Forever Is Now

Kiss and Don't Tell conti.

I am practically inhaling this boy's cologne off his skin. My head has been in his neck for a few seconds and I'm going through a lot right now. It's so quiet and peaceful but the butterflies in my stomach are not dancing, they are fighting.

All of the sudden, Wayne's arm tightens around me and I'm lifted off the merry go round. Quickly shutting my eyes, my fear of falling taking over. I can feel him move but I don't know where he is taking me.

"Uhmmm, Wanye..." My voice is super light soft, eyes shut and head still on his shoulder. He grants to tell me he is listening, "where are you taking me?"

"Open your eyes Zee," when I do, I look around and see he moved us from the merry go round to right in front of the swing set.

I lift my head from his shoulder and look at him. Wanye is looking at me and then at my lips and I already know what's about to happen here. My heart beat has never been this fast.

Taking a quickly glance at his lips and then back to his eyes, he takes the hint and moves his head forward. I can feel him adjust his hands, moving them from my thighs to wrap around my back.

Wanye is still staring into my eyes but the way is looking at me looks so sexy, I can't help myself. My brain takes control and next thing I know, my lips are on his and he responds immediately. The kiss is soft and slow until I mistakenly moan. This must have drove Wanye crazy because he bites my bottom lip slightly and I open my mouth to protest. He slips his tongue in and this is the sexiest thing I've ever experienced. No rush, just slow and sensual.

I can feel him take a few steps back and he sits on the swing without once breaking the kiss. It's impressive. I'm now straddling him and I break the kiss to put my forehead against his. We are both breathing hard and the swing sways back and forth slightly. I remove my head to look at him properly and there's a smile on his face. "I was not expecting that," Wanye says.

"You were not expecting a kiss on the first date?" I frown. Is this not normal? Did he not want that?

"No, I knew I was going to kiss you today. Planned on it," he gives me quick peck and I blush. "I did not expect to like it this much."

Slightly nodding my head, there's a question I need to ask before this goes any further. "So what happens now?"

"I will kiss you again," he approaches me and I push him back and laugh.

"You know what I'm talking about," I say and return his peck.

"We continue the way things are," I guess he sees the confusion on my face and continues. "I like the way it is between us. We don't need to put labels on things. You should know by now how I feel about you. I like you, a lot, Mackenzie. For now, let's keep things the way they are,"

"So what you're saying is that no one needs to know?"

He nods and my heart breaks a little. "The people who matter, know. That's us," he points between us. "We know where we stand when it comes to each other,"

I am at a loss for words. I mean, I know that there is a lot to contend with but some thing just isn't sitting right with me. Choosing to ignore that feeling, I smile at him and say the only thing I can think of right now, "Maybe that's what's best,"

It's not. I already know that this 'Need to know' relationship is going to be chaotic. I don't have any experience with a boy who doesn't want to tell people about us. The whole thing is weird to me but I'm going to let him take the lead, he seems confident enough about this.

Wanye gets up and puts me on my feet. He pulls me closer to him, I can feel his hands on the lowest part of my back and I grab his face to kiss him again. This time the kiss is impatient and not as soft as before.

Am I his? Is he mine? Are we exclusive? What the hell is going on here?

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