ima go check on him. I walked up the stairs and as soon as I got close to Markita room I heard noises. "Omg" she said. The door was cracked so I took a peek. Haha this girl got a vibrator. I'm dead. Sexy tho. Seeing that look on her face. The one she had when we had sex. I miss that. Not dat i wanted her for sex or nun but just because of that feelin of bein emotionally and physically attached to somebody u love.I leaned in more to get a closer look when the door busted open and hit the wall. She jumped and opened her eyes covering herself with the cover and turned the vibrator off. "Wtf Shad can't u knock" she said. "Umm sorry I was tryin to check on SJ. Wrong room. Carry on" I said and ran out. That was a close one shit. I walked in the guestroom and SJ was woke playin wit his buzz lightyear toy. When Tab get back ima take him to daycare cuz ima be workin. It'll be good. He'll be learnin and makin friends. "U havin fun lil man?" I asked him and sat onna bed. "Mommy" he said. He been repeatin that ever since I told him she said she love him. "Ik. U ready for daycare?" I asked. "I-I don know" he said and swung the toy inna air like it was flying. He been startin to talk better. For his age. He repeat almost errthang he hear. That's why Ima lil nervous about sendin him over there wit Tré and his crew. Especially dat girl Audrey. *knock knock* "come in"I said and looked at the door. I already know its markita. "Can I talk to you?" She asked. I nodded and walked out the room. "Wssp?" I asked."umn wat u just saw back there. Can u like erase it from yo mind or forget it?" She asked. Haha. "Why. It ain't like I never saw u before. Remember we used to date. I saw way more than that." I said and laughed. She just looked at me wit a straight face. "Ok but that was embarrassin so forget and never talk about it again " she said. "Oh iain forgettin. Shit its a mental picture. I can see it now," I said. U can't unsee some shit like that. Especially when its somebody u want. "Shad I'm das " she said. "Aight aight, its gone" I said and pretendin I was takin it out my brain. She laughed. "U goofy" she said. "Yea but u like it" I said and winked at her. "Maybe, maybe not" she said and winked back. No no no not this again. "Aye don't. U send me mixed signals all da time. Either u want me or u don't, no more games. No more sex and false claimin love. Nun of that" I said. "Shad of course I want u. We went over dis" she said. Wtf where was I? "Soooo?" I asked. "Ok ik we both feelin each other so I'm willin to start over and take it slow. Very slow." she said. Now I'm feelin diff about this. "Iont know about that. Nah I wanna make it official and let it work by itself. Not planned or forcin it" I said. "So heres a start. You dont know me and i dont know u" i said. "Well get tf out my house" she said. "Ok skip that part, just a new introduction" i said. She nodded. "I'm Cameron, but you can call me Shad, I have a son and I'm a member of a group named JGE" I said and stuck my hand out for her to grab. "I'm Markita, I have no children and I plan to become a physical therapist one day, nice to meet you" she said and shook my hand. Nice to meet you too sexy! Physical therapist. I got a few things we can do physically. Ok there it go again. Just can't think regular around her. "Soooo now what?" She asked. "Well now, IG we just let time do tha work" I said. "Ok soo I'm gonna go back to my room" she said and started to walk away. "Ha u trynna get back to work huh?" I asked crackin a joke. "Remember don't speak of it again omg" she said and walked in closed the door. I listened waiting for it. I heard the door lock and smiled to myself. I walked back Inna room wit Sj and closed tha door. Sj had toilet paper wrapped around him walkin out the bathroom. "Wat ima do wit u lil man?" I asked laughin at him. I just got so much love for him over tha time we been together. Still ain't got over it. I gotta son man.