PAIN AND PLEASURE |KIM TAEHYUNG

20. drunk

"Don't leave... me, please... don't leave.. me"

As she pulled me I totally crashed on her small figure. Our cheek brushesd against each other and and I felt moisture, Is she crying?
I drew my face back a little to look at her face and a sudden pain rushed in my body when I saw tears dripping from her eyes.
She looked at me with a thin line on her lips, her hand cupped my cheeks and she stroked it lightly.

"You.... are not.... leaving, right"
She asked me smiling, with tears in her eyes
I just stared at her without even blinking my eyes for a sec.

"Can you forgive me"
her words penetrated in my heart giving me invisible wound.
My eyes Started getting watery and I looked away. No, not this time, I am not falling in any trap. I tried to get up but she held onto me more tightly than before. It's not like I can't get out of her hold but don't know why, my body didn't try to go against her an odd sensation in my body pulled me toward her.

"No, I... am not.... letting you.. go, not in my...... dreams." She said smiling like a 2 years old baby got his fav candy.

"Every.... time I wake up..... I am reaching for... you, but you.... are never... there, Stay..... please."
I was drowning in my emotions listening her every words coming out of her mouth.

She reached up for my neck and pulled me more closer to her. I get little startled by her sudden action

"Kiss me"
She whispered
My eyes became wide and mind stop functioning

"I.... said kiss.... me Taehyung, I... want your lips... on.. mine."

"You are not in your right min....."
But before I could even complete my sentence she sealed my mouth by her lips against mine and the moment her warm, smooth lips touched mine, the world melted  away and  I forgot everything, everything in this world. The world around me became meaningless, time stopped on its track and all I could feel was her and I kissed her deeply hungrily like I was desperate to.

In that moment, I even  forget I have to hate her.
For that moment I only can feel was her only her.
I still remembered, remember the way she taste, the way she moves her body against mine.

I know she will forget everything tomorrow.
I still remember her first hangover she always forget everything whenever she get drunk.

She knotted her fists in my shirts pulling me harder against her body. My hand reached to her cheek stroking it gently, and pressed my body more, kissing her deeply.

I really wanted to throw that blanket which was between us, but i didn't wanted to cross any limit, I know she is not in her right state of mind.

After a moment, I slightly pulled my head, breaking the kiss as she struggle breathing, Joining the forehead we both breath heavily.
I don't know when tears started falling from my eyes until she held my chin and wiped it gently while our eyes locked, like magnet.

"Happy Birthday"
She whispered, looking up at me with such an inviting warmth that I wanted to kiss her again.
I didn't took a sec and I slammed my lips on her and she responded and I kissed her gently carefully, every square inch of my body dissolved into her. The emotions which I was holding from the day we separated it was all coming out with tears which get mixed in our kissing session.

I hugged her tightly burrowing my face on her soft silky hair.
She ran her finger on my disheveled hair and I closed my eyes at her touch
I can feel her tears she was sobbing in my arms and it's was hurting me badly very badly

"How.... can I see you... getting married.... to someone else"

She sobbed and I hold onto her more tightly than before
I wish I could said, that I am here just for you. I wanted to knew how you were doing. Did you find some who love you like me, Because in all these years all I can think about is you only you.
I gently stroked her hair hugging her tightly but her hold was more tighter than me, she was holding onto me like if she didn't hold  me this much tighter I will slipped away.
I don't know when i slept holding her in my arms listening to her heart beat which used to be mine fav melody.