Trigger warning - drug abuse, prostitution, mentions of self harm, religious abuse,
Sydneys pov
Sitting on Danny's lap i watch as he counts through stacks of money. Reaching out i go to grab a bundle but danny slaps my hand away
"Your too pretty to be worrying about this stuff" he whispers to me kissing my cheek.
"Oh okay" i say softly turning my head to look at him. Danny smiles at me kissing me on the lips this time
"I will get you some sweets and stuff later baby" he smiles flattening down my hair and then going back to counting the money.
I dont turn back around i just watch his face as he looks down past my head at the money face full of concentration. He looks so handsome when he's concentrating.
Looking at him it almost feels like my heart is going to fly out of my chest. This is the guy i want to spend the rest of my life is, he is just so perfect. I never want to leave.
i never want to be without him.
I would happily stay locked up in this apartment if it means i can be in his arms forever. He cares for me like nobody has before and i feel like i actually love him. Ive never felt this way about anyone before.
Pulling my eyes away from him i look down at what hes writing down
300k - three weeks
Ricky - 180,000
Me - 120,000
Wow thats alot of money, and i made it all. All myself with my perfect body.
"Can i have some of that?" I ask pointing down at Dannys number on the page.
Danny smiles reaching down into his pocket and pulling out a key
"Go get yourself some devils tongue" he says handing me the key. My eyes lighten up as i move off his lap and speed off to the locked drawer. my hands shake as i open the drawer i see its almost empty save for two small packets of the red powder sat at the bottom of the drawer
"Danny" i call over to him and he makes a noise of acknowledgment from the table
"Were out" i call to him picking up one of the packets and quickly hiding the other one in my pocket. What Danny doesn't know wont hurt him.
"Ah damn i will get you some more tomorrow just finish the one you found in the drawer" danny calls back and i smile heading over to the table and opening the packet.
"Dont swallow it baby, it actually works slower" he says biting on the end of his pen.
"Does injection work faster?" I ask after snorting the powder from atop the table, rubbing my sore nose
"Yep but we don't have any liquid at the moment" he says quietly counting back through one pile of money, its bigger so its probably Ricky's pile.
Standing from my chair i kiss Danny on his head and walk into the bedroom letting my fingers touch the packet hidden in my pocket. I need some more, just one packet isn't working.
Pouring the powder on the cabinet in the room i snort it quietly not wanting Danny to hear, i know he's in the next room and i know what he would do if i knew i was taking more than i should. But i need it to work I'm in so much pain i just want to be numb again. I want to be in that world of total bliss and euphoria i want to feel like I'm floating above all my problems and that wont happen with just one packet.
Frustrated i throw myself into bed and cling to the sheets screaming into the pillow, the scream so guttural that it scratches my throat and causes it to ache.
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