PAIN AND PLEASURE |KIM TAEHYUNG

48. Unexpected news

"STOP" You screamed loudly grabbing a fist of your hair tightly. The scream was so loud that it enchoed and birds fly out from their nest.

"P..please s..stop"

You stumbled back, almost falling but Taehyung grabbed your shoulder and held you back.
Your breathing came so unsteady and sweat was dripping from your forehead and when you looked up, your gaze met with his eyes. He had never saw this much pain radiating through a human eyes with extreme amount of intensity.

"What is truth, Yn"

He asked with so much desperation. Your body felt numb.

"I'd not k..knew I was p..pregnant Taehyung until I woke up in h..hospital bed." The innocency in your voice was so pure and raw and you started to pour out the pain that was grieving inside you for more than four years. "and the nurse told me I lost my baby and Jackson told me I am a murderer because I took a w..whole bottle of anti..depressants pill and it k...killed our child" Taehyung's face became blank and his eyes bewildered and at the same time you felt his hand flexed around your round shoulder.

"W..why, why did you take those pills" His heart became a hollow shell which could only fill with your broken words.

"B...because"

"Because" he said as he was encouraging you with his voice to go ahead and poured out all the painful past you had without him. His impatient gaze not leaving your eyes.

"You leaved me" your voice almost came out in a whisper without thinking, without a pause as if you lost your own self control over you and you felt few drop of fresh tears welcomed by your eyes.

"Nobody wanted me, they all started hating me" Your painful voice directly piercing taehyung's heart. He has never saw such amount of pain radiating through a single soul at one time. Abandonce, loneliness, hating, blaming, losing.

He cupped your cheek and blinked his eyes as he felt tears blurred his eyes. He sucked in a huge breath.

"Why, why they started hating you and who they were" he said as if he didn't get the answer then this night might engulfed him.

"My own family" shocked, definitely. A ocean of hidden past coming in front of him and that moment he didn't know if he should hug you tight and let the tears out of all your pain or keep on going to know the depth of the ocean of your pain.

"Don't leave me again Taehyung, I am nothing without you." But your voice make it clear, you were tired exhausted and he need to take you in his arms because he also needed a good cry as his eyes were not helping in helding back a tons of tears.

And he pulled you in his arms tightly. Your head pressed against his chest. "D..don't leave me, I'd not knew I was p..pregnant. P..please Don't l..leave me" your words felt like knife on taehyung's chest.

He closed his eyes and allowed his tears to slide down on his cheek. "I won't leave you love, never" He ran his palm on your hair.

"I am sorry for hurting you. I am sorry for leaving you even though I know I couldn't change the past. I am sorry, love.

I failed so badly in keeping our promise"

Taehyung swiftly make his way to reach your face. He palmed your face and make you look up into his eyes.

"Tell me, love. you have not cheated on me because I am pretty sure there is so much I don't know and there was so much I should have tried to know but I leaved"

You whole face twitched when you just nodded to him with tears in your eyes and without pausing for a second he again pulled you in his arms. He held you in such a desperations to never let you go.