matts pov:
i wake up to kelly mourmering words i can't make out and hot and moving. he's having another nigtmare i quickly realize. it has been 2 weeks since the shooting but his nightmares are every night and he is not himself but won't talk to anyone we tried telling him to at least talk to someone me buck or boden or even a therapist which i know will never happen.
i wake him up in a way i know works best. he sits up fast and hides his face in my neck. i can tell he has tears in his eyes. i tell him hes safe everyone is safe and Comforting things into his ear while rubbing his back and tracing circles with my hand. after a few minutes he calms down. he leans up and looks at me. i wipe his tears away and tell him everything is okay. he nods. i ask him if he wants a glass of water. he nods. i give his forehead a soft kiss and go to the kitchen.
i get to the kitchen trying to find the light switch. i find it but end up triping over one of the twins toys and making noise. i wait a second than tyler starts crying. i sigh and hurry before he wakes his sister. i turn on the light and tyler is on is back screaming. i pick him up and sway side to side. which does not stop his crying. i try his binky and does not work. i decide to make a bottle. i go to the kitchen and fill the bottle with water and try to scoop the formula but end up spilling some. i curse to myself. i finish making the bottle. he takes it thank god.
kellys pov:
i hear matt trip in the kitchen than ty starts crying. i sigh and throw my head back. try holding in my tears. god matt has to wake up every night because of my dumb nightmares and take care of the twins. i'm tired and just ready for this to be over and now matt has to deal with a crying ty. he comes back in the room a little later with ty in his hand eating. i say "sorry" matt obviously annoyed says "it's not your fault" i just look at him
matts pov:
i just decide to bring ty into the bedroom and make a metal note to clean up the spilled formula. kelly says hes sorry. it's not his fault. i try to tell him but i am annoyed and tired so it probably sounded half ass. great just what kelly needs. kelly ends up slowly dozing off while talking. i finish feeding ty but he is still awake. i try getting him to sleep. but than his stomache makes a noise and he has a blow out. i say "great just what i need". i throw off his sleeper which is now destoryed. i run him a bath because now he is a mess. i quickly clean him up. by the time i am finished getting him dressed its 5 am. i have to up for work in a hour. i finally get ty to sleep. there is no point in trying sleep now. i throw out his sleeper and clean up the kitchen and the toys so nobody else trips on them.
i feed levi and let him out. it is now 6 am so i shower. i finish showering getting dressed into my work clothes. i make my coffee because i know i will need it now. i make a quick breakfast. as i'm about to eat Olivia wakes up. she does not cry so i let her lay there until she does so i can quickly eat. half way through eating she starts getting fussy. not dareing to wake ty i hurry and grab her. i change her than make her a bottle. i feed her while i finish eating. i get olivia ready for bucks. he is watching the twins today because he does not have shift and amelia is sick. i get her and tys bag ready. i throw a quick breakfast in the fridge for kelly to heat up hoping he will actually eat. i get ty up and text buck i am on my way.
i get bucks and juggle 2 car seats and diaper bags he answers and i go in. we say hey. i see eddie and a little boy. who i am assuming is chris by the way buck talks about him. he introduces me to him. i have seen eddie only a few times when he is with buck. chris seems fascinated with the twins. he ask to hold ty. i look at buck than say "well he is cranky because he had a hard night but you can hold olivia. he says a happy okay. eddie ends up helping him with holding her. i give buck the twins things.
he says " i hope you don't mind them being here chris has been wanting to hang out and i thought having eddie around wouldn't hurt i shake my head and say "oh no it is fine i don't mind" he says "okay how is kelly?". i sigh and say "still having nightmares and not eating i honestly don't know what to do it's only been 2 weeks but I didn't think it would be like this". he says "yeah" i check the time i need to go. i tell buck ty might be a bit fussy and say goodbye and leave. i m honestly confused with him and eddie they say their friends but there is something there. anyways i head to work
kellys pov:
i wake up half past 9. i get and get some water because i am thirsty. i open the fridge and see a plate with tin foil and i note "breakfast just needs warmed up please eat something love-matt" i sigh and just close the fridge because i am not hungry. i just hang out with levi just moping around until it is 1 and i here a knock on the door. it is buck eddie the twins and what seems to be a little chris who i have only seen pictures of. he hold up a bag and says "lunch?". i let them in and i give eddie a nod and hey man. buck ask "how are you feeling?". i give a short and simple "fine" even though it is a lie. chris seeing levi and his eyes go bright. he looks at me i say "you can pet him he is nice his name his levi" eddie takes him to pet levi buck and i get plates. and set them at the table. the twins seem to be asleep so i just let them be. we sit at the table mostly chris telling us about some school project. i nod along and giving him sempethetic cools and wows and things. buck seems to talk most with him. man he really does love that kid . and he loves eddie just has not realized. i catch a glipse of eddie staring at buck very heart eyed. i smile eddie obviously feels the same. we finish eating i ate as most as i could. they leave a little later after i hung with the twins and talked to buck. chris seemed very focus on levi. buck naming facts about german shepards.
matts pov:
shift went by very slow. not to many calls and was able to catch some sleep. buck told me he had lunch with kelly which made me feel a bit better. i pick up the twins and head home. kelly asleep as i figured. i open the fridge he didn't eat breakfast by the looks neither dinner i sigh. the kids are asleep so i put them in their swings and i end up dozing off on the couch.
