𝐒𝐈𝐍𝐂𝐄𝐑𝐄𝐋𝐘 𝐍𝐎𝐕𝐀.

𝘧𝘪𝘧𝘵𝘺 𝘧𝘰𝘶𝘳.

𝘡𝘢'𝘕𝘰𝘷𝘢 𝘙𝘰𝘨𝘦𝘳𝘴.

𝐀𝐓𝐋𝐀𝐍𝐓𝐀, 𝐆𝐄𝐎𝐑𝐆𝐈𝐀.
𝐉𝐔𝐋𝐘 2, 2020.

"what's the move for yo birthday?" kaiser asked over the phone.

"i'm good on it this year." i said.

"you sure? we can-" he was suddenly interrupted by his daughter crying. "hollon nova i'll be right back."

i heard shuffling and the crying stopped shortly after. once he returned i spoke up, "i thought that girl said you couldn't see your daughter anymore?"

"nya just be running her mouth." he said. "and she know that wasn't happening regardless. ian never played with her when it came to my child."

"seeing you be a dad is so weird." i shook my head as i stared at my bedroom ceiling.

there was a long silence before he spoke again. "this shoulda been our baby."

"don't say that. you regret having a child?"

"that ain't what i'm saying. i love my baby to death, ion regret her. i regret who i chose to be her mama." he said.

"keep it in your pants." i said. "you wouldn't have that problem."

"shut up. you been keeping yours in yo pants?"

"of course." i said proudly.

"stop lying. you ain't go a whole year with no play. i know somebody been out here fuckin you." he said.

"not at all. i don't know why you think i'm lying. i thought about it at times but i got over it as quick as it came. i never had anybody around to fill those needs and i don't wanna give my body to just anybody." i explained to him.

"still just as pure as pure can be." he let out a small laugh and i rolled my eyes.

"you and spanky are gonna stop acting like i'm a child. i'm turning 20 in 3 days." i said.

"cant believe you growing up on me like that." he said. "shit crazy."

"we met when i was 18. you're acting like that was soooo long ago." i smiled.

"2 years is a long time. and where our son at? ian heard him make no typa noise."

"our? bentley doesn't claim you. you went and made a family on him." i scoffed.

"man," he smacked his lips, "cmon nova."

"what? he told me that. he talks to me." i said, looking over at reggie who'd just walked in the room and laid across the bottom of my bed.

"whatever. let me come see you."

i twisted my lips, "i have company."

"i'm company too." he argued.

"okay well you can come chill with me and reggie. we're about to watch movies. we can invite spanky too." i told him.

"that sound gay. i don't wanna watch no movies with two other niggas."

"boy shut up." reggie turned his head to look at me and i quickly looked away. "call me if you change your mind."

he laughed, "aight lil bit." and with that, i ended the call.

"why are you still staring at me?" i turned back to reggie with a mug on my face.

"i can't look at you? youn say nun any other time." he said.

"i wanna go to the movies." i told him.

"why?"

"..to see a movie."

"we can make our own movie." he said, sitting up at the edge of the bed.

i also sat up and crawled to where he was, "can we talk?"

"about what? the other day?" he asked and i nodded. "what about it?"

"you keep acting like nothing went down but you know we almost did something. i don't know what but something was gonna happen if jori didn't stop it. where do we go from there? what are we doing reggie?" i asked.

"i'm just goin' with the flow. ion wanna rush into shit. i feel like you still in love with yo ex. ion wanna get in the way of that."

"i do love him, but i don't think it's like that." i looked down.

"you sayin you think which means you ain't sure. it's okay if you still in love nova. i know how that shit go. you ain't gotta fake yo feelings cause you think it's gon make me happy." he said. "you still got dude name around ya neck and all."

i looked down at the necklace i was wearing with kaiser's name on it. i remembered getting us matching ones for his birthday. i honestly had no valid reason as to why i never took it off.

"reggie," i grabbed his face so he could make eye contact with me, "i have my mind made up. i want you. kaiser has a family. i have no business getting involved in that. we put each other through too much for me to even be thinking about going back to him."

"i hear you nova. i just ain't tryna get hurt again. ian tried to fuck with nobody since my babymama. that shit really scarred me. i want you bad as fuck i just find it hard to believe you completely over dude." he said.

"can we just try? i can show you better than i can tell you." i told him. "i want you to be able to trust me like i trust you."

he nodded, "let's test it out then."

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