Our way to each other | Binwoo

seven

The 15th of January, 2017.

"Are we alone?" Asked Eunwoo as he busted into the house.

"Yeah, why?" Asked the oldest in the group.

"Well, the manager was here in the morning and after lunch, so I thought... ANYWAY!" He shouted the last word, so even MJ had to close his ears. "I asked Mina out on a date. I need some advice."

Bin jumped up from the table, loudly pushing the chair back with the back of his knees. MJ and Jinjin glanced at him.

"Are you all right?" Asked one of them, but Bin was angry for some reason, so he didn't even hear who it was. He just quickly looked at everybody in the room and calmly sat down.

"Sorry. I just-" Myungjun noticed how worried Bin was and patted him on the shoulder.

"It's okay, Bin, but I need advice."

"What exactly did you say? Where are you going to go?"

"Does it really matter what I said, hyung? And I don't know where we should go."

"Okaaaaay, but when will you go?"

"Tomorrow evening."

"Are you kidding? You don't even know where to go and it's almost 9 pm!"

"So?"

"Take her to the park not so far from our high school," Bin intervened in the loud discussion. "You still like that park, huh?" And he smiled, but his eyes were sad because of the memories.

"You're right. You know me so well. But what will I do there?"

"Just take her for a walk. Isn't it nice to walk under the dark sky and try to know each other better? I bet you want to know about anything from her life, you weren't that close, and then you completely lost touch with her. And your life has changed, you have a lot to talk about."

"Ah, Bin-ah, I love you! What would I-"

"No, please."

"Sorry?"

"Oh- No- I mean- no need to thank me."

"But you helped me a lot. I'll go to the room and text Mina, okay? Thank you!" The retreating voice was heard, Eunwoo went upstairs, to the room.

"Hey, Bin-ah, can we talk in private?"

"We can talk here."

"I mean..." Myungjun looked at Bin and then met Jinwoo's eyes.

"I know what you mean. He can stay. I want to let him know," said Bin as he kept looking at the table and clenched his fist because of nervousness. Jinwoo was so confused and was shocked when Bin confessed that he had feelings for Eunwoo. He simply didn't know what to say.

"... and when you said you had a person to tell about your emotions, it was MJ hyung?"

"Yes. He knew. Well... he figured it out but I denied everything."

"Wow..."

"Sorry I didn't tell you earlier."

"And you didn't have to, it doesn't mean you don't trust me, does it?"

"No, it doesn't."

"Then nothing to worry about. I'm glad you still had somebody to talk to about it," he continued after a little pause. "You still gave Eunwoo an idea for his date. Don't you think you're doing worse for yourself?"

"If I can't make him happy, I want him to be happy with somebody else."

"Why do you think he can't be happy with you?"

"Because he said he couldn't imagine himself in a relationship with a man." Bin's voice was getting louder, you could hear his irritation, anger, and maybe there was some despair in it. "I'm so tired of this shit. It feels like I'm going crazy. Why am I like this?"

"There, there. Calm down, Binnie, everything is okay."

"Nothing is okay! Everything feels like a damn burden!"

"Hey, please, be quieter." MJ took Bin's arm and tried to catch his gaze.

"I'm just tired of being broken."

"What are you talking about? You're not broken."

"I am. Why am I is... me? Why it's me who fell in love with a guy from my group who doesn't even like boys? Can you tell me?"

"Sorry, Bin, but we don't have an answer... nobody has."

"Of course... it just feels unfair, you know." Bin scoffed at how much pain he felt at that moment.

'-'

The evening of the next day felt stressful for Bin, and morning too... and afternoon... and the day in general, actually. When Eunwoo came home from his date, Bin didn't know yet that his life would become a real emotional torture afterwards.

"GUYS!?" Shouted Eunwoo with a smile on his face. "Do I look like someone's boyfriend now?"

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This chapter is shorter and maybe I should keep it like this. Because MaYbE it's tiring to read long chapters, right? Heh, anyway, thanks for reading <3