Please Me Mommy +18 - ON HOLD

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| Raven |

In all my years of owning a publishing company, I've read countless books about taboo themes. From reverse harem, erotica, age gap, incest, mafia romance, dark romance, all the hardcore topics. I realized that, in South Africa, people shunned books like these and they made sure to shut them down before they get to the public eye.

I built my company, to give people a chance to see through their creative imagination, no matter how dark it is. There are people who actually like reading books like these. They are invested in them too, hence they need their fix.

Overall, my company has been shunned, threatened and everything negative. I wasn't one to back down. My colleagues actually enjoy writing and editing books like these. And we actually get a ton of manuscripts to edit and publish. Good ones too.

I've gotten used to the idea and I've warmed up to everything. I recognized that there are people, all around the world, who actually live these kinds of lives.

Never in my life, have I ever thought I'd be in a situation similar to those I read about.

I just kissed my best friend, who is dating my other best friend. The worst part is that, he was right in front of us, watching. It had to be the alcohol. I really was drunk wasted.

I got lost in the moment and the feeling of his hands roaming my body, and his hips grinding against my ass. It felt so sensual and arousing, I didn't want it to end. I haven't been sexually active lately and I guess it caught up with me.

And fuck did it feel so good.

And then I had to kiss him. Why did I even kiss him? Now I can't stop thinking about it. He's such a good kisser. The way he made my knees weak and made my body sing, with just his soft skilled lips. It was perfect.

It made me realize the feelings I'd suppressed for so long, have resurfaced. I'd been lying to myself all along. I wanted to blame it on the books I read, but it's all me.

I had feelings for my friend. And not just Luca. Shaun too. I had feelings for the two of them. I have been for a long time, but I was always in denial. I disregarded them. I liked the idea of getting married to Larry and...I don't know, living happily ever after.

Where did that get me now?

And the fact that Shaun just admitted that they both liked me, I was ready to jump them right there and then, if it weren't for the confusion. My intoxicated brain scrambled to make sense of everything. And the soft yet demanding lips of Shaun colliding with mine, threw away any last sanity I had.

They liked me. All along, they liked me.

If I had just...no. Maybe it was a good idea that I didn't tell them. At the same time, I'm wondering where did that get me? An unhappy relationship which is about to end horribly.

Luca and Shaun were true gentlemen. They understand the concept of...women. They know just the thing to bring a woman down to her knees. They treat me perfectly. I'd like to think it's because I'm their best friend, but on the other hand, I know they would have still treated me like a Princess whether I was their girlfriend or not.

Would I even get there? Why did they wait for so long to tell me that they liked me? Is it because of Larry? Is it because I got married? Do they really like me?

"Little bunny?" I blinked, turning to look at Shaun. The intensity of his gaze had me blushing and looking away from him. I was currently sandwiched between the two, on our way to drop me off. After that little moment, in the bathroom, I decided to call it a night. My mind was racing with thoughts and I didn't want to jump to conclusions while I was still under the influence of alcohol.