The Diary's of Him and I

Part Nine- Everything Is Changing.

**One More Week Later**

DRACO'S POV

She's been out of it for over two weeks now. Why the fuck is she not waking up? Will she really be like this for a year? How am I supposed to watch her hurt and not do anything about it? Can she hear me when I go in at night and talk to her? I would like to think she's listening. I would like to think this is all just one very long nightmare. That none of this ever happened. That I didn't say the words I said to her. That Mattheo wouldn't be hurting her. Fuck sake she doesn't even know she is about to be hurt again. What if that makes her brain shut down again. I can't wait this long again. I feel like I'm going mad with the thoughts that rushed through my head. Everyday. All the time. They never stop.

MATTHEO POV:

Today is the day I've dreaded for two weeks now. I had to leave. I had to leave my school, my friends, Kaitlyn. Merlin I didn't even want to think about leaving her like this. Helpless. She's not alone as she's surrounded by all of her friends all the time but she might as well be. No one is in her mind. No one is truly helping her through this. No one. Every hour has felt like a day and days feel like weeks, long drawn out sleepless nights just staring at the ceiling, wishing, hoping, pleading, with whatever upper hand there is to let her wake up.

I went to the infirmary and almost everyone was down there; Draco, Theodore, Blaise, and Pansy. Everyone started to like me less and less through these last two weeks. Who can blame them? I was gone constantly and I wasn't being the friend I should be. "Decide to come to sit with her for once?" Theodore asked. "No..." I got cut off briefly before I could finish "of course not." Theodore interrupted. "I came to say my goodbyes as this is the last time I will probably see you at least at sound mind." I finished. "What is that supposed to mean?" Pansy asked. "He's going to join his father in his rise to power" Draco snarled. "What!" Blaise nearly yelled. "I don't have a choice." I said blankly. "The fuck you don't have a choice, just stand up to him." Theodore yelled. "Yeah because that's so easy. To stand up to at one point, one of the strongest wizards in the world. I wouldn't go if I didn't absolutely have to." I reasoned. "You're just going to leave your friend while she's hurt," Pansy said in a concerned and hurt tone. Her words felt like knives being dragged across my body, carving off flesh bit by bit. "He's a coward just like his father so he's going to run and do what's easy for him even if it's worse for others." Draco said coldly. Anger flooded my body but I resisted doing anything because he was right, I am a coward. "So all you came to do is hurt her more than she already is hurting then just leave?" Blaise asked with attitude. "I was just trying to do the right thing." I said looking at Kaitlyn's ringed hand. "Mattheo you're one of my best friends but so is she and deep down you have to know the right thing would be to stay, at least until she wakes up." Pansy said, looking at me. I didn't look up as tears filled my eyes. "I don't want to leave! I have to leave my friends and basically my home. I just don't want him to hurt anyone else, especially not her." At that point, my voice was cracking and there were tears coming out of my eyes. The tears burned like acid being poured over my face, filled with regret and pain. "I'm sorry," I whispered. I leaned forward and kissed Kaitlyn's hand, trying to take in everything, the feeling of her skin, the smell of her perfume, everything, as I suppose it will be the last time I see her. I walked out with my head hung low and my eyes directed at the floor. I got to a hidden place to apparate and with that I was gone, leaving my home, friends, life, all at once.

EMILY'S POV:

One week later it's now time for the first task of the tournament. Kaitlyn is still not awake which has taken a toll on Cedric. He goes to see her every day and every day it gets harder to watch when he asks her to wake up and watch him compete in the tournament. Day after day. He left very early this morning to go see her, when he had come back you could tell he had been crying but I didn't say anything about it. I told him good luck and to be safe, and that I would be waiting for him when he's finished.