What If?

.13.

After finally finishing a long talk with Mila things seemed to be a little more clearer in my head. It's clear that sometimes a girl just need her best friend. I couldn't ask for a better one in Mila
I sighed before I began to walk up the stairs leading to the rooftop, if I know James the way I do.. He's probably been here for a good few hours

And of course I was right, there he sat in our usual spot. As soon as the door opened making it's normal sound he rose to his feet looking at me
"I didn't think you were going to come." He started as I sighed
"I didn't either." I replied moving closer to take my usual spot in our little corner of the rooftop
It's pretty stupid how this one corner hold so many memories for us. Whether it be talking about my family, Jess, Dance Or just messing around 
This place is and always will be our place..
"What made you come?" he asked shyly fiddling with his pockets
"Figured I could at least hear you out?" I offered
He nodded slowly still with his head bowed. Neither of spoke after that for a while, it was just a silence but for once. It wasn't a awkward one
"I heard that Caiden and Ellie got a contract with the company." I smiled breaking that silence we had recently discovered
"Yeah. I'm happy for them, Ellie is most certainly more excited then Caiden" James laughed. I won't lie hearing him laugh just merely solidifies how I feel.. I have missed him

"You know I didn't mean it right?" James asked looking up at me this time
"Which part?" i asked
"All of it?" He offered
"Why were you jealous James? What did Freddie ever do to cause that kind of reaction?" I continued to question
"It wasn't Freddie.. It was me. I don't know, I've gotten used to it being the two of us and then some other guys turns up and it's all done for." He said running his hands through his hair
"James, regardless on Freddie. Why would it matter if I hang out with other people? Yes I love spending time with you, I would chose that over anything. But if we only hang out with each other.. That's when problems with arise." I explained
"I get that, I do.. I just I don't know how to say it." He mumbled. I could guess what he was trying to say, just from what Caiden and Kieran had been telling me
"just say it, you would be surprised how many people have already suggested it." I chuckled lightly, James looked up at me as I chuckled
"I don't want it to ruin this." He whispered
"It won't, who knows maybe it'll help us clarify things more." I offered making him bow his head again

"Look James I-." I started before being cut off
"I like you Natalie. Like really like you.. And holy fucking shit it scares the crap out of me." He explained before raising his head.
I didn't say anything, instead all I did was smile and move a little closer..
"Was that so hard?" I smirked making him roll his eyes as he threw an arm around me. 
I chuckled pushing the arm off of me
"You think that I'm gonna forgive you just like that?" I said 
"Come on Nat! What do you want from me. I'm an idiot, we already knew that" He laughed making me laugh too
"I want you to do what you should have before Freddie beat you to it." I smirked
"What?" James whispered
"You heard me." I replied crossing my arms, only making him chuckle
"Natalie.. Will you go on a date with me?" He asked poking his tongue out
"Hmm, let me think about it." I laughed making him nudge me
"Yes James. I will go on a date with you." I said allowing him to put his arm back over me

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"Hello hello." Mila giggled as I opened my door the following more, we were heading to class after our usual exchange. Either I was earlier then usual or Mila was a little bit late today. She usually beats me here
"Hey you two!" Kieran smiled coming out of his dorm with James, he saw me and smiled before throwing his arm over my shoulder.
"Take it we are all good again?" Kieran asked making James nod
"Undecided yet." I chuckled whipping that smirk off of his face
"Ooo harsh Natalie. I like it" Kieran laughed as the four of us walked in to the studio

James still had his arm around me cause a stir in the class room. I looked around to see Jess looking like her head was about to blow off 
"Alright class! I have good news" Leon said walking in, we headed over to our usual spot before turning to him
"Today is one of your own free days!" He smiled
"What does that mean?" Ashley asked
"That means no classes. Just merely all of us with some music just having fun!" Leon exclaimed
The whole class lit up with joy
"But best believe I'll still be correcting you if I see a toe out of line." He laughed
"Any requests?" Leon asked before a bunch of people raised their hands 
I continued to stretch when Mila came over talking to me. Luckily everyone else was distracted 
"Soooooo." She asked
"So what Mi?" I asked
"What is going on? With the arm? With the chat? Come on." She pestered making me laugh
"We are going on a date tonight." I smiled making her giggle with glee
"I want all the details tomorrow!" She said still jumping with joy
"Details of what?" Harry asked coming over with the group
"Nothing. Nothing at all." Mila said keeping her mouth zipped
James looked over at me with a smirk. It was obvious he knew exactly what she was on about
"You two.. Are confusing" Kieran said making us all laugh
"But hey, they were the best social experiment we ever invested in." Kelsie smiled
"Speak for yourself." I heard Jess mumble
It was obvious she didn't like me.. But I won't lie the more she made it obvious the less I began to care.