𝐒𝐈𝐍𝐂𝐄𝐑𝐄𝐋𝐘 𝐍𝐎𝐕𝐀.

𝘧𝘰𝘳𝘵𝘺 𝘰𝘯𝘦.

𝘡𝘢'𝘕𝘰𝘷𝘢 𝘙𝘰𝘨𝘦𝘳𝘴.

𝐀𝐓𝐋𝐀𝐍𝐓𝐀, 𝐆𝐄𝐎𝐑𝐆𝐈𝐀.
𝐉𝐔𝐋𝐘 15, 2019.

"whatchu doin'?" kaiser asked me over the facetime call. this was the first time we'd talked in i don't know how long.

"cleaning up." i sat my phone against the tv so i could sweep the living room.

"i miss you."

"good to know." i said.

"you good?" he asked.

"i'm cool." i grabbed the dustpan and swept the trash into it, "how's the baby doing?"

he chuckled before answering, "tryna be funny?"

"i'm genuinely asking." i walked over to the trash can and dumped my dustpan before setting it against the wall with the broom.

"she good." he responded. "we got a appointment comin' up."

"aww." i smiled and grabbed my phone before going to sit on the couch beside amoura and jori, "are you excited?"

"yea." he simply stated, making me bite the inside of my cheek.

"you don't seem happy." i said.

"you want me to jump up and down?" he asked.

"that's not what i'm saying." i sighed. "this is your first child, i thought you'd be more ecstatic."

"i'm happy ma."

"okay." i said. "have y'all discussed baby names yet?"

"nova, ion wanna talk about that right now." he said.

"why not?"

"ion know. shit kinda awkward." i was confused. i was genuinely excited to talk about the baby with him, children are a blessing. nothing at all about this conversation was awkward to me.

"kaiser, i don't want you to think you can't talk about the baby with me just because it didn't come from me. it doesn't upset me." i told him.

"really though?"

i nodded, "i'm over it. i cant be mad at something that happened after me. it's not like you knew we were gonna get back together after that. i'm not finna fault you for it. the baby ain't done nothing to me."

he smiled and nodded before speaking up again, "so what about us? we still together?"

"what do you think is best for us?" i asked.

"be honest nova." he said and i nodded for him to go on. "you still trust me?"

do i?

should i?

"i don't know kaiser." i sighed. "i mean yea, you didn't cheat on me. we weren't together when you went to this girl. but at the same time, this was the same girl we got into a whole argument about when we were together that you swore up and down you didn't give a fuck about anymore. i'm genuinely confused on how i should feel about you when it comes to that."