I Could Neva (JGE RETRO)

Chapter 59... Regrets

Shad's P.O.V

Gosh. Last night was amazin. I woulda never thought me and markita was gon have sex again. Now at least. "Goodmornin boo" she said as she snuggled up to me. Hell yea its a good mornin. Except for this hangover."Mornin, wanna make me some breakfast" I said and winked. "Umm sure" she said and kissed my lips. Mmmm. I been up for a lil minute trynna figure out our future. "So does this mean we together again?" I asked her. "Shad, I was drunk it didn't mean anything, right" she said. What it didn't mean anything? It meant errthang to me. She can't be serious. "U jokin right?" I asked and laughed. "If I knew u was gonna get this attached that fast I wouldn't have fucked u. You know what happened last night so don't act like that." she said and sat up with the sheet against her chest. "So that's the excuse huh, u fucked me because u were drunk?" I asked upset. Dis shit can't be for real. I expected more from her. Not this hoe shit. "Shad I had a great time but I'm not ready to be tied down again. I wanna live life and have fun first before my heart gets broken, again. " She said explainin or makin more fuckin excuses. I got out of bed and slid my drawls back on. "Where u goin?" She asked. I just ignored her and slid on my pants. "Where is my shirt?" I asked her cuz I didn't see it onna floor. "Idk, u took it off downstairs I think, I don't remember" she said. "Markita I can't believe you" I said raisin my voice. It all just came to me. "Shad stop yellin I already have a headache" she said. "U keep doin this. Leadin me on then sayin u don't love me or want me. I'm tired of it." I told her. Lettin all my feelins out. "I do love u but I'm tired of this shit, all of it. If you're just gonna remind me everyday of how we used to be I don't think u should stay here anymore" she said. "Markita this is some bullshit. I know for a fact u felt something last night" I told her. "Yea your dick. I was thinkin with my pussy last night and not my brain. If I was sober you wouldn't be getting any of this, it was a mistake and I'm disappointed in myself for acting like a whore" she said. "U not a hoe. It was always said that people act more like themselves when they're drunk and ik u love me. Why are u so fuckin afraid to tell me how u feel?" I asked. She act like I bite. "How do I know u won't do that shit again Shad, she was my bestfriend and seeing u fuck her was the worst fuckin thing in my life and now I can't trust u or anyone else anymore. I'm tired of the games and the lies. The cheating. I just wanna wake up and not worry about where my man is or who with." She yelled cryin. "Yea well u not so innocent either" I said tryin to prove a point. "What about that time u was talkin to that dude. And went to his place. Did he fuck u too?" I asked. "Just get out of my room, and make ya own got damn breakfast" she whispered not een lookin at me and yellin the last part.I grabbed my shoes and walked out slammin the door behind me. Idk who she is anymore. When she left yesterday was she seein somebody else? I walked into the guest bedroom I'm in and hopped in the bed. She wanna be petty. I can do this too. I need to call tré and see what sj doin. I would go pick him up but I don't want him around while we arguin. I picked up my phone and went to Instagram. Tab aint posted nun. I kinda forgot they was gone. Nelly ain't called me or asked me about it no more after da last time.I texted Crissy to get ahold of him but she aint answer and he aint answer either. She already know I know so iont een know why the games are played. Maybe I shoulda went too shit. Left eerthang behind. Need to get outta this house.

Keeso's P.O.V

"Rise n shine sweetheart" I heard as I opened my eyes. Ugh Jacobee. "What?" I asked annoyed. At least give me the chance to fucking sleep. "U have a visitor" he said and I saw a girl tied up on the floor. Who is that. She looked about.....15. Hmm white girl too. "Help" she screamed through the duct tape. Ain't gonna work babe I tried. Jacobee took the duct tape off her mouth and slapped her for yellin then walked out and slammed the door. "What's your name?" I asked the girl. She just laid there and cried. I'm sorry but don't be a lil bitch. Do something and try to get out of here. "Michelle" she said. "Well Michelle if u wanna live I suggest u stop crying. Get prepared for rapings, beatings, and whatever else" I told her honestly. "U just act like nothing is gonna happen. Do they do this to u all the time?" She asked still crying. "Who is they?" I asked her. "The lady and him" she said. "Well only him. I don't know who the lady is" I said. Well I just found out the boss is a girl. Bitch. "We gotta figure out a way to escape and sweetie, u crying aint gon help" I told her. "I'm only 13, I can't handle this" she said back. Wtf!? What kinda sick shit is this. A thirteen year old. Damn near just got her period. I gotta help her. "Well Michelle. If we work together we can get out of here" I told her. *creak creak*. "I want no communication between u two, Michelle stand up" Jacobee said walkin in. She followed his command as he walked over to her. He rubbed her face and her arm. It hurt to see something like that. A baby tho? Eww. "Please don't" she begged him. He reached for his belt and started to unbuckle it and ik what came next. I turned my head and squeezed my eyes. Hearing this made me wanna throw up. The silent cries of her and the grunts from him. Why would he do that in front of me. It was over 10 minutes later and Jacobee left. I was stuck with her cries and whimpers. I told her I would help her and I already failed. "Michelle" I said trying to get her attention. "Stop, he said we can't communicate" she said crying. "Michelle I wanna help u" I whispered to her. Cryin not gon get her anywhere but further. "Stop talking to me please" she said and turned the other way. Well excuse the hell outta me. I was trynna help shit. Fuck allat. I closed my eyes and tried to go to sleep. I just couldn't. I grabbed my piece of glass and held onto it. "Michelle" I called out. "Stop" she said. "Michelle I got us something to help us escape" I told her. She turned and looked at me as I showed her the glass. "That's all. I can't take this. My butler is probably looking for me right now and they're gonna go to jail. I'm telling my lawyer" she said actin all stuck up. "Where did he get u?" I asked her. Beverly Hills or some shit. " he snatched me when I was walkin home from school. I signed up for this program" she said. "Michelle are your parents rich?" I asked her. She nodded. Hmm never woulda guessed *sarcasm*. Wait. "Michelle maybe u could tell them and your parents could pay for them to let us go" I told her excited. "They'll never do that. Probably don't even know that I'm gone. My dad is always working and my mom is idk. She left to some vacation last week, its like I don't even have parents sometimes." she said. I feel bad for her. It has to be someone to get us out. I plan to be the hero. "Jacobee" I yelled. He came in shortly after. "Jacobee can I ask you something?" I asked him. "U just did" he said and started to walk out. "Wait jacobee, remember what we used to have. The love we shared?" I asked him. "Bitch u never loved me" he said. "No jacobee I love u so much" I told him and looked at Michelle. She was confused. I winked at her to let her know to play along. "Michelle get up" he said walking to her. "Give me a kiss baby" hr said rubbing her face. "No I'm sorry, I can't do this anymore, I don't wanna be apart of your plan, I wanna go home, I wanna live without this. I have so much ahead of me. I know you're already old but" she said. Ugh hold up. Old!? if only she kept her mouth shut. This little girl need that duct tape again. No wonder he put it on her damn mouth."What plan?" Jacobee asked her. "Idk" she said and sat down.I wish a smart one was kidnapped instead. We could've been gone by now..

Shad's P.O.V

If I was gonna deal wit this shit again I coulda stayed at Keeso house. She ain't called me either. Ever since that last time. Idk if that's good or bad. I think I should go get my lil man now. He prolly havin fun over there tho. "Shad" Markita said walkin in. "what?" I asked. "I'm leaving I have somewhere to be" she said all dressed and ready. "Going to see yo nigga?" I asked her. "Don't even start" she said and walked out. Yea Yea walk away from yo problems. Like always. IG I'll go over to Nelly house iaint trynna be here alone. Gotta shower first. Kinda still smell like sex. *1 hr later*. I just finished gettin dressed then I grabbed my phone and the charger then walked out to go downstairs. Markita left me her key so I can locked the door when I leave. Her ass gon be waiting outside when she get back. I walked out and locked da door then got in my car and drove off. I talked to ttrizzle and he said errbody chillin. My baby prolly bad now too. Idk how. Cuz of some girl Audrey. After a few whips and dips I pulled into the driveway and turned the car off. I can't wait to see him. He prolly got so big. Lookin ass. Hahahaa. I knocked on the door. "Wssp dawgs" Tré said and let me in. "Dada" sj yelled and ran to me. "Wssp lil man" I said and picked him up. "Sj come on let's play" a lil girl said running in. "That's Audrey?" I asked tré. He nodded. Awww this the lil badass huh? "Sj boy u got a lil friend?x I asked him. "Audey" he said. I out him down and he ran off. "So trizzle where yo girl at?" I asked him. "Dawgs she mad at me. Givin me da "silent treatment"" he said. Wth. Silent treatment. Where they do that at? "Damn man, but I got some shit goin too" I said. "Sheesh, hold up, who is yo girl?" He asked smartly. Man shut up."Aye where yo daddy?" I asked him. "He upstairs I think" he said. They aint doin nun here either. I thought they was turnin up. My bro need to come back. We ain't did a show in idk how long. They pose to be gone for about a week. So ima have Mill book us for a performance in about 3 weeks. Ima tell Tab when he get back. Hold up. Where that Chinese lady at? "Aye where the babysitter?" I asked. "She went home" tré said. Aww. After a few minutes of silence I got hella bored. "Umm its dead here. Let's play da game or sumn" I told him. He got up and we walked upstairs to his room. "I remember Tab said he whooped yo ass Inna game. Now its my time" I said. Tré laughed. "We ain't finish the game. He quit" he said and put it in. I'm ready to whoop his ass too. "What we playin for. Free or?" I asked. "Awww we playin for 20, ima win tho so get yo cash ready" he said. We both took out a $20 and out it inna middle of the floor. Ima win.............

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"Damn man, I let u win" I said as tré took the cash. "Sheesh dawgs I just beat u real good. And nah it was skill" he said. Yea Iain playin money wit him no more. It was a good game tho. "Who won?" Three asked walkin in. "Oh u know I did" tré said and held up the money. "See what had happened was" I said and laughed. "I see u tried to leave yo son off on us yesterday" three said playin. "Aw I had a date" I said. "U had a date but where da girl at?" He asked and him and tré laughed. "Aye chill" I said. "Alright well I gotta get back to work" three said and walked out. *ring ring* *ring ring*. I picked up. "Hello?" I said. "Shad come on I'm at home and can't get in" Markita said. "Nah yo ass can stand outside" I told her. "Nigga if u don't get yo ass here." She started. "Aye aye I'm JP I'm omw" I told her and hung up the phone. "U gone dawgs?" Tré asked. "Yea bro, hit me later" I told him and walked downstairs. "Come on lil man time to go home, tell them thank u for watching u" I told Sj. He got all his stuff and came back. "Tell yo lil friend bye" I said. "Bye Sj" Audrey said. "Byee" he said and waved at her. I picked him up and grabbed his bag walkin out the door. We got inna car and I drove off. Rushin back to Markita house. She might kill me now. Im a lil late. "Bout time yo ass pulled up"she said as I got here. Sj passed out Inna back. "Awwwn my cutie" she said and grabbed him from out the back seat. I turned the car off and grabbed his bag gettin out. I unlocked the door and we went in. "So did u fuck him too?" I asked as we got in. "Shad don't fuckin start this stupid ass shit again, especially with the baby here" she said and laid him down on the couch. "U actin like u his mama" I said and regretted it. I shouldn't have said that. Its a soft spot for her. "Well he obviously needs one, where is she, oh you don't know because she left her son for what huh?" She asked. "Idk to give him a better life" I said. "Well do you really think he has a better life with you. Moving from place to place, playin with women's hearts and doing dirty work, Shad he would've been better off with her, now meditate on that" she said and walked upstairs. Damnnn. She told me. Feisty. That's sexy. I like it when we argue. Its like. Idk crazy right but.Haha. I can still remember last night. Ik she saying all this shit about how much she regret it but shit ik for a fact she enjoyed that. According to ya know. Well ig I'll do whatever now. Maybe write some rhymes or something for this concert I got planned. Ima hit Jay and Mill up, let dem know what I got and see if something can happen. Until next time.

COOLEY..............