Deepest Desires

Chapter 49 - realisations

'He's got friends but they got the fear
Wouldn't care too much if he just disappeared'

Elephant
Tame impala
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"Woah cousin, what's this your actual phoning me for once" Mateo laughs from the other end of the phone as he picks it up, his English not too bad, which is surprising for him.

"I need your advice with something," I say quietly, staring at my tall ceiling. I hate asking him for advice because he just says it as it is. If I'm being an ass, he will tell me, but that's what I need right now. Someone to tell me I'm an asshole.

Mateo gasps dramatically from the other end of the phone. "Oh my god, spill the tea, but I am going to guess you have been an asshole, like usual, and you want me to talk some sense into you"

"Is it that obvious?" I laugh

"mi Hermano you're always a little puta doing stuff you will regret, now tell your big cousin so I can bully you into being a better person"

Oh god here we go. I explain everything to him. He already knows who Jackson is as I have told him so much about him, so i just tell him about the bleachers and what happened with me and him on Saturday.

"Well, my cousin, you have done it again. You have been a right cunt," he scoffs from the other end. "You seriously let someone that kind and great go because of some stupid thing that won't even matter in two years"

He then whispers under his breath that I'm so stupid, "Wow eres tan estúpido"

"Take it from me, your very successful older cousin"

"Mateo, you're a stripper in a gay club," I scoff into the phone

"Exactly, successful," he says on the other end, clearly quite proud of himself. "popularity doesn't mean shit. The only things about school that are actually important are learning and making lifelong friends who actually give a shit about you"

he says that like he actually learned in school, from what my aunt has told me, he spent most of it fucking homophobic boys and getting into shit for giving people dirty looks

"your a dumb fuck if you think your stupid popularity will mean anything outside of school, and you're a dumb fuck if you think you don't need actual good friends like Jackson and Dannie," he rants on the other end. Ugh, he's so honest, but I needed this.

"Now I suggest you stop being a little stuck-up bitch and actually try to be a good friend because the way things are looking at the moment, you're an asshole who doesn't deserve good friends"

Wow. Just wow

"I know I fucked up," I sigh

"Yes little puta, you fucked up bad and Jackson totally deserves not to forgive you," he continues his lecture "now I suggest you do everything in your power to apologise to him, get on your hands and knees and beg for his forgiveness if you have to," he says before taking a dramatic breath then continuing

"Because you're a little cocky fucker who needs to understand he is completely in the wrong," he finishes. I totally imagine him doing a dramatic bow on the other end of the phone, like he had just finished an epic play.