CHAPTER NINETEEN: BREATHE AGAIN
" breathe in, breathe through,
breathe deep, breathe out. "
- Taylor Swift (Labyrinth)
Maybe I was wrong.
Maybe I was wrong for saying all of those things at Christian but I can't help it.
It was just a lot that happened last night, parang nailabas ko na ang galit at sakit na naramdaman ko sa nakalipas na ilang taon simula nung araw na yun.
It was intense, it was too much, and I regret letting it all out.
Paano ko na aayusin 'tong pagkakaibigan naming dalawa ni Christian ngayon pagkatapos ng lahat lahat kagabi? May mga away din kami noon pero 'di ganito at 'di ko na alam kung anong gagawin ko.
I know that I did wrong, that I shouldn't have really gone on a date with another man knowing that Christian is probably waiting for me which... he is.
Ang dami kong excuse at isa na doon ang nararamdaman ko para kay Zayn. I am falling for Zayn.
I am actually falling for Zayn and I haven't felt this before.
I have fallen in love before with Christian but this is a completely different feeling of falling.
It's so good, it's beautiful, the type of falling you read on Wattpad or watch in GMA dramas.
Of course akala ko na gano'n din yung storya ko with Christian nung nahulog ako sa kanya pero iba lang talaga kay Zayn.
Without knowing it 'di ko na napigilan ang sarili ko na papasukin si Zayn sa loob ng puso ko, he was just different.
Parang ang bilis lang din ng mga pangyayari at wala... hulog na 'ko.
Mabilis naman din akong nahulog kay Christian pero nahulog ako rin ako ng mabilis kay Zayn pero iba... medyo malaki ang epekto niya sa'kin.
'Di ako nakatulog, sinubukan ko ng mga 11 am pero nakatulog ako ng 4 am dahil iyak ako ng iyak.
Parang nabasag yung tinakip ko para 'di ko maibuhos yung galit at sakit na naramdaman ko kay Christian noon pa.
Papasok sana ako sa trabaho ko kaso tinawagan ko na may lagnat ako at 'di ko kaya, nakatulong yung sipon kakaiyak ko. Francine was a bit worried when she heard about it from the manager so she texted me, tinext ko na lang na okay ako at nagpapahinga.
Kahit na isipin ko man kung paano ko aayusin 'tong pagkakaibigan naming dalawa ni Christian, I said it myself that it's over but I'm sure it's just this hope that something might start between us, a relationship that should have started from the beginning.
Pag tayo ko mula sa kama ko, agad kong narinig yung telepono kong kanina pang nag-riring, may tumatawag yata sa'kin, pero of course natatakot ako na baka si Christian ang tumatawag at 'di pa 'ko handa na harapin siya ulet.
I don't want to.
Just not now.
I can't do this.
But when I took my phone and unlocked it, it turns out that it was Zayn who's been calling him for the past twenty minutes now.
It's only 10 am in the Sunday morning at tinatawag niya 'ko?
Anong meron?
He's also been texting me, ever since he got my phone number he's been trying to text me and make a conversation with me.
BINABASA MO ANG
ALWAYS YOU ✔️
RomanceMargauxx's time has finally come when Christian--her first love and best friend, has finally fallen in love with her and is willing to pursue her after years of longing and numerous heartbreaks. Except, this time, she is more than confused with the...
