𝐒𝐈𝐍𝐂𝐄𝐑𝐄𝐋𝐘 𝐍𝐎𝐕𝐀.

𝘧𝘰𝘳𝘵𝘺 𝘯𝘪𝘯𝘦.

𝘡𝘢'𝘕𝘰𝘷𝘢 𝘙𝘰𝘨𝘦𝘳𝘴.

𝐀𝐓𝐋𝐀𝐍𝐓𝐀, 𝐆𝐄𝐎𝐑𝐆𝐈𝐀.
𝐀𝐏𝐑𝐈𝐋 1, 2020.

"i still can't believe you was born on april fools day." brooklyn said to spanky. "your whole existence is a joke."

brooklyn is one of spanky siblings in case y'all forgot. this the youngest lil hoe.

"shutcho baldheaded ass up. i can't stand other people kids." he mugged her.

"my stomach is turning." i mumbled, putting my head in my hands.

we were currently at spanky's house, just us 3. we were getting ready to go to this dinner spanky had planned for his birthday. he wanted everyone to come together for him at a nice restaurant which shocked me because usually he would be all for partying and clubbing on his birthday.

the problem was that sherry and her other 2 kids were coming. and kaiser too. i hadn't seen sherry, vee, or montay since i ran away which was almost two years ago so my stomach was definitely doing backflips, and not in a good way.

this was one of the times i wished i had to watch amoura so i would have an excuse not to show up but sadly that wasn't an option.

"why?" spanky asked as he buttoned up his shirt. "these ain't strangers."

"may as well be. i haven't seen any of those people in so long. i'm scared cario. what if they still treat me like they used to? what if kaiser sees me and his vibe immediately gets thrown off because i know he still hates me."

"they won't act like that. they been asking bout you." he said and i shook my head. "and how you know kaiser still hate you? or if he ever did?"

"i know he does. did i tell you i saw him in the mall about a month or two ago? he had his baby and baby mom with him. they were arguing and he looked dead at me, i could see it from my peripheral vision. he shook his head and walked away. i saw it."

"maybe he was scared to say sum. y'all ain't talked in almost a year." spanky said.

"no, i know what im talking about." i dismissed him. "how long do we have until we leave?"

"20 minutes." he said after checking the time on his phone. "everything gon' go smooth sis. stop worrying."

"i hope so. do they even know i'm coming?"

"it don't matter. you there for me ain't it?"

"you're right."

at the end of the day, it was spanky's birthday. i didn't want to make it about me so i was going to try my best to go to the restaurant and act normal. i wanted my brother to enjoy himself because he would've done the same for me.

$$$

it was so awkward. everything was awkward.

vee, montay, and sherry seemed like they were completely ignoring my existence. and kaiser still hadn't shown up yet. but we'd only been here for like 10 minutes so he had to be on his way.

i felt like crying but i couldn't explain why. my anxiety was through the roof, i wanted to just leave so bad but i wanted spanky to enjoy his birthday.