What If?

.23.

After a long year, here we were in our last Class before we were all due to vacate the school. Leon has truly helped a lot of through this year, myself included
"I don't like this feeling" Mila groaned sitting on the floor making us all laugh
"What's up Mi" I sighed and she shot me a look
I knew what was wrong I just didn't want to face it either
"Well for starters I won't be seeing your for 3 whole bloody months" She said placing her head on my shoulder
"Yeah imagine how I feel" James pouted making me roll my eyes
"Well you get to see her first!" Mila whined, that was true. James recently got his invite to the wedding

With everything that has happened with my parents, the wedding is still going forward, I'm the Maid of Honour, John is walking Megan down the isle and giving her away
Both mum and dad are invited to the wedding, whether they show up though is on them

"Does that really count though? I doubt he'll see me that much during it" I replied making him furrow his brows
"Well you can't come on the hen do, if you hang around for too much then my sister will rope you in to being her errand boy" I warned him
"Ah but it'll be worth it" He said making me roll my eyes
It's now officially been 4 months since James and I started dating and honestly, I couldn't be happier
"Has anyone got any plans this summer?" Mila asked and all the boys shook their head and so did Ash and Kels
"Why don't you just hang out with us all summer Mila? You are more then welcome to" Kieran said
"Yeah!" Kelsie agreed
"There you go Mi, now it's just me alone all summer" I laughed
"I'll come early?" James offered and I rolled my eyes
"no you need to spend time with Caiden before he leaves" i remind him making him pout again

"okay class!" Leon called making all of hour attention shift to him
"Wow, looking at your guys now, you aren't the same babies that I first scared" He laughed. I remember his threats they still haunt a lot of people i'm sure
"I couldn't be more proud of you lot! You exceeded all expectations I had for you and I just know that will all your coming teachers, you will do exactly the same" he smile
"I've watched you all condition and grow as dancers, I've watched partnerships bloom, I've watched you over come pain" He started
"Everything that happened in this room, happened for a reason and each one of your should be proud of how far you have come" he smiled
"Now I'm not gonna be all sappy and cry but I truly will miss you stupid lot" He said laughing making us all laugh before we run up to him smothering him in a hug

This school year has had so many bumps and bruises, it has taught me so much. It's where I met James, I met Mila, I met the gang. I couldn't and wouldn't change it for the world
Was it the easiest ride? Hell no
But you know what they say
The biggest What If's are the one to treasure

"I can't believe this is good bye" I sighed clinging to James as John waited in the car
"It isn't goodbye, you are coming back. It won't be long" He said pecking the tip of my nose
"3 whole months" I whispered placing our foreheads together
"2 months and 2 weeks actually" He mumbled with a smile
"Don't go running off with any boys back home" He chuckled
"Don't go running off with Jess" I smirked making him playfully glare

I hugged James again not wanting to let go, this was the last time I would see him for a while and I can't help but feel like this was the start of something bad.. 
"I don't want to let you go" I whispered into his chest
"it'll be okay Nat, I promise you" I said cupping my face
"I'll miss you" I replied with a pout
" I'll miss you more" He replied and I shook my head
"Not possible" I said making him chuckle and roll his eyes before pressing his lips against mine
James then walked me to the car door opening it for me before pressing our lips together again
"See you soon" he smiled, I smiled back
"See you soon" I replied hugging him once more before finally getting in the car

I watched out the window as his figure got smaller and smaller, why was this so hard? Why is it that I can't seem to feel anything other then upset right now
I haven't even been apart from him for 2 minutes and I'm already crying
"Natalie" John said making me look at him, he offered me a comforting smile before placing his hand on my shoulder
"He loves you" He whispered, Neither James or I had used that word yet but I'm pretty certain that I do love him
I just don't know how to tell him
I guess i have a whole 3 months to work on that...
Sorry..
2 months 2 weeks...

TO BE CONTINUED....