Our way to each other | Binwoo

five

But Bin felt something, maybe deep in his mind he knew and tried to deny it. No, MJ can't know. I mean, how would he know? He thought.

"You have feelings for Eunwoo, don't you?"

Bin only gulped and couldn't say a word.

"I- sorry, I should've probably started from saying I have nothing against it."

"I don't really understand."

"Don't worry, I won't say anyone."

"Stop. I'm not one of those."

"I won't pressure you."

"I don't understand why you even started all this."

"I'm sorry."

"Stop saying sorry!"

"I-"

"Don't say anything at all!"

Bin's blood was boiling. Was he angry because MJ started this conversation or because now he knows the truth? Bin denied everything anyway.

"Hey!" It was Jinwoo who opened the door but remained standing in his room. "What's going on? You're being a bit loud."

"Nothing. Bin and I were discussing the new mobile game. He doesn't like when I win."

"You sure?" And the leader glanced at Bin.

"Yes, huyng is right."

"Don't argue about such things, okay?"

"Ok, Jin-ah."

Jinwoo closed the door. And those two who were standing in the kitchen looked at each other until MJ said "If you change your mind..." to what Bin turned around and went into his room. The door slammed loudly so that Eunwoo jumped up and didn't dare to say a word when the younger came in.

When Bin's ardor cooled he abruptly fell into an emotional pit and wanted to cry or to scream, or his emotions stuck right in his throat because he felt desperate.

The next 3 days Bin... well he didn't even look like Bin and it was noticeable, everyone was concerned. But again, only MJ knew what was happening. And every night Eunwoo asked his friend if he was alright, but only heard sobs in response.

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It was late evening when Bin got out of his room because he felt he'd burst into tears right in front of Eunwoo. And as soon as he slammed the door, he fell on his knees and cried, not noticing another person in the corridor. It was Jinjin, he was sitting on the couch but quickly got up and went closer to Bin. He hugged him, so Bin was crying into Jinwoo's shoulder. The older helped him to get up after a minute and now they were sitting on the couch together.

Of course, Eunwoo heard a sound, as if something had fallen. He heard other noises but slightly opened the door only when the sounds got quieter. Now he heard the conversation:

"Shhh, Binnie, don't cry," said Jinwoo as he was patting Bin's shoulder.

"I- I'm- sorry..." Bin was stuttering as he was crying.

"There's nothing to apologize for."

"I can't- do this any- more..."

"What is it, Binnie?"

He couldn't say it.

"It's okay if you don't want to tell."

"I- can't."

"Is there someone you can tell about it?"

"There was and I-"

And he burst into tears again, thinking that even here he had hurt someone's feeling, not realizing he hurt his own feelings.

"I said this person was wrong. I was mean and now..."

"Hey, don't be afraid to ask for their's help even if you weren't right. If this person really can help, just try."

Eavesdropping is bad but Eunwoo couldn't close the door, he was interested, he was concerned and he knew that someone Bin was talking about, wasn't himself. Just because Bin wasn't mean to him and they didn't even talk about anything like that.

Eunwoo's tear dropped at the same time as his heart. And was it because Bin didn't tell him about everything that was bothering him? Or was it because Bin was hurt? It became almost silent in the corridor, nothing was heard but Bin's whimpers.

Eunwoo closed the door carefully and tried not to cry because when Bin comes back, he shouldn't see his best friend's red and watery eyes.

But Bin came back only when it was time to sleep. Both of the boys didn't say a word. The older thought it was his fault, he didn't comfort his friend. He felt like he wasn't there for him when he really needed it. The younger one thought about what he should do now. Jinjin said Bin should ask one particular person for help. Should he do it? MJ said he had nothing against it, he wanted to help, to support, but I was so rude... Bin thought. I'll talk to him tomorrow... maybe.

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It was morning and it was a perfect chance for Bin to talk to MJ since only two of them stayed at home. They had no schedules that day. Although, MJ wanted to go to the studio on his own and was about to leave when Moonbin shouted his hyung's name.

(A/N: About the house. I should've described it earlier, in the previous chapters but okay... How should I say it? Their house has two floors, as you understand. There is a kitchen, a living room, and a small bathroom on the first floor. And two bathrooms and the member's rooms (they live in pairs: Myungjin, Binwoo and Sanhyuk) are placed on the second floor. And the second floor is just half of the first one. There is a staircase to the "corridor". And actually, it's not really a corridor since it doesn't have 3 walls, instead of them it has railings. So, you can see the kitchen and the part of the living room from the second floor. Maybe my description was confusing haha. I'll build the house in The Sims lol, and will attach screenshots later. Okay, now let's get back to the story).

Myungjun turned his head back and then his body followed it when he saw Bin standing on the second floor.

"Can we talk?" asked Bin calmly, and MJ put his bag on the ground near the front door.

Both of them headed to the kitchen and sat in front of each other. Moonbin put his head down while MJ was patiently waiting for his dongsaeng to start talking.

"I'm so sorry I was like that a few days ago."

"It's understandable."

"Are you mad at me?"

"No, Binnie. I'm fine, really, don't worry."

"Thank you."

"Is that what you wanted to talk about?"

"Not just this... Jinjin hyung said I should talk to someone who knows why I am like this. It's you who knows. Help me. Listen to me, please."

"Sure, Binnie, go ahead."

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I've come back to this chapter to say that I've built the house. It took me maybe 3-4 days, but I did it! Yaaay! So, after this chapter, I'll create another one and put all the screenshots there. The conclusion: the pics will be attached separately, not in the 6th chapter haha.

Thanks for reading <3

AND HAPPY BIRTHDAY MOONBIN ❤️