🦊Yedam Oneshots🦊

Bestfriend (DamWoo)

inspo: lifetime by ben&ben

Sadness. That's one word to describe my feelings right now. I want to be happy, I really do but I can't. It hurts too much.

But look there he is. His smiles are so wide, his eyes twinkling like stars. And what he doesn't know is that he is causing me so much pain.

My bestfriend is now getting married. I should be happy, right? But I just can't. It hurts so much to see your first love getting married but not to you.
I have loved him for so long that it pains me that I'm not the one who puts that smile on his face. His loving eyes are not directed to me. If only I took the million chances universe gave me.

*Flashback*

We just successfully finish our part in the school's event. This may be our last time performing together since it's our last year in school and we are going to college. Me and Yedam are part of a band in school. Me and him have always been inseparable. We have our future planned ahead of us. We both want to go to the same college though we are taking different courses. We both know each other like the back of our hands.

Once we went down the stage, I called out for him. "Hey Damie, can you come with me? I have something to tell you"

"Yeah sure. I'm also planning to say something to you anyways"

I'm planning to confess my love to you Yedam.

I dragged him to our place, the rooftop. When we reach it we are instantly greeted by the cold air. It just occurred to me how cold this place is during night time but hopefully, my burning love for him would give us warmth.

"I'm gonna miss this place." Yedam said admiring the view his arms spread wide, a smile decorating his face. He doesn't seem to mind the cold breeze as he let it engulf him. I watched him in adoration.

"He has always been this beautiful. Everything about him is beautiful. He cares so much that made me fall for him. I just hope he also feels the same way, because Bang Yedam, I already fell for you so hard and my feeling has grown deeper than the ocean and my love for you keeps burning like fire."

"I'm gonna miss our talks here Woo. And I'll also miss you." He said now facing me. "I'll miss it too Damie." I smiled at him.

After a few whiles of us just admiring the view and getting comfortable with the soft atmosphere around, I finally broke the silence.

"Uhmmm... Yedamie about the thing I want to tell you..."

"Right... I also have something to tell you."

"Yeah go ahead you can go fir-"

"No, you first. You are the one who took me here."

"Fine" well I'm doomed

My hands start to sweat despite the coldness trying to find the right words "Well I just want to say that..." Yedam is looking at me expectantly that only made me more nervous and started to rethink if this is the right choice. Should I really be doing this? Does he think of me that way? What if I just ruin everything. I don't want to lose him. I don't want him to think I'm some crazy psycho that fell in love with his bestfriend

"Well, I just want to say... That you did great earlier. I'll miss your voice." Well, there goes my chance. "Stupid Jeongwoo"

Yedam looked at me kinda disappointed but quickly change it to a smile"wait what?!? Disappointed!!? You're just imagining things Jeongwoo, stop"

"Yeah, I'll miss your voice to Jeongwoo. And the thing that I want to talk to you about well... I kinda forgot it sorry" he said with a sheepish smile which I just laughed off even though on the inside I'm sad.

"What am I expecting, a confession?!?! Yeah, wake up Woo that will never happen."

The night ends and my feelings are once again left unsaid.

*End of flashback*

I don't want to ruin his happiness but I won't let this feeling be left unsaid again. I know I don't stand a chance but telling these feelings to you, I can finally let you go completely and be genuinely happy for you. So I'll be taking this step again no backing down as I did years ago. Because now, I'm finally ready to let you go.

"Hey Damie, can I talk to you?" I reached for him tapping his back. "Hey, Asahi hyung I'll borrow him for a second ok." Asahi just nodded and let Yedam take my hands. I dragged him out to the garden at the back of the reception hall. Once we arrived, I made him face me, holding both of his sides.

"Hey Woo, what is this about?"

"Jeongwoo this is all or nothing" I took a deep breath and stared right at his eyes.

"Yedam, I like you... No, I love you. I've been feeling this way for so long I can't hold it back anymore. I have no plans on taking you away from Asahi but I just need to let these feelings out because I want to be happy for you. I don't want to let myself be stuck in the past. You're my friend and I want you to be happy. And this is me letting go of what's holding me down on being happy for you." I said all in one breath and my chest finally letting go of the weight that was holding it down.

Yedam just stared at me trying to process everything that I've said while I calm myself down.

"Jeongwoo... I-" Yedam took a deep breath and said "I liked you too"

"I was planning to confess to you after our performance back in highschool when you took me to that rooftop because I thought you like me too but what you said made me hesitate and I was scared to lose what we have because our friendship is one of the beautiful things that came to my life and I don't want to ruin it."

Jeongwoo's head is in haywire, remembering how he backed out with the same thoughts running through his mind. If only he didn't doubt, if only he took the chance then maybe Yedam's smiles are still directed to him, Yedam's happiness is still him.

I didn't know he was crying until Yedam wiped a tear from his face. It made me come back to my senses. I saw him looking sad and guilty.

"I had the same thoughts Damie. But now, I know you are happy with him and I'm happy for you. I know you feel sorry for me but don't be, because I'm setting myself free. I have long accepted that maybe we are not meant to be. But I will always be your best friend who would never leave your side.

I pulled Yedam into a hug  "I'm not fine, but I will be. So be happy and if ever he hurts you I will never hesitate to throw in some punches" I said that made the both of us laugh.

"I'm letting these feelings go because I know we aren't meant to be each other's lifetime. But I'm willing to be your friend for a lifetime"

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