The Way Things Change

Chapter 8

I had to stay in the hospital for the night. Just for observation. I had gotten a few more bruises and I had a broken rib. Now I sure as hell wasn’t able to work out. Damn. It hurt every time I took a deep breath.

Paul stayed with me and when it was time to go, he brought me to the car. I saw that all my bags were inside and I was glad that Paul had taken care of that.

When we arrived at the house, the boys ran out to meet me.

“Jesus you scared us. Are you okay?” Louis sad and took me in his arms for a soft embrace. It felt nice, that someone genuinely cared for me, even though I normally hated it.

“Yeah… just a bit shaken that’s all” I replied.

“Well that and a broken rib, don’t forget that. So boys, be careful. If you hurt her, I will kill you” Paul added in a playful voice. The boys laughed and I gave Paul a little smile.

“I really just want to rest now, if that’s okay with you”

“Of course it is” Harry said giving me one of his gorgeous smiles.

Niall and Zayn kept their distance. Yep, they were still disgusted by me. But right now I was too tired to care.

After placing my bags in my room I was left alone to rest. I immediately fell asleep.

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I woke up just before dinnertime, but I wasn’t hungry. Jakes words were still running through my head. He hadn’t loved me, he only used me. And Maria had betrayed me. I probably WAS better off dead, ‘cause nobody cared about me anyway. And even thought the boys and Paul were nice to me, I just knew that I was a burden.

I decided to run myself a hot bath to try and relax. I went into the bathroom and let the water run. When I went into the bedroom again I noticed my phone on the bedside table. I knew I had some unread messages, I had seen the icon when I was going to call my landlord. I was curious, so I stared reading, beginning with the oldest ones. There were A LOT of messages, mostly from Jake, but the more recent ones were from some of my so called friends and from Maria, of course.

Jake:              Where are you, slut?  You better not be with him.

Jake:              WHERE THE HELL ARE YOU? IF YOU DON’T COME HOME RIGHT NOW I’M GOING TO KILL YOU!

Maria:            Sweetie, where are you? Jake is worried.

Jake:              COME HOME NOW, BITCH. I swear to God, if you tell on us, you’re really gonna be sorry.

I let out a bitter laugh at Marias message. She didn’t care where I was. I bet she had been with Jake when she wrote me. I went on to read some of the more resent messages.

Jake:              Fuck you, you worthless piece of shit. I’m going to kill you when I find you. The police have just been here and they got Karl. YOU WHORE!

Maria:            How could you do that? Karl is your friend. I really hate you right now!

Maria:            WHAT THE FUCK HAVE YOU DONE? JAKE IS GOING TO JAIL BECAUSE OF YOU! HE IS A MUCH BETTER PERSON THAN YOU ARE AND WILL EVER BE!

Maria:            I can’t believe you, you whore. You are worthless and a really ugly person. I will never forgive you! Please just go kill your self!

They were all so hateful, other ‘friends’ had also written that they hated me and that I should just kill myself. I felt like shit. I didn’t want to feel like this anymore. The past 2 years of my life had been a lie. I had absolutely nobody. It would just be much better if I just disappeared. Nobody would miss me anyway. They had made that very clear. The tears were running down my face, but I didn’t feel anything. After all the hurtful words I was completely numb.