HE'S MINE

090

I lost the track of time when the sadness took over me. Yuzuha has dropped me off 2 hours ago and now it was just my sad life with me. I lay in my bed, and Smiley sleeping in his bed. If I can't trust Sanzu, I don't know I can trust anyone else. He was persuasive when he showed his care to me, the way he looked in my eyes was always full of love and care, but the moment I saw him in the room with Emma, I have felt like I won't be able to fall in love again.

I closed my eyes and a tear wet my eyelashes. I have been trying to persuade myself that everything will be okay, that's it's not considered cheating when we are not in a relationship, but how am I supposed to believe in his love when all this time he showed me care, proved me his love but is messing around with other girls. I thought we had a special connection, a person I can truly believe in. now I wouldn't stop thinking, has he moved on from me? Because that explains why he is ignoring me, not answering my texts and if that's the case, I can't blame him. Maybe I am crying and grieving while he has already moved on, we are never a couple so in that case isn't considered cheating. With that being said, I persuaded my heart that is fine, it is fine until he comes back and expresses feelings to me, that will never be okay, it will be an indication of him playing a fool of me.

I sighed and closed my eyes, after all the heartache, I finally dozed off.

It was a tough morning, almost having zero motivation. I sat with yuzuha and hanma in the café.

"It was mine," yuzuha slapped hanma's hand as he reached for her plate for a nugget.

"Just one piece won't kill you," hanma argued and growled playfully. I was sitting there, absent-minded and sighing.

"I don't share my food with anyone, except y/n, I can share my food with her anytime." Yuzuha held my hand and smiled at me, she was trying hard to make me feel better, but I was just drained of all the energy.

"Oh! She is missing sans." Hanma, who had no idea what we saw last night, that his friend being the biggest hypocrite has broken my heart, cheered playfully.

"Hanma!" Yuzuha quickly snapped, glaring at him as he tried to understand her.

"I am thinking about Mikey!" I lied, there is no way I wanted them to think that I was crying over someone who is seeing someone else.

"It sounds so wrong, don't say it in front of Sanzu, he will be mad," Hanma added, he really had no idea about anything. I sighed, rather than arguing with him, I decided to ignore him and any topic regarding Sanzu. I lifted my face and spotted Sanzu walking through people towards us. I felt a strong grip around my heart like someone has squeezed my heart till it stopped beating. I secretly made a tight fist of my hands but showed no facial expressions.

"guys, I have news." Sanzu placed his bag on the chair between me and Yuzuha and sat down, I couldn't really make myself to look at his face.

"Is it about Mikey?" Hanma questioned, straightening his back, as the Sunday was approaching us, we decided to speed up our plan, which we really had none so far.

"you guys will be shocked," Sanzu smiled, showing the magic of his eyes, but he doesn't know that looks can't save you every time. I exhaled in boredom and looked away, Yuzuha too indulged herself in the phone.

"Girls!" Hanma voiced, getting our attention and telling us through his gestures to pay attention.

"we listen through our ears," Yuzuha frowned, sighing annoyingly.

"is everything alright?" Sanzu looked at us and questioned, he tried looked at us and questioned, he tried to make eye contact with me but I looked away again.

"I don't know, she is like this since morning and this one over here changed lkke the weather when you came." Hanma shrugged his shoulders and watched us again.

"Fine, what were you saying?" Yuzuha mumbled and asked Sanzu but the look on her face was a symbol of hatred.

"have I done something wrong?" Sanzu inquired suspiciously, this was the moment when I looked at him, but he stole his eyes, he didn't wanna make eye contact at this moment and I knew why.

"you were telling us something?" even though he has done so wrong to me, I felt like it was wrong to act like this, either confront him or just leave his sight but now that we didn't want to confront him, we should really not act like a bitch. "Go on," I faked a smile, Hanma sighed once he thought things were normal and Yuzuha watched my face in confusion.

"It is about Shinichiro," after taking a break, Sanzu stated, "Emma told me about shini---," he hadn't completed his sentence when Yuzuha and I crackled in sarcasm, "what?" he watched us and annoyingly frowned, "do you girls wanna hear or not?" after everything he did, he was pissed lol, when it should be me.

"since when did you start hanging around with Emma?" Yuzuha smiled and tilted her face, Sanzu instantly turned his face to watch my expressions and stared at me while I scoffed and didn't make eye contact.

"she is a friend," he cleared his throat and mumbled, not looking in our eyes.

"so what did your friend say about Shinichiro?" it was definitely a sarcasm but Sanzu didn't bother much.

"Shinichiro has told Emma to leave the house on Sunday so that only we will be there," he announced and my heart skipped a beat, what was this man planning for us.

"oh, where will poor Emma go?" Yuzuha added, she wasn't letting go of this topic, she was mad too but my heart was broke.

"it's fine, she can stay at Sanzu's mansion," I stated seriously, they all though I was joking at the beginning but clearly I wasn't.

"is this really necessary right now?" he muttered, glaring at me like someone would glare at their worst enemy and I. had enough, he can't be ass after hurting me.

"I am serious," I muttered and the smile from Hanma's face vanished, he watched our faces and then looked at Yuzuha, who looked upset as well. "You can make her stay with you while we are at Mikey's place." I finished and raised a brow.

"no! I am coming with you guys, I can't leave you---,"I had enough, I can't listen to his fake care and all.

"I don't want you there, I want to make sure Mikey is comfortable and for that, you shoundlt be there." I was bitter, obviously, giving him the taste of his own medicine. The color of his face faded as he tried to look me in the eye but I rolled my eyes.

"that is not fair," Hanma chimed in, always tailing after his friend.

"are you sure?" I looked him in the eye angrily, "you can stay with your friend if you want to." I was burning in this fire of heartbreak.

"you can't humiliate him like this," Hanma argued, but Sanzu remained silent, I bet he had an idea that I have figured it all out.

"I will come, you wanna throw me out of his house, you are welcome," Sanzu stated and resting his back on the seat. After that, nobody said anything, but Sanzu's phone beeped and the look on his face changed.

"Yuzuha can I talk to you for a moment?" he asked, shoving the phone in his pocket.

"what it is, say it here." she folded her arms and babbled, he watched her face in disbelief for a moment and then straightened his back.

"don't bother, it's nothing." there it was, his ego was hurt. I raised my brow and Yuzuha too ignored him, why won't he say it? why not just tell me the truth and give me any stupid excuse, just so I can know you are guilty.

I watched my cellphone's screen lit up, letting me know that Mikey has sent me a text.

MIKEY:
Can I join you guys if you don't mind?

A quick sweet smile crept over my lips and when I lifted my face, I saw Mikey standing afar, waiting for approval.

I saw Sanzu following my stare and he gulped when his eyes spot the reason behind my smile.