The Way Things Change

Chapter 43

I was back in London. I had to leave. Don't get me wrong. I loved being on the tour and spending time with Harry, even though he was busy. But I had to get away. I was terrified. Harry had told me that Gemma would be there the last week of the tour. I panicked. Sure, I had met her before, but that was before Harry was my boyfriend. What if she didn't like me? I had never met a boyfriend's family before. Weird, since I had been with Jake for 2 years! But it never came up. So how was I supposed to act? What did they expect from me? I really had no clue. So I did what I always did. I ran away.

I know I would have to face her and the rest of the family at one point, but just not right now. Just thinking about it made me sick to my stomach. I was that nervous. What if there was awkward silence all the time? I didn't know what to talk about with them!

Oh yeah. And also Harry told me that Gemma knew what had happened to me. He had told her. I was so angry with him. How could he do that? He hadn't asked permission. I didn't want to have it displayed all around and I didn't want the pity. I stayed mad at him for a while, avoiding him. And when the rest of the group got sick of it, Niall and Zayn forced me to speak with him. They always did something like that. Made me do things I didn't want to. It was really annoying, why couldn't they just let me be? But our 'talk' quickly turned into a heated make out session. I couldn't stay mad at him, even if I wanted to. That stupid smirk and his dimples always seemed to make me melt. And he kept telling me he loved me. Every time he said it my heart fluttered. He was so sincere and I could see in his eyes that he meant it. It was not just something he said to make me feel better. But I still couldn't figure out if I felt the same. After what happened last time, I had built a wall around me, to protect me from getting hurt, but did that mean that I was never going to love again? Was I never going to be able to let anyone near my heart? Let them take over. Become a part of me. I certainly was precautious and I needed to take the time to figure it out at some point. I just needed time.

Right now I was talking to Eleanor over Skype. She couldn't come to our house because of school, so this was the easiest way. She was leaving for Tokyo in a couple of days. She and Louis were to have a romantic getaway right after the tour ended. They wanted to celebrate being together for 3 years. That was quite an accomplishment, since they were being away from each other for long periods of time. But like the, sometimes, wise Zayn said: Distance makes the heart grow fonder.

"So tell me" Eleanor looked exited. "What did you do?"

"What?" I furrowed my eyebrows in confusion. "What are you talking about El?"

"You know... for your revenge.  I'm dying to know. Well everybody wants to know, but I'm your friend. You are obligated to tell me" she chirped with a huge grin plastered on her face. I giggled at the memory. The boys didn't think I was serious when I said it. And that made it all the more fun to do. So I told Eleanor everything, trying to suppress my laughter. I had to be sneaky about it, since I was alone on plotting against the 5 of them plus Paul and Lou. Some had been easy targets, like Liam. He had this weird fear for spoons, which I took to my advantage. I somehow managed to get a hold of a lot of spoons, which I hid everywhere. In his bed at the hotel, in his bunk in the tour bus, in his shoes, in his luggage and all the places I could think of. It took him 3 days to get rid of them all. Lou was a bit afraid of the dark, sometimes she thought that someone was following her, so I dressed Lux in all black with LED lights, making her look like a stick man. She scared the shit out of her mother. It was hilarious when Lou realized it was Lux chasing her. Zayn was an easy target too, since he was a heavy sleeper. With help from Ashton and Michael we managed to get him thrown in the swimming pool, that waking him up, screaming that he couldn't swim, until he realized the water wasn't that deep and he could just stand up. I literally rolled on the floor laughing. It was that funny.