ALWAYS YOU ✔️

YOUR TEARS

CHAPTER FOUR: YOUR TEARS

" a single teardrop falling from your eye..."

Christian is everything to me.

He became my friend, and we became best of friends but I ended up falling for him hard.

They said a woman and a man can never be friends, but I do think na kahit mahal ko siya, gusto ko pa rin na maging magkaibigan kami, kahit na hinding hindi niya 'ko mamahalin at least may relasyon pa rin kaming dalawa at yun ay ang pagkakaibigan.

I told myself that this kind of friendship would be enough for me.

But I can't help but want more, ako yung problema, siguro nga talaga tama sila na hindi pwedeng maging magkaibigan ang isang babae at ang isang lalaki.

I started becoming greedy, I started to want more from this friendship.

Kaya kong maghintay, kaya ko kasi alam ko na balang araw na makikita niya rin ako, na sa akin din siya titingin.

But it's gotten worse when he told me the truth.

The truth that he and Angelica has feeling for each other before, that they've been in a relationship and that he's courting her because he still likes her.

It was the truth that I did not want to hear.

It's not like I've thought about it, alam ko naman na dadating ang panahon na magkakagusto siya sa iba, naintindihan ko yun.

Sino ba naman ako para kontrolin ang puso niya?

Even if I'm in love with him doesn't mean that he can't fall in love with somebody else, right?

But it still hurts, it's still painful.

Parang hindi ako makahinga, para bang may nakalupot na kamay sa leeg ko, para bang 'di ko na kaya, parang 'di ko na kakayanin.

That's what it feels like.

Because now he has someone, and he's willing to try it out again with that someone because he likes her and she likes him too.

What does it feel like?

To have feelings for someone and for that someone to also have feelings for you?

Ha, how would I know?

Ito yata yung pinakaunang beses na nasaktan ako ng husto, ito yung pinakaunang beses na parang nadurog ang buong puso sa dibdib ko, 'di ko inaakala na mangyayari 'to.

I should've prepared myself. But I didn't.

I am naive.

I am ignorant, I will never prepared or ready for the fact that he likes Angelica.

I want to hate her, but I can't.

Maganda siya, mabait, matalino, at perpekto lang talaga siya para kay Christian.

Tsaka isa pa may mga nakita si Christian sa kanya na hindi ko nakita kaya siya nahulog sa kanya.

I've never even talked to her.

And yes, I told Christian na hindi ako susuko, na dadating din siguro ang panahon na makikita niya 'ko at ang puso ko na naghihintay lang para sa kanya.

Nakangiti nga rin siya eh, pero totoo, hindi ako susuko.

Hinding-hindi ako susuko, siguro rin one day susuko na rin ako pero for now, hinde, hindi ako susuko.