Unbreakable Love

Teddy Bear

Jayden POV

2 AM and yet I am still awake. Unable to get him out of my mind. I bet he is already fast asleep in his house, cuddling in bed with his shiny new girlfriend. With his arm around her as they're sound asleep. Probably even dreaming about each other too.

I'm Twisting and turning in my bed, forcing my eyes to shut so the thought of him won't constantly be flooding my brain every second. I lay in every possible position to find a way for me to feel comfortable enough to fall asleep. On my back, on my stomach, on my sides, one leg dangling off of my bed, one arm hanging from the edge of my bed, and so on and so on but nothing seems to work. I eventually give up on the idea of sleeping and just use my phone until I get tired. I scroll through Instagram for a while until eventually, my thumb finds itself on Grayson's profile. He hasn't posted anything since that day which was months ago. His last post was a picture of me and him proudly standing next to the giant snowman we made in his backyard. I was also holding the teddy bear he gifted me as a Christmas gift back in the very beginning when I first started living with him. I still have that teddy bear after all these days. I remember the day he gave it to me all too well.

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It was getting late so Grayson carried Mae up to her room and tucked her in bed. I also made my way to my room, which is basically Grayson's room, still holding the teddy bear he gave me. Confused as to why he would gift me a kid's toy. It was a light blue bear with a pastel pink ribbon around its neck, and yellow spots on its stomach and leg which I am not sure if it's supposed to look like that or if they're stains, and there was also a stitch on one of its hands too. It didn't smell bad though. It didn't seem to be in the best condition either, which made me have even more questions.

Then again, I'm not in the best condition myself so probably it's supposed to represent me. I got in bed and soon after that, Grayson joined me. I held the teddy bear in my hand and smiled shyly. "I appreciate the gift but I have to ask... why a teddy bear?" I say, looking at him as we're both laying on his bed on our sides, facing each other. He lets out a chuckle and says, "It's not just any teddy bear. It's my teddy bear that my mom gave to me as a kid. It always helps comfort me whenever I'm feeling low, even to this day. I know that you're going through a lot right now and so you probably need this more than I do, so I'm giving it to you. I know it may be silly but... maybe you'll actually find comfort with this teddy bear as I did." I smile a more genuine smile after hearing that and gently grab his arm in affection. He smiles and squeezes my hand comfortingly. "Thank you so much," I say. I grab the teddy bear with both my arms and give it a big hug.

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I hate to admit it but after Grayson broke up with me I held that teddy bears in my arms as I cried myself to sleep that night. It truly does help through rough times like he said, although it wasn't enough to get him back... At least I'll always have a part of him with me now that he's gone.

I continued starting through his post on Instagram and seeing all the shirtless pictures of him which got me aroused. My hand found its way to my crotch as I began touching myself with one hand and another on my phone continuing to scroll further down his Instagram. I slide my hand under my pants and gripped onto my hardened dick and began to jerk off, unable to get my eyes off him. The thoughts of when he and I had sex crept into my head which only caused me to stroke faster. Closing my eyes and putting myself back in that spot where he was on top of me fully naked, inside my ass. Oh, how I miss those days. A couple of moans slipped between my lips as I moved my hands faster on my dick, but before I could finish I quickly stopped myself.

What am I doing? I can't do this. I take my hands out of my pants and turn off my phone. I get up from bed and put on my jacket. I need to go somewhere to distract myself somehow to get my mind off of him. I sneak my way out the door and thankfully Oreo was asleep on the couch. I exit Liam's home and stroll around the neighborhood till I was standing right in front of a local bar.