The Way Things Change

Chapter 32

*Harry's POV*

This week had been a disaster. Sure it was good to see my family, but I just couldn't get Kate out of my head. I was supposed to get her out of my head. Gemma had known immediately, of course she did. So I told her and after that she kept teasing me. God I hated her sometimes. The good thing was that Gemma knew Kate. Or they had introduced themselves on tour. And from what Gemma let slip, she liked Kate. I sighed. What was I supposed to do? I couldn't have these feelings for her. It was wrong. If I told her it would jeopardize our friendship, the friendship that we finally got. And she probably didn't feel the same. And to think that I actually despised this girl just one year ago. I hadn't believed Niall at first. I was sure she was just using us.

But after getting to know her, and the fact that she wanted to pay rent to stay with us proved me wrong. We had enough money to pay for the house, we didn't need her money. And she got mad when we gave her present. She didn't want us to spend any money on her. She was really just an amazing person. Just really insecure, because of that bastard. How could anybody treat a girl like that? He was truly a monster.

Maybe I should talk to Niall. He knew her better than any of the others. And there was the jealousy again. Jesus. I knew they were only friends, and did I really like her that much already? I wasn't even sure what I was feeling. Yeah, I should talk to Niall. I would do it the minute I got home. Maybe she had said something about me. If there was anything to tell.

That night though, when she told me how she felt, I was genuinely sad for her. I could feel her pain. And I wanted to kiss her so badly for some reason. I really didn't know why, I just had the urge to lean forward and kiss her. But that would be violating her personal space. I knew she wasn't ready, she had just told me so. And what had confused me was the look in her eyes. There was something there, but I couldn't determine what it was. And then she ran away from me, without even looking back. And she had been avoiding me. I tried to go to the gym more, to be near her, but there was always someone else there. She was never alone.

I ran my hands through my hair. Damn this was frustrating. With all the other girls I knew where I had them. They practically jumped me and they always wanted me. That was no fun at all. And I knew they would only be with me so they could say 'I dated Harry Styles'. Everybody thought it was amazing to be famous. Well news flash, it wasn't. Everybody around you turned out to be fakes. They only wanted to be with you because you were famous. That was why I had chosen to be with other famous people. Not because I was an arrogant prick, like the media said, but they knew exactly how I felt.

Well I should probably go pack. Gemma was going to drive with me to London. She needed to visit some friends and I was happy to have some company in the car. I said goodbye to my mom and stepdad. I was going to miss them. I always did.

"So what are you going to do about Kate?" Gemma was always straight forward with me. No bullshit.

I sighed. "I honestly don't know. How can I? I'm not even sure I like her."

Gemma laughed. "You really are a dork. I could see it on your face when you walked in the door. You are falling for this girl. And I must say you have a great taste in woman. She's smoking"

"Should I be worried that you are going to try and get her before me?" I laughed.

"No. I might be crushing a bit, but I would kill to have a body like that! It really is a mystery to me how she can work out that much and still have those big breasts. Do you think they are fake?"

Why would Gemma say something like that? Now all I could think about was her body.

"Gemma! I don't know that. I don't think so though." I said truthfully. "Why did you have to say something like that? Now I can't think of anything else!"

"God, you still are just a boy filled with hormones aren't you?" She was laughing, teasing me. She always did this.

"You are really annoying, you know that?" I asked her.

"Yeah I know. But you love me anyway!"

"No I don't"

"Yes you do. You can't deny it!"

"Fine. But please help me, what should I do? I don't want to loose her as a friend."

"Look, I'm not going to give you the answer Harry. You have to figure that out for yourself. But I knew you liked a girl, the moment you walked in the door, so she really must be something special. If you don't give it a try, you might regret it for the rest of your life. And what is the worst thing that could happen?"

"She could reject me. She could laugh in my face, and say I was the stupidest person in the world. Gemma, I already told you, she is absolutely disgusted by me. She doesn't want to be around me."

"I know you are not telling me everything here Harry!" She said sternly. "And I don't believe you, just FYI. Maybe I could help better if I knew what you were hiding."

There was a war going on in my mind. Should I tell Gemma what had happened to Kate? That really wasn't for me to tell. But Gemma was a girl and she could help me. And maybe, just maybe, Kate wouldn't mind that I told.

"I don't know if it's something I'm allowed to tell..." I started.

"Then don't, but don't expect any help from me then!" She was so stubborn. Why did she have to make this so hard for me? She was almost blackmailing me.

"If I tell you this, you have to promise not to tell anyone! AND you can't treat Kate any different, okay?"

"It depends-" I shot her an evil glare. "Okay fine, I promise."

And I told her everything. Of how we met, how she had been, what she had told us, how I felt about her at first, everything. Even about me insulting her and our talk three weeks ago. Gemma was quiet for a while after I stopped talking. She had said nothing while I talked, but now I saw her eyes were a bit bloodshot. She tried not to cry.

"Wow... just wow." We drove in silence for a while. I had nothing more to say, for now at least.

"Harry, if you try anything with this girl, you have to be extremely careful. You hear me? You can't just play around with her, like some of your other girls. And don't look at me like that. You know I love you, but I haven't always agreed with the things you have done."

"And you have to be sure how you feel first" she continued. "Don't tell her yet, if you're not sure, then you'll only be messing with her heart. But when I met her, she seemed like a strong girl, she is probably stronger than you think, but it's going to take a lot of courage from her to let her guard down. But if you really think you are falling for her, she has to know. And no matter what her answer is, don't ever stop being her friend. She needs that more than anything, you get me?"

We were almost at our house now. It had been a really intense talk, but I wasn't confused anymore.

"I understand. And I knew that already. And if I hurt her, which I hope I never do, I know for sure the other boys are going to kill me. I think I know what to do now, so thanks for the advice." I got out of the car and grabbed my luggage.

"I love you Gem. And I promise to give you an update, okay?" I gave her a hug. "Take care and I'll see you soon!"

I knew what had to be done. I needed to tell her. But first I needed to talk to Niall.