Flying On Crippled Wings • (Sixx:AM)

You Can't Go On Thinking Nothing's Wrong (Part Two)

**AUTHOR'S NOTES**

This week has been absolute insanity for me, and I haven't been able to get any writing done...I do have plans for a few more of these drop-in chapters (and a Christmas drop-in sometime in December), but between those, I have my group fitness instructor certification exam... (EEEP!) I just want to thank you guys for continuing to be patient with my slow updates...I promise that soon, hopefully, I will have a little more time on my hands. Anyway...Once I get these future drop-ins written, I will be committing to "You Have Come To The Right Place"....so don't worry peeps. It will all come together in time...These just need to be written first.

BUT...as promised, here is the second half of the installment I posted last week....It begins two days after last week's left off.

***TIMELINE: takes place during chapters 34 & 35 of "Relief" (titled "Suffocate" & "Maybe It's Time)***

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[Hi Jimmy... It's Mom...I don't know if you've been getting my messages, but I just want to check in and see how you're doing...It's because I care about you and love you so very much...Me and your father are worried about you...Please give us a call if you can...We just want to make sure you're okay....Okay...I love you, sweetheart...Bye.]

[James...Just calling to see how you're doing...It's been a while since we've spoken last and I hope you're okay...Take care of yourself....Love you.]

[Hi...Jimmy....James, honey, please call me...I need you to let us know that you're okay...Me and your father think about you every day and we miss you...Call us...We love you.]

[Sweetheart, we're all very concerned about you and need you to give us some information if you can...This is because we're your family and we can't stand the thought of something happening to you that we could have prevented...Please call us...Call someone...We're thinking about you...We love you, but you're beginning to worry us...James, please...Talk to someone...Anyone...If something is going on, let someone know so they can help you...I don't know what you're going through, but I need you to take care of yourself...I need you with me and your father, and Dave...We all need you here...I'm sending all of my love...Please call me...I love you.]

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November 8th 2016

Los Angeles, California

NIKKI'S P.O.V:

Buzz...Buzz....Buzz...

The sound of James's cell phone vibrating reverberates throughout the small kitchen area of my hotel room. I feel like for the past few days, that's all I've heard when I've been here. Vibrating.

James left his phone in his hotel room the night of the episode...When I ran in there after hearing DJ's piercing screams, I was running on pure adrenaline so snatching his cell phone was at the bottom of my list of priorities...but the other night I decided to get it out of there, and I've been holding onto it...

I want to bring it to James when I visit, but he's still not himself...He's exhausted, drained, and physically fatigued. For someone who typically hardly ever sleeps, he's been out cold for a good part of my visits, although he's been woken up constantly from his heart monitor beeping because his pulse is dangerously low...The nurses don't want it dropping into that danger zone while he sleeps, but it happens...almost every time, and it's frightening to see it, but it only makes sense at this point...

I want to wait until James seems more alert to bring him his phone...I don't want to put any more unwanted stress on him right now. Just yesterday, the poor guy had to be medicated because he was trying to rip his IV out in the midst of a panic attack triggered by trying to eat egg whites, and I was the one to give permission for that... Of course I was. ..and let me tell you how much I hated saying yes to the nurse who asked me. But I didn't think there was any other rational choice.