Your Lies || Itachi x Reader

Chapter 6.1

Hangetsu and I sat by the river that flowed through our village. It created a small bay-like area near the Mizukage's office. The bay was an emerald green shade and the water was so clear that we could see the rocks and fish that lived underwater. Around us, there were cherry blossom trees that were blooming. And to make it even better, the weather was perfect. It felt like it came straight out of a romance novel.

"It's so peaceful here," I said, resting my head on Han's shoulder. "We should stay like this forever~" He smiled with his eyes.

"I wish we could," he said, his smile fading. He was still smiling, but it was a smaller smile than earlier.

He stretched his back, trying to get more comfortable. Then he laid his head on my lap, looking directly at my face. He stretched out his arm, moving a piece of my hair that blocked my eye. He slowly looked away, looking at the bay to avoid eye contact. Something didn't feel right.

Is- is he going to break up with me?? I thought, starting to panic. On the outside, I wasn't showing any signs of panic, but on the inside, I was screaming.

"Han—"

"Y/n, there's something I need to tell you," Han confessed. He sat up straight nervously.

"Don't break up with me!" I pleaded, hugging him tightly, "Please... I know it may be awkward between us or we might be annoyed at each other, but don't end it now!"

He chuckled, wiping a small tear from his eye. "I wouldn't break up with you, Y/n. And I know sometimes we can be out of it, but I still love you," he said, reassuring me that he wasn't breaking up with me. "But, I do have to tell you something that may affect our relationship."

"I'm... I'm scared. Really scared." he admitted.

"Of what?"

"Well, see... There's this S-ranked mission I'm going to go on tomorrow. And it's really important. But, it's supposedly the hardest mission the Hidden Mist has assigned." he explained vaguely.

"What are you afraid of though?" I asked, holding his cheek in my right hand. Worry was apparent in my tone.

"That I may not see you again," he said, confusing me even further. "I don't know if I'm going to survive..."

"Han... Is this the mission you've been working on with my sister and other high-level shinobi?" I asked calmly, slightly shocked. I was shaken by the news, but I didn't want to worry or burden Han further with more stress. He nodded.

I hugged him, trying to comfort him. "Han, you'll survive... I know you will." I reassured him. I kissed him lightly on his lips. "In a way, you are breaking up with me, right?" I said ironically, giggling nervously.

"No... I just want to prepare you for the fact that I may die in the next week or so. If I do come back alive, we can still be together. But... if I die, I want you to find happiness."

"Han, don't say stuff like this. You will survive. You can't die. You won't." I grasped his hands tightly. "Your mission will go smoothly, and hopefully, no one will end up dying."

"How many people are going?" I asked.

"About thirty or so. The highest level Anbu and handpicked shinobi will be going." I knew he wasn't supposed to tell me that since it was confidential. But, he still did anyway.

"You don't have to go, do you?"

"I can't back out now... I would be betraying the village and going against it. And if this mission is a success, I'll be a hero."

"Hey..." I said, "I think we should just enjoy this moment right now. We have this limited time left before you leave for your mission. Instead of lamenting over a mission with a lot of uncertainty, we should focus on the feeling of being together." I made an effort to change the topic. I didn't want Han to keep worrying about tomorrow. Tomorrow would come, regardless of how much we talked about it. It was better to get our minds off of it and enjoy each other's company. Even though I didn't want to believe it, this could be our final moments together.

Han and I lay on the soft green grass, holding each other close. We didn't talk, but we didn't need to. Just feeling his touch, his warmth, his closeness. It was enough.

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To my dread, tomorrow came. Tomorrow was today. It was early dawn and Han planned to leave on his mission at sunrise.

I struggled to tie my hair with my shaking hands. I tried to pull it together, but I was scared. I was afraid this would be the last time I would see Han. It had been a little over three months since our relationship started. And I wasn't ready for it to end. Not like this.

I prayed to God as I tied my hair into two low ponytails. I placed a cherry blossom from yesterday behind my ear.

I can't be late. Not today! I thought, checking the clock on the wall of my room. I ran downstairs, grabbing an envelope I had kept on the dinner table. I slipped on my shoes, running out of my house and onto the streets of Kirigakure.

I ran to the place where all of the shinobi would be departing from—the bridge. I sped up, noticing the sun was starting to rise. Since my home wasn't too far from the bridge, I was able to reach it in about five minutes.

On the opposite side of the bridge stood the shinobi, getting ready for their mission. I spotted Han instantly. He noticed me too, waving at me to come to him.

I ran across the bridge as fast as I could, hugging him. "Thank goodness you didn't leave yet," I said, tightening my arms around his waist.

"I'm going to have to leave in the next five minutes, though. But, I'm glad you came to see me. It means a lot..." He kissed my cheek.

I held Han's hands tightly, looking into his eyes deeply and passionately. I slipped an envelope in his hand.

"Han, before you leave, I wanted to give you this," I said

"What's inside?" he asked. He examined the envelope, feeling it with his fingers. He was probably trying to feel the outline of the contents.

"Pictures of us. In case you miss looking at my face." I smiled.

"Thank you... It's so thoughtful..." He teared up. What an idiot. A heartbreaking idiot crying over a su*cide mission. I thought, upset he was leaving. I could tell it was hard for him but I didn't realize he felt it that much. The tears fell from his eyes. He covered his eyes with both of his hands, trying to hide how teary they were. I held his wrists, pulling his hands away from his face and looking straight into his eyes.

I wiped his tears with my thumbs. "There's no reason to hide..." I said. I pulled him into a kiss. It was painful—not the kiss itself, but just knowing the fact this may be the last time we kiss.

"Everyone, get ready to move!" Tsurugi, the leader and head of this mission said.

Han looked over his shoulder, looking at the leader. He brought his attention back to me. "Y/n, I love you. Take care of yourself," he said. He didn't bring up anything about him dying,

in an attempt to save us from crying even more. But still, I cried even more without him having to say anything.

"Stop, y-you're making me cry too—" he stuttered, giggling while also tearing up.

"Han, I love you too—hic—And—hic—don't you dare go thinking you're—hic—going to die." I punched him lightly on his chest. I avoided eye contact. It was unbearable to look into his eyes again.

He didn't let me off the hook, though. He held my face in his hands. Our eyes met. The brightness in his purple eyes faded. His light was burning out. He grabbed my hand, rubbing his cheek against it.

"Stay safe, Y/n..." he said, letting go of my hand one last time. I knew he didn't want to turn around and leave, but he did. He walked straight into the forest. He didn't look back—not even for a second. There was no glance or side-eye. His back was the only thing that faced me.

"Good luck!" I shouted. Still, he didn't look back. And then he was gone... disappearing into the forest along with the other shinobi.

When the shinobi entered the forest, they split into groups, running in different parts of the forest. I waited there till I wasn't able to see any of them.

I sighed. "I hope this isn't our last meeting, Han."

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