𝐒𝐈𝐍𝐂𝐄𝐑𝐄𝐋𝐘 𝐍𝐎𝐕𝐀.

𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘳𝘵𝘺 𝘯𝘪𝘯𝘦.

𝘡𝘢'𝘕𝘰𝘷𝘢 𝘙𝘰𝘨𝘦𝘳𝘴.

𝐀𝐓𝐋𝐀𝐍𝐓𝐀, 𝐆𝐄𝐎𝐑𝐆𝐈𝐀.
𝐉𝐔𝐋𝐘 6, 2019.

"is this like some shit you do the day after everybody birthday? cause you acting the same way you was acting the day after my birthday." kaiser said as i flipped through the channels on the hotel tv.

this is where he brought me to after the party. the setup was beautiful but i couldn't even enjoy it how i wanted to because that text kept replaying in my head.

"how am i acting?" i twisted my lips, settling on disney channel.

"weird. you ain't even want me to fuck you last night." he said.

"well i wasn't in the mood." i mumbled.

"it was yo' birthday."

"not everybody wants to have sex because it's their birthday." i rolled my eyes.

"aight." he sighed.

"ok."

"ok?" he questioned.

"ok. the fuck?" i responded.

"yo' attitude on 10 right now for what?" he looked at me with a confused face.

"okay kaiser i promised myself i would stop jumping to conclusions and start trying to communicate so that's what ima do." i braced myself.

"okay, what we communicating about?" he asked. he was actually pissing me off because i know damn well he saw the messages just like i did.

"why is your ex girlfriend texting you about her being pregnant like that's any of your business?" i asked him.

he rubbed his hands over his face and huffed. "ion know nova. ian even think you would've saw that."

"i was born at night but not last night." i shook my head and stood up from the bed before being grabbed, "let me go." i pulled away from him.

"nova whatchu trippin' for? ion know what typa shit that girl on." he got up and followed me to the bathroom.

"obviously you fucked her if she's telling you some shit like that. which means i was right. everything i said was right." i grabbed my bag from under the counter and snatched some sweats out of it.

"nova-"

"kaiser," i slipped the sweats on and looked him in his eyes, "please don't lie to me. that's all i ask."

"look, the shit happened one time after we broke up but that was it. i promise it ain't mean shit to me nova i was just missing you and i was drunk and vulnerable. ion even remember going in her raw, i don't know what she talkin' 'bout." he explained.

i quickly became sick to my stomach hearing him say those words. i was upset because he proved me right just by going back to her. i got called insecure and delusional just for him to go back and do everything i said he was going to do.

i nodded my head and put my bag on my shoulder before pushing past him. "nova." he called.

i sat my bag on the bed and began to put charger and things in it. "lil bit i'm sorry." he came up behind me and attempted to hug me but i pushed him away. "aight. ima leave you alone."

i grabbed my phone off the bed and texted spanky to come pick me up before sitting on the bed and drowning myself in my thoughts.

i couldn't even cry, because i saw it coming. i couldn't be mad, because we weren't even together when it happened. i didn't know what to do or how to handle this situation at all.

"i just wanna ask you one question then ima be done." he spoke after a while. i looked at him, signaling for him to continue. "where this leave us?"

"i don't know." i answered honestly. "i cant lie and say everything will be 100% normal if i stay in this relationship. there's a child involved now, one that didn't come from us. i've never been in this situation before kaiser, i don't know what to do."

"i'm sorry nova. you prolly think ima big ass liar right now cause i went and did everything you said was gon' happen. but it was never my intentions to put you in this position. i promise my heart lies with you. i fucked up and i'm sorry." he apologized.

"would you have told me y'all had sex if she never ended up pregnant?" i asked. he wasn't obligated to, but i was curious.

he looked down for a while before nodding, "yea. i already had a guilty conscience about it. that's sum i'll forever regret. i blocked all her social media and shit right after it happened. only reason she just got my number was cause of marie. i was gon' end up telling you, i know i was."

i nodded, "well there's no bad blood between us. i just need a little space."

"i get that. c'mere." he grabbed my arm and pulled me over by him. "whatever decision you make ima have to understand it. and don't make no choice based on how you think ima feel, ian gon be mad at you."

"okay."

"i love you za'nova. with everything in me." he pulled me into a hug.

"i love you too." i squeezed my eyes shut, letting my tears finally roll down my face.

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soooo...

should they break up?

is kaiser wrong for messing with his ex? is nova wrong for considering another breakup? lmk i wanna hear y'all honest opinions ian gon get mad period.

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