A/n: hey y'all please don't hate me for this chapter its sad so get ready.
Week later..
Kellys pov:
Its 6:45 pm. I make dinner while shay feeds the twins. Shay has been acting a bit distant since the twins were born but i figure it's because shes tired. We finish dinner and put the twins down for bed than i clean up shower and go to bed.
Shays pov:
Being a mom was harder than I thought it would be I think it would be better if I wasn't part of their lives anymore. Its 3 am and i quietly grab my bags. I leave a note on the table. "Dear Kelly you have probably noticed that my things are gone and so am i. I thought i could do this whole mom thing but I can't. I have quite working at 51. I am safe just know that. I love you and the twins so much always have and always will. Maybe when they are older we can all meet again. I love you kelly so much you are so strong a amazing father you got this i love you and the twins. Oh yeah and I didn't say anything to you about it but the twins i switched their last names its just severide now i love you~ love shay. I grab my things and head out the door.
Kellys pov:
I wake up to Olivia crying at 6:25 am. I go and grab her. I change her diaper. I head out into the living and see shays things are gone i look around and see a note on the counter. I sit down still holding Olivia. It says "Dear Kelly you have probably noticed that my things are gone and so am i. I thought i could do this whole mom thing but I can't. I have quite working at 51. I am safe just know that. I love you and the twins so much always have and always will. Before i can finish reading it i start tearing up. I finish reading. " Maybe when they are older we can all meet again. I love you kelly so much you are so strong a amazing father you got this i love you and the twins. Oh yeah and I didn't say anything to you about it but the twins i switched their last names its just severide now i love you~ love shay. By the time i finish reading it i am crying. I sit there holding Olivia frozen. Until i hear her brother cry. I go and grab him and change him. I get them and bring them out to the living room. I make their bottles and feed them. I sit there feeding them still in shock and not knowing what to do. I call matt even tho its still kinda early. He answers. "Hey babe everything okay". I say in a low voice "umm can you come by i know it's early but". "Yeah im on the way". He says before i can finish my sentence. I hear him come in 15 minutes later. "He looks around and says "hey babe". I say "hey". He looks around confused. He says "were shay". I hand him the note she wrote. He finishes reading it. And gives me a hug and says "I'm so sorry kelly". I hug him back and just Barry my face in his shoulder crying. Until tyler starts crying. I sigh and rub my eyes he says "i will grab him". I sit down holding the note. Matt comes back holding him. And sits by me. "I can stay with you today if you want". He says. I say "up to you". He says "than i am staying". I say "okay". "Have you ate" he ask. "No". "I will make something". "Ok". I respond.
Matts pov:
I start making breakfast for Kelly. I think to myself about how shay just left them like this. This isn't her. I finish cooking. I sit in the kitchen with kelly and we eat. We finish eating. Kelly still tearing up i try to comfort him as much as i can while helping with the twins.
Kellys pov:
I ate as much breakfast as I could. A few hours have gone by. I decided I should probably request more time off work so will do that when i get the chance. Its now 12 pm. I change the twins and put them down for a nap. I go and lay down in my room. I sit in bed and just stare at the wall and think. Matt comes in a few minutes later. And sits by me. I just lay on his chest in silence not really knowing what to do at this point. 35 minutes the twins both wake up so i get them up change them and Matt helps me feed them. I decide I should probably call Kidd and brett and tell them what happened since they were close. I call Stella first. She answered. "Hey lieutenant what's up". I reply "hey kidd it's about shay". "Oh is she okay". I say "umm shes fine but umm". "What is it". My voice cracks and i say "she is gone she left in the middle of the night and I woke up to a not". She says "oh". In a hurt voice. I say "yeah well umm I thought I should call and tell you". She says "um yea thanks". I say "yea". Than hang up. I call Brett and do it all over again.
Later...
Kellys pov:
Today went by slow I mostly just cried was silent and took care of the twins the best i could. It was getting late so I decided to let the twins sleep in their bassinets in my room so they are closer. Matt goes home so i give him a kiss and he leaves. I decide to go to bed not long after so I brush my teeth and get ready for bed. I stare off into the room tossing and turning not really able to sleep. The twins wake me up around 3 am again so i feed them and change them while im half asleep. Tyler ends up falling asleep next to me in bed while Olivia was harder to get back to sleep. She ended up falling asleep on my chest. Not wanting to wake them i let them sleep and i end up dozing off.
