Love Story ng Fangirl

Chapter 13

TONIGHT

Tonight I want to burst into million particles, I wanted to be brave and face my fears coz’ tonight I’m taking rhe risk. After I change dress, I sit down at the cotner and wait for the tin and ate althea to finish their light make ups. Then they pulled me and made me sit on their make up chair.

“Kaloka ka! So walng balak magayos? Wala?” Ate althea jokingly said.

“Halika nga ditto, come let me do your make up.” Then ate tin offered her help.

Then this is it, we went out of the room already. It’s like a pricess attending a royal ball scene. Everything is so beautiful, everything seems to be perfect. And then we saw our princes at the shore waiting for us. David had tin and joseph got Althea. And finally Lucas and I. how I wish not to go away from this island anymore. how I wish life is just so easy like this so smooth so perfect. He held my hands and we dance walts together. My eyes are cauht by his. His hands are wrapped all over my waist. I can’t help but to put my hands at his neck and at this very moment I can feel his heart beat. It’s quite fast than the usual, it’s weird but I can feel his heart beat is same as mine. He put his hands on his neck to get my hands then I can feel something. When I opened my eyes and saw the bracelet. Ate tins bracelet the one at the auction, the one that he’ll give to a very special girl. Oh Lucas, if only you can feel that there’s no other place I’d rather be and I just wanted to be with you.

“What’s this for?” I asked him.

“Ummmm” he mumbled

“Ummmmm?”

“Nothing, you always wanted that diba?”

“Huh? Diba you said you’ll give this to someone very special to you.”

“Yes…..  may babae akong nakilala she’s so special to me, I don’t know why but from the moment I met her even I don’t know her I wanted to be near her. Then destiny played and we became real close. So close, that I already don’t have the strength to stay away from her anymore.”

Ako na ba yan Lucas? Please tell me that’s me. God, I badly need a miracle please send me one.

“Who is she?” I asked him.

“Ah wala, you don’t know her. Besides we can’t be with each other. She can’t be mine. Kaya sayo nalang yan ok?”

“Yea, Thanks.”

You’re once a dream that came true accidentally but suddenly, things turned differently from the way they used to be. It turned out that you’re happy with someone else not me. It slap me hardly, it hurts the deepest part of me it broke my heart so badly to see you walking away fro me. Until such time I have no choice but let you go silently. But you keep on staying on my mind and the reasons I can’t find I can’t stop myself from crying coz’ I’m missing you so much, I’m dying. Without you my life will never be the same, now that you’re gone, you’re driving me insane. I’ll be trapped in this loneliness forever, unless another you, will bloom into my life, and will leave me never. Because of you, I’m torn into parts, I’m leaning on a question, I need an answer from your heart. You know I love you from the very start, did I ever got a place in your heart?

(after 2 weeks from vacation)

(Sam’s in the room, nagmumukmok. Lutang, bangag at kung ano anong word na pwedeng gamitin pa para sa mga taong broken hearted yun ang stado niya ngayon.)

“Hoy sam!, kaloka ka malapit na ang finals wala ka na ba talagang balak grumaduate. Magaral ka naman na oh. Worried na parents mo sayo girl ano ba? Wag mo naming sabihin saking igigive up mo ang future mo sa not worth it na taong yun. ” lectured bettina