Our way to each other | Binwoo

thirty

"The company will probably give you the rest you ask for but they'll also post an announcement and the members will find out anyway, what will you say?"

"A lie."

Everyone understood there were mental problems so they sent a psychologist to Bin and they had a chat. Jinwoo was right, Bin got what he wanted. Later that day, the agency published an announcement about Moonbin going on hiatus and the members got the new schedule even before JinBin came back home.

"EXCUSE ME, WHAT?" Shouted MJ as soon as the two members opened the front door.

"Yeah..."

"What does it mean, hyung?" Asked Sanha who was panicking so much.

"What's written there?"

"That Moonbin will be halting activities temporarily."

"So any other questions?"

"Sorry, WHAT!?" Shouted Myungjun again.

"Hey..." Jinwoo stopped the oldest by putting his hand on MJ's chest and shaking his head.

"Sorry, I have nothing against it but I wish- I wish we knew the reason."

"The fact that the reason exists is enough, don't you think so?"

"Excuse me? You became so cheeky!"

"Sorry, hyung. If you really want to know, then here you go! The reason is that I'm not confident in myself. Even in the way I dance. Are you happy now? I didn't want to say it because I feel humiliated that way." Bin left the members on the first floor and disappeared into his room.

"I should've remained silent, right, Jinnie?" But Jinwoo looked so sad about it, so he only broke eye contact in response and left the room as well.

Eunwoo came into his room and he didn't know what to say, how to behave, hot to help Bin, so he felt uncomfortable.

"I know we haven't been talking to each other for days but if you need anything I-"

"I'm fine."

"You didn't even say you were going to go on hiatus."

Bin didn't answer.

"Do you hate me?"

"I don't. Why would I?" Asked Bin with indifference in his voice.

"Because I said terrible things."

"People talk shit they don't know almost every day but they don't say sorry, why would you say that?"

"Because that shit was from me and about you."

"Let's end the discussion."

"What?"

Bin didn't reply again. He didn't want to talk to Eunwoo when he felt nothing. He didn't feel betrayed or sad, or as if he was stabbed right into the heart. He felt empty, he felt nothing. So he didn't want to figure things out when he couldn't express what he felt.

Four weeks later Bin still felt nothing. But every day he went to the studio or practice room, he visited the psychologist 3 times a week since the company told him to do it. Although the boy knew it wouldn't help because he didn't say the real reason for it. He simply couldn't say "You know, I'm dating another boy and, oh, by the way, he's an ASTRO member. So we had a wonderful time but one day he said offensive things so now I feel nothing because, before that, I've been crying and drinking alcohol and barely slept 5 hours a day." No, he definitely can't say that.

At home everything remained the same, he didn't talk much to the members. He didn't even call his family that often. Yes, he felt like he was a terrible son but he couldn't force himself to call them, even knowing that his parents and sister were worried.

Talking about the families, Bin asked Eunwoo what they'd say about their relationship. Their parents had nothing against LGBT+ but Bin was scared anyway. Eunwoo? Eunwoo only said that they didn't need to tell anyone. But it can't be like that forever, right? Unless they break up... but if that happens, what will be with the group? Pretend as if nothing changed? But what if one of them or both of them still have feelings? Even if they lose those feelings for each other, will they think of each other the same way? They hugged more, kissed, and had sex... It's complicated.

Tonight was different. No, they gathered to eat dinner as usual but Bin joined them too. But Eunwoo also looked weird today.

"What happened? You've been looking at the food for 5 minutes or more."

"Have no appetite," said Eunwoo.

"Is it because I decided to join you all?" Asked Bin who was also picking at his plate.

Eunwoo immediately raised his head.

"No, Binnie..."

Four weeks later but Eunwoo still calls him Binnie...

"I just... doesn't matter, maybe will say it later."

"Go on now," insisted Minhyuk.

And Eunwoo really wanted to start talking emotions the better of him and he began to choke in his tears.

Sanha and Minhyuk hugged the boy because they were sitting next to him. MJ and Jinwoo put down their chopsticks and also tried to comfort him with words. Only Bin kept sitting in front of Eunwoo and didn't move, didn't say anything. Maybe he wanted but he simply couldn't.

Although a couple of minutes later Eunwoo was able to speak again, he was stuttering but at least his speech was legible.

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