Sydneys pov:
He didn't touch me all night.
He barely even looked at me.
He was too fucking busy with that stupid asshole cal.
Those three phrases dart around my mind constantly as i stare up at the ceiling sleeplessly. Usually i would be lying beside Dannie on the bed as his soft snores lul me to sleep - But not tonight. Tonight I'm asleep on the floor away from Dannies warm embrace and comforting snores and mumbles.
I was so exited when he invited me over, but then i saw fucking cal sat on the sofa in his arms and i knew this wasnt gunna be like it normally is.
I hear cal giggle softly and looking up i see Dannie trailing kisses along their neck while tickling their side.
Fucking asshole.
"You comfortable down there?" dan asks as he looks over cal's shoulder at me. I cant tell if he's concerned or being snarky.
"Yeah I'm fine" i huff, rolling over so i don't have to look at them two cuddling and stuff. Its gross.
"You can come up if you want syd, theres room" Cal says towards my turned back
"I said im fine" i snap
"Leave him cal, hes tired" i hear Dannie say to them then the room falls back into a silence
Im just about to fall asleep when my phone begins to buzz next to my head on the pillow
"Is that yours syd?" Dannie yawns
"Yeah" i snap back, grabbing my phone and exiting the room. Looking down i see that its finn who's calling me
"Hey finny whats up?"
"I-its daddy, he left for a while an-and now hes back and he-hes yelling at me" Finn cries from the other end of the phone
It feels like my heart fell out of my chest when Finn spoke them words, theres no what he relapsed he was doing so good "when did he leave finn?"
Putting on my dc martins i listen to Finns sobbing on the other end "t-two hours ago"
That fucking asshole, he left finn alone in the trailer where he could hurt himself. Sure dad can hurt himself all he wants but he can not fucking hurt finn, he cant put him in danger
"Im on my way finny, just stay in my room and put on the radio okay try not to listen to him" i command leaving Dannies house without saying anything to him or his parents
I hear the distant yelling of dad in the background yeah hide in your room you good for nothing boy, this is all your fault
"Stay on the phone with me finn, okay?"
"Okay" he sobs over the music and yelling from my dad
"Im almost their little duck" i say as i enter the trailer park and say a quick hi to the owner
"Hurry syd Hes scaring me" Finny cry's louder than before, i can almost see his big blue teary eyes through the phone
Bursting through the door of the trailer i see dad pacing the front room his pupils dilated, his eyes red and his Hands shaking at his side
He's done it, he's relapsed.
"Heyy syd how are you, I've never been better" he laughs
"Fuck you" i yell shoving him back before Doing it again "fuck you, you fucking selfish asshole"
All of this could have worked out, we could have been a family but he fucked it all up being his usual selfish self. He was given so much help, fuck my whole life revolves around him and he just ignores that. He only ever thinks about himself.
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Deepest Desires
RomantizmA group of school kids, All from different lives and backgrounds, are brought together by trauma and events were they build bonds they never thought possible. Bonds of unrequited love, newfound friendship and romance emerge as they are forced to fac...
