Tw- bullying/torture/suicide
Olivers pov
"Oli tea's ready" Dad yells from downstairs, the houses thin walls make it easy to hear the clattering of plates
"Coming" i yell closing my book and placing it on the floor next to my bed
"Smells good" i smile walking down the stairs and into the front room
"Dont lie, it's only microwave spaghetti '' dad sighs, placing the tray on my lap, we don't have a table. After Ricky and his gang broke our old one we haven't been able to afford a new one.
"I don't mind" i smile up at him, taking a knife and fork from him.
"I wish i could give you something better" dad sighs looking down at his food
"It's fine, I don't mind. I'm happy ''I smile, starting to eat my spaghetti in the silence. Our TV is smashed.
"I-I'm sorry" dad sighs pressing his hands to His face "i got fired Oliver I'm so sorry I thought this would be a stable job"
"It's just the company lost money and they got rid of the unneeded people."
"Oh dad" i say softly placing my tray next to me and moving closer to him to hug into his side "you don't have to apologise to me, it's not your fault"
"All I want is to give you a good life with good opportunities but I can't seem to find a stable job. You deserve so much better than me"
"Dad i love you so much, my life is fine i may not have all the opportunities but i have you and that's all that matters" i smile up at him hugging into his side
"Oh oli, i don't deserve you" he whispers kissing the top of my head
"Now eat the rest of your food before it goes cold," he smiles. Nodding, I move away and place the spaghetti on my lap continuing to eat in the silence.
"How's school, it seems like ages since we talked about it" dad says, making conversation through the chewing.
"Its good" i lie tracing the words carved into my arm
'Broke freak' 'waste of space'
I can't tell him it's getting bad again, that people are back to wishing me dead. He was so happy to find out I had friends, he put on a massive show the first time Conan and miles came over.
"You're still friends with them boys, k-kyle and mike?" He says struggling at the names.
"Conan and miles, yeah i am" i smile forking some more spaghetti
"Ah that's nice, they seemed like nice boys but miles was a bit distant"
"He just doesn't really like talking, he's super nice though" I smile thinking about miles. He's nice but when he's mad he gets super scary although his anger is never directed towards any of us.
"It's good you have some friends... it was horrible when you would come back from school sad and sometimes beat up" Dad says his voice cracking ever so slightly "and when you-"
"Can we not talk about that please" i whisper looking down at my half empty plate
"I'm just happy you're better now Oliver, and you won't have to go through that again" he smiles.
I have to bite my lip to stop myself from crying. He thinks it's all better when actually it's going back to the way it was before. I feel like I did back then.
"You should invite them round this weekend and they can sleepover" Dad suggests standing up with his empty plate
"That's not a good idea, we have limited electric remember and most of our stuff is broken" I say quietly, setting my fork down carefully on the plate, i don't think i can stomach any more. Not when I feel this bad.
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Deepest Desires
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