Kelly pov:
It has been a week since I got shot. I get to go home today finally I'm ready to sleep in my own bed next to matt. Everyone has been great with the twins but my shoulder hurts like hell and I can't go back to work for awhile. Matt finishes packing up my things and we get discharged and head home. The drive home is quiet but fast. Matt helps with the bags and brings them in. I'm greeted by buck who has been watching the twins off shift. Him and Amelia taking turns which I'm grateful for. He gives me a light hug and ask how I am feeling I say I'm feeling okay. I greet the twins and give them a kiss. Buck ask if I need anything I say we are good. He says okay and leaves.
Matt ask if I am hungry I say "I'm starving". He says "okay I'll make something". I say "thanks babe". I get dressed into more comfortable pants which was a struggle. I am so ready for this nightmare to be over with. I get some snuggles from the twins. Matt finishes cooking we sit in the living room watching a movie and eating. I try my best to help matt clean up.
We chill for A few hours and than I rock Olivia to sleep. I gently put her down in her crib. And matt is sitting in the bedroom and says he got Ty to sleep. We watch tv in bed for a little while matt falls asleep but I've been having nightmares ever since the shooting. I Toss and turn finally able to fall asleep.
Matts pov:
I wake up in the middle of the night to Kelly shaking his head seeming like he is having a nightmare. I shake him awake. He jumps awake. We looks around confused with tears in his eyes and hot. I hold him close to my chest and try my best to comfort him. I tell him everything is alright and he is safe. He calms down after a few minutes.
I put my hand on his cheek him looking at me I say "your safe the kids are safe baby it's okay". He nods his head. We lay back down him resting his head on my shoulder. I tell him I love him. He falls back asleep pretty soon after.
Kelly's pov:
I wake up from another nightmare. Matt holds me close and Comforts me I slow my breathing and calm down. I wipe my eyes. Matt puts his hand on my cheek telling my everyone is safe. I nod and we lay back down me falling asleep soon after.
Week later:
Matts pov:
Kelly is worrying me he is waking up at night with nightmares and not really eating. This is my first shift back leaving the twins with Amelia since Kelly can't do much with one hand. He keeps getting frustrated he can't do much. He went to his follow up yesterday and dr.Rhodes says everything is healing as it should be.
I check up on Kelly throughout shift. Him telling me the same "I'm fine" or "I'm okay". I end up talking to buck at dinner. About Kelly. He tells me he probably just needs time. Even though he is probably right it still sucks that I can't help him or undo what happened.
Shift ends. I pick up the kids and head home. I find Kelly still passed out in bed. I decide it's best to leave him be for now. I change the twins. Ty being in a fussy mood today and Olivia being very clingy at the same time.
Kelly pov:
The last week has been hell my shoulder still hurts like hell despite the doctor telling me everything is healing nicely I know it's only been a week but I assumed at least a bit of the pain would have gone away. Dr.Rhodes prescribed something more for the pain tho
Matt goes back to work today. Him leaving the twins with Amelia. I can't do much which is so annoying and tiring feeling like I'm useless. I sit in the backyard with Levi roaming around. For awhile. We go back inside. And I end up laying in bed just watching movie. God I hate this.
I end up taking a nap waking up with the same damn nightmare. I decide to order some food since I can't exactly cook without risking burning the house down with one free arm. I decide on Chinese. Why I wait for it to be delivered. I decide to try to do some laundry. The food gets here I eat but realizing I don't have much of a appetite so I just put it in the fridge.
Matt has texted every so often checking up on me. The day go by slow I FaceTimed Amelia to see the twins. I get changed into just some sweats. And head to bed. I toss and turn just like the last few nights but worse since matt isn't here. I finally fall asleep almost two hours later waking up at 2 am again with the nightmare. I try my best to fall asleep letting Levi sleep with me for some form of comfort.
I end up waking up at 9 am not remembering the last time I woke up this late. Either the kids wake me up at 6 or I have shift.
Matts pov:
Kelly ends up waking up at 9 am. He seems a bit more tired than usual. He tells me he is gonna shower I ask if he needs help he says he got it. He end up in there a bit longer than usual. But I don't bother asking him why.
He comes out. Ty keeps fussing so I ask Kelly if he can try to calm him. He says he'll give it a shot. After 15 minutes of him sitting down and with him and singing my lullabies he ends up asleep. I put him in his crib.
Kelly pov:
I decide to shower. I end up sitting there just staring at the wall crying. "Why me" "why did I have to get shot". "I'm so useless now". Thinking about everything I possibly can.
I finally get out. And matt has me try to get Ty to calm down and he ends up calming down. The day is a pretty usual day or the new usual. My shoulder hurting a bit more than usual so I decide to take the meds he prescribed.
We spent most of the day at home. We went to the grocery store for diapers formula ect. For the twins. We finally head to bed around 11 pm.
