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Chapter 27

I spent the last week in my living room, watching Gossip Girl and drinking red wine.

Today I made an appointment with my favorite tattoo artist, after such a big experience in my life it seemed appropriate.

Romeo would be here in half an hour, I decided to walk Kleo and then change before he got here.

When my doorbell rang, I ran down the stairs and threw it open with the biggest smile on my face.

"Romeo!" I squealed.

"Janel!" He replied with a mocked squeal.

"Funny.." I rolled my eyes, closing the door behind him. "I have a meeting in a hour so.."

"Babe, we'll be done quickly."

• • •

"So janel, how does your style match your character Mona?" Chelsea smiled.

"I actually took at lot from her, she's a very dressy girl and wears heels a lot. I used to be more of a hipster girl -- wearing ripped jeans and sneakers but just a little more maturity."

It was the closing of the interview, I smiled and waved to the camera as we went off the air.

Shaking her hand, I waved to the live audience as I walked back stage and out the back door.

I opened my door when I felt a hand grab my wrist. Turning around, I was faced with Val..

"What are you doing here?" I shut my door to face him completely.

"It was the only way I could see your face, you won't talk to me and its breaking me in the inside!" He sighed. "The only reason I'm get along with Derek is because you want us too."

"If you don't want to get along with him, it's fine it really doesn't faze me anyways.."

"I want you back, that's all that's on my mind. When you said you're afraid of me it made me realize that I need to loosen up and just... be more caring." He sighed. "Yes, I know I slept with that one girl but it was a very big mistake and it shouldn't have happened."

"Your forgiven Val, you have been for the past couple of weeks but I really need to go and meet up with my mom right now. I'm sorry." I opened my car door.

"I love you.." He whispered.

"Forever and always.."

Backing away from the parking lot, I watch Val trying to keep my composure. He looked extremely torn, I just need a little bit more time to figure everything out.

The ride to my parents was long and had me thinking too much, when I got there it took me a minute to catch my breath.

As I walked towards the front door, my mom swung the door open with a smile on her face.

"Baby girl.." She pulled me into a big hug, then kissed my cheek. "We need to talk My love.."

"Okay.." I watched her confused, following her into the house. "Where's pa?"

"Grocery shopping, now Janel sit."

"Mama, what did I do?" I said softly.

"Sweetheart, why are you doing that to the poor man?" She grabbed my hands.

"Really? I really don't want to talk about this!" I stood up, moving away.

"Janel!" She raised her voice. "He came here crying and saying how much he loved you.."

I kept my back to my mom, letting the tears fall down my face. My heart was beating in my throat dry.

"He loves you so much, you're torturing him in the inside and you need to tell him how you truly feel."

"Mama, I don't want to! I can't give him my heart after everything that I've been through. Every time I look at him I feel as if he'll break me like Payson did!"

My mom moved in front of me and grabbed my hands, wiping the tears away from my eyes.

"Go, go and tell him what you feel then come back tomorrow." She whispered.

• • •

I held my shoes in my hand, sitting by Val's front door. Watching the night sky, the cold air penetrating my exposed skin.

"Janel.." I heard Val's voice getting closer to me. "Are you okay?" He helped me up.

"Do you know how much I hate you sometimes?" I whispered. "Yet, the love overpowers it so much! Val, I just don't want to be heartbroken again -- from Payson to you then Maks and you again and .. Derek."

Val rubbed his hand up and down my arm just looking into my eyes.

"I love you, I'd stop hurting you if it meant being with you no matter what."

I wiped away my tears, taking a deep breath.

"Derek and I broke up last week.."

"Really? Is this because of me?"

"Don't worry about that Val, just do what you've been waiting to do for the past months.." I whispered.

Val smiled and pulled me close, placing a soft kiss on my lips. I melted into him, wrapping my arms around his torso.

"Did your mom tell you?"

"I- yeah kinda.." I smiled.

He turned a bright shade of red before looking away from my gaze, he looked absolutely mesmerizing.

I am in love...

A/N: hope you liked it, feedback and suggestions are appreciated bc you guys are the best reads in the world!