Our way to each other | Binwoo

thirty one

"I just... doesn't matter, maybe will say it later."

"Go on now," insisted Minhyuk.

And Eunwoo really wanted to start talking emotions the better of him and he began to choke in his tears.

Sanha and Minhyuk hugged the boy because they were sitting next to him. MJ and Jinwoo put down their chopsticks and also tried to comfort him with words. Only Bin kept sitting in front of Eunwoo and didn't move, didn't say anything. Maybe he wanted but he simply couldn't.

Although a couple of minutes later Eunwoo was able to speak again, he was stuttering but at least his speech was legible.

"Since the beginning of November, the day when I told you a lot of people talked-" Eunwoo stuttered.

"Take your time," comforted the leader.

"People talked bad things about me. I couldn't move on because since then I've been noticing them saying that. There were a lot of awful words and-" Eunwoo exhaled loudly, not having time to get enough air. "I had no one to talk to because I didn't want to bother you. But I felt-" Eunwoo sobbed "I felt so lonely when I stayed alone in my room."

Bin felt a stab in his heart.

"Everyone was busy and the one I always had by my side-" He cried out loud. "I lost him... I'm saying this as if that person isn't here but I can't handle it."

Bin started feeling growing pain in the heart. He felt like he didn't have enough air no matter how hard he tried to normalize his breathing. In the end, Bin stood up, dropping the chair. He tried to grab onto something, but there was nothing, so he ran to his room as fast as he could.

All the boys were confused, Jinwoo was also scared, he knew what problems Bin had and now he completely didn't understand that reaction. He couldn't be there and here, he didn't know what to do at all, but he collided with MJ's gaze, to which the latter nodded and Jinjin ran after Bin, literally taking off from his seat.

The leader entered the room that luckily wasn't locked and saw crying Bin on the floor near the window. He drew up his knees, wrapped his arms around them, and buried his nose in them, completely hiding his face. That's how he looked the day Eunwoo found him crying in the empty practice room, the day Bin didn't know he was in love with a guy yet.

Jinwoo quickly approached the younger and hugged him. The leader had mixed feelings, he was sad because Bin was crying but he felt relief that Moonbin can now experience emotions again.

It's a well-known fact that Jinjin is a great leader, the boys love him so much, he's always there for them, always ready to listen to them and comfort them. Moonbin felt better when the big hands touched his shoulders. The leader didn't say anything but it wasn't necessary, the younger just needed someone around. After five minutes of continuous crying and Bin was finally able to utter a few words.

"I feel but I don't want it."

The pain was too intense, unbearable, that not only Bin's eyes hurt, but also his cheeks and throat. No doubt that the boys who kept sitting on the first floor heard him.

Ten minutes later Bin felt tired although he kept sobbing and couldn't control himself. He lay down on the strong shoulder of the leader, with every second Moonbin's head seemed heavier, the sobs quieter and eventually he just fell asleep from fatigue. He fell asleep so soundly that he didn't even notice how he was lifted. Jinwoo picked him up to carry him to bed, covered him with a blanket, and, leaving the room, returned to the guys on the first floor.

"We heard-"

"Yes," said Jinwoo, not letting Sanha end his sentence. "He needs a rest."

"Is he okay?"

"I hope so."

"He didn't show any emotions during... I don't even know, more than a month?"

"But he did..."

"You sure it was real?" Intervened MJ into Minhyuk and Sanha's conversation to which Eunwoo raised his head and started thinking about something.

He's right. That was a lie. That's why his smile looked fake when we asked him if he was okay.

When it was time to sleep, Eunwoo was determined for the first time to approach Bin. So when he entered his room, he sat down at the edge of the bed and brushed the boy's cheek.

"Rest well, Binnie. I love you."

The voice sounded so quiet, calm, and sad in that dark room, which wasn't even illuminated by the moon.

Moonbin woke up in the morning and felt empty. He thought he lost his emotions again but then he realized that he felt empty because he was sad, offended by the words of the person he still loves with all his heart.

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