You will be my world (ray toro×reader) [DISCONTINUED]

Golden (23)

I take a deep breathe in and knock on the door in front of me. "Hi Velvet, are you ok?" The person asks, opening the door wider for me to come in. "Where's Ray?" I shake my head and throw my arms around the person, sobbing onto his shoulder. "I fucked up Mikey, badly."

"Hey don't be like that, come in. Let me make you a tea. Thats what you English people drink right?"He ushers me inside, closing the door behind me.

I take a seat on his couch, fiddling with my fingers. The seat next to me dips. "Here you are Vee." Mikey offers. Holding out a cup of tea. "Thank you." I mumble. "Why do I keep doing this?" I put the scorching hot tea down on the coffee table and look at him desperately. "Look. Why don't you tell me what happened? I might be able to help." He offers calmly.

So I do. I tell him everything, even things Ray doesn't know, like how much pressure I feel right now, and how terrified about my feelings towards Ray.

Mikey takes a while to respond, processing everything I just said. "I totally understand why you're so scared, like you've been through so much together in such little time, but you did slightly over react. Maybe you should move out, so then you're going to be a bit more apart, so you don't fight over minor things. Plus you wouldn't feel cramped and stuff. However Lauren called Gerard before saying that we're due on another tour soon so you might not even be at Ray's long anyway."

I take the last sip of my drink and then put it back down. "Really? When does the tour start? I guess I'm gonna have to start looking at apartments before then otherwise I will keep procrastinating."

"I think he said the tour started on the 23rd or the 25th I can't remember. But you're always welcome here if you need space or anything." He smiles half heartedly. "Thank you." I whisper. Wrapping him up into a warm embrace, he hugs me back tightly, not wanting to let go.

Suddenly there was a sharp ring at the door. I jump up out of Mikey's warm hug guiltily. "It's alright, I will get the door. Back in a shake." Mikey marches out of the room, leaving me alone with my thoughts for a moment. I redo one of my laces on my shoe.

"Hey beautiful." A familiar voice whispers next to my ear. I throw my arms around Ray, crying softly onto his shoulder in shame. "Hey don't cry. Please. You'll set me off again. C'mon let's go for a walk, I brought Minnie!" I step backwards from his gentle touch and look around nervously. "Ok. I need to talk to you anyway."

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I hold Minnies lead handle tightly, terrified to talk to Ray. I don't like this feeling, it always feel right being with Ray but now it just feels... strange. "Right what's going on your busy mind?" He asks, breaking the awkward silence between us.

"I'm sorry Ray. I'm so sorry I acted like that, I just ugh. And I'm so sorry for even suggesting you're in this band with us purely for the fame and money and whatever. But I think. No- I know that I'm going to move out before we go back on tour with My Chem. I love you more than anything and anyone and I don't want to spoil what we have. I honestly can't tell you how sorry I am." I blurt out, still not meeting his eyes.

He gently put his hand underneath my chin and lifts it up, so I'm looking at his gorgeous goofy face. I go to say something but he kisses me softly, not in a needy, I need you way. Almost like in a movie way. I do kiss him back, tears rolling down both of our faces, making our kiss salty.

"If that's what you feel best, I will honor your wish." He mumbles defeated.

We stand there wrapped in each others arms what feels like a lifetime but is probably just a matter of minutes. "Ray. I need to admit something to you." I whisper sheepishly. "I haven't been taking my medication. Not even the pill. I just thought my body would be capable and strong enough to handle it but I guess not because I'm getting worse by the day. I need help Ray. I really need help." I put my head on his shoulder and begin sobbing hard.

I try to stop multiple times but nothing was helping. 

"Hey c'mon let's get you home, we'll sort you out there yeah? Please don't cry. You've set me off a few times already." He suggests coolly, still holding me tightly. I manage a small nod yes before moving to his side.

We walk home in awkward silence, too emotional to say anything.

Once we get home, me and Ray make ourselves hot drinks and curl up together on the couch. I lay on his lap, whilst he massages my scalp, which is surprisingly relaxing.

Eventually I fall asleep curled up on Ray, as he quietly sings our songs to me.

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Sorry this is so short but it's just a filler. Enjoy❤🖤 and happy early hollidays because idk if i will publish before xmas.

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