Forever Is Now

Confessions and Confusions

wanye | pov

"Yes," a simple and true answer. I say, almost a whisper but loud enough for the group to hear. I'm waiting for the room to explode but it's quiet. I look around and everyone is looking at Mackenzie and I.

Turning my head to look at her and see that maybe she might like me back but she and Ivan are having a conversation that's a little loud.

Did she hear? If she did then people better give her that Oscar.

The shambles I was talking about happened earlier.

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"I'm taking you home," I tell Mackenzie and walk towards my car immediately so that she doesn't get the chance to change her mind. Leaning against the passenger door, I wait for her to say good bye to her friends, hugging everyone but Monica and Valerie. Something is going on here and I have a feeling it's much bigger than me.

"Thank you," she says before getting into the car. She seems upset but I'm confused about why. If it is about the lap dance, she shouldn't be, it was just a game and I don't care. If it's about my confession, it was true. So is it because I told everyone before I told her or she doesn't want me to like her? It's... confusing.

"So, did you enjoy the day?" I ask once I've gotten into the car and started heading towards her house after she put her address into the GPS. There's tension in the car and I don't know if it's coming from me but I know it's because of me.

"Yeah, it was nice seeing everyone outside of school," she isn't looking at me, just straight ahead. Some thing is wrong and I won't ask.

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mackenzie | pov

After today, I'm just so confused. Between our talk earlier and Monica and not knowing what he said when he answered the truth question, I'm confused. I can't be mad about the lap dance, he's not my man. Am I mad? Yeah. Will I ever say it out loud? Absolutely not.

"Thanks for the ride," I quickly jump out and run into my house. The tension in the car just became so heavy that my first instinct was to run.

"Mackenzie, how was the party? I thought it ended a while ago," my sister is walking towards me at the door.

"It was good," I shrugged. "We went to one of my friend's house to play games and hung out, is mom here? Naomi shakes her head. I leave her there and run up stairs.

Staring at ceiling I'm realising how scared I am.

I've been single for a while and on purpose. My relationship with Steven was beautiful for like 2 weeks. He made this grand Valentine's Day gesture to ask me out, with flowers and chocolate in front of a lot people and I said yes. We spent the the next couple of days following each other around, I enjoyed the attention and affection. He would tell everyone in school I was girlfriend, which was cute at first but it quickly got overwhelming. Steven was very protective. Overly protective, if you ask me. I couldn't spend too much time talking to one of our guy friends, one day he got so mad because Michael and I shared a chocolate bar. What made matters worse is that his annoyance wasn't only directed at other boys. There are several incidents were Steven and another girl would be sent to the principle's office for verbally fighting. Steven always said it would be because those girls were gossiping about me. It took a while for me to get out of that, so when I could, I didn't look back.

And now with Wanye , it feels different. Everything is calm when it's just the 2 of us but when other people get involved, it's just so much chaos. Between Steven, Monica and our group, I don't know how this is going to go. Should I jump in or keep my cards close?

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wanye | pov

My phone rings as I walk into the house and I see it's my mom.

"Mom?"

"Hi sweety, how are you?"

"I'm okay ma, it's 11PM. Are you okay?"

I walk to my dad's office and see that he is still in there. I wave at him and then turn the office light off and point upstairs to tell him to go to bed.

"I'm okay, I know that you're awake it's a Saturday. I'm checking on my son,"

He gets up from his seat and groans as he walks past me. Mumbling a good night.

"I went to a birthday party,"

"You've made friends at the new school,"

"Yeah, I did. I'm social enough to not be a loner,"

Getting out of my clothes and preparing for bed.

"That's great Wanye. How's football? Last I heard, you made the team,"

"It's alright, tough coach but it's all good. Nothing I can't handle,"

"And, will your report card impress me again?"

"I don't know, you'll let me know what you think,"

We continue talking for a little longer before we hung up. It's well past midnight and I'm tempted to call Mackenzie's number as my finger hovers over it. But think against it, she must be sleeping.

I'm trying to figure out how I feel about her. She's very attractive. The girl is funny and feisty, you'll never know what will happen next. A confident girl who'll show glimpses of being soft when you're closely looking. Her way of looking at things and thinking stimulates my mind in a way I haven't felt before. There's something pulling me towards her, I know it's not love but I can't explain it. But she comes with a complication and that's Steven. On top of this, I don't know if I want to throw myself into a public relationship yet. The people around us are overly involved. She's kinda popular and I'm enjoying riding low key. Also I'm new here, do I really want to be tied down to the first girl I have a crush on at this school?

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