Our way to each other | Binwoo

twenty

"I told you not to drink this much. I told you?"

"You did, Binnie. But the food and-" Eunwoo started hiccupping. "And drinks were so good."

"Put your hand over my shoulder, I'll help you."

"You're drunk as well."

"At least I can stand on my feet." And after these words, Bin swayed.

"I don't think so."

"Shut up and go."

Both of them stumbled into the room when it was about 2 a.m., and the house was quiet. It seems that the guys were already asleep.

"Close the door."

"Keep silent. I'm trying to do it carefully but you're heavy."

"Bin-aaah, kiss me."

"Are you kidding me? Where's the switch?" Bin mumbled.

"Don't turn on the light, just kiss me."

"You've got to be kidding me," continued the boy without paying attention to his boyfriend's words.

Eunwoo stood on his feet with more confidence and gripped Moonbin's chin. He took it with his fingers and pulled him closer until he felt their lips connected.

One soft kiss becoming into a passionate one. At that moment, it seemed to them that they were no longer reeling from the alcohol. Eunwoo wrapped one arm around Bin's neck and took his cheek with his right hand. And then pulled him closer, as if biting into his lips.

Slowly they approached one of the beds and when they lay down, without taking a deep breath, without breaking the chain of kisses, Eunwoo was under Bin and his hands started traveling on the body of the younger. He put his hands under his shirt and tried to go lower but Bin put his head up and broke the kiss with such movement.

"Out of breath?" Asked Eunwoo and stretched out his neck to reach Bin's lips with his. But the boy evaded that kiss.

"I don't want it like that."

"What do you mean?"

"I don't want our first time to be like this. When we're drunk."

"Why not? It's more fun, isn't it?" Eunwoo tried to kiss Bin again and this time he succeeded. Another passionate kiss took Moonbin out of reality until he felt hands on his thighs and broke the kiss again.

"No. Listen. We won't remember it."

"Aww, you're so romantic."

"Stop it, please. I'm serious."

Eunwoo looked into the eyes of the guy who was now on top of him. They had been in the dark for some time, so their eyes got used to it and he immediately found the familiar outlines.

"I'm sorry. Let's just sleep then." Eunwoo put his hand on Bin's head and slightly brushed his hair.

The next morning was difficult, as you can guess.

Eunwoo started opening his eyes, it was like all the sensations had returned to him and he suddenly felt something heavy. He fully opened his eyes now and turned his head to see Binnie. Half of the boy's body was placed on Eunwoo. The older scoffed as he saw Bin's posture. He looked like he was hugging him or protecting him, or he was just drunk and didn't care the way he slept. Yes, the third option sounds more realistic.

"Bin-ah..." The guy began softly, his voice only cut through after a difficult night and a long sleep. "Binnie..." He touched his boyfriend's hair and removed a couple of strands from his face. "Wake up."

In response, Bin only wheezed and moved his hand which is now placed on Eunwoo's lips. The older one slowly opened his mouth and slightly bit the finger.

"Mhm..."

"Yes, Binnie? You woke up now?"

"Why..."

"What why?"

"Why did you bite my finger?"

"I'm hungry. Open your eyes, otherwise, I'll eat you."

"I'm not tasty."

"Believe me, you are. I found out about it this night." Eunwoo started touching Moonbin's forehead with his nose and the latter instantly opened his eyes.

After a second, he got up from the bed with a worried look.

"Let's not mention it, okay?"

"Why not?"

"I want us to forget it."

"Ridiculous. There was nothing bad about it."

"No. I mean- let's drop it. I'll go and brush my teeth."

Here we go again. Thought Eunwoo. He was concerned about Moonbin's decisions, words, and their relationship in general. He couldn't forget Bin's phrase when he said that he hated himself. What if he still does?

'-'

"Remember you told me you hated yourself?"

"How can I forget?"

"Why were you like that? Did someone offend you?"

"No, I just thought it wasn't right."

As they kept lying on the bed, looking at each other, Eunwoo kept asking questions.

"Why do you think I accepted the fact that I liked you so soon?"

"I don't know. Why?"

"I don't know either. Why can't you accept yourself?"

"Actually, I-"

"Don't lie, Binnie."

Moonbin stopped for quite a long so Eunwoo noticed those sparkles in his eyes, he noticed those sad and watery eyes in the darkness. But after another minute Bin was able to let out the words.

"I don't know. I keep thinking about the future and I don't see it. More precisely, I can't see the bright future..."

Eunwoo didn't reply, he was too focused and interested.

"Funny, how you can have lots of love around but you won't feel loved... You won't understand."

"You don't feel loved?"

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I hope you understand what Bin's line "I don't want our first time to be like this..." means. If not, it means that it'll happen one day (don't know in what chapter yet) BUT I'll put a caution so if you want, you'll be able to skip it. And by the way, after publishing a chapter with such type of content, the story will be marked as 'mature'. Yes, I want to write it, I already have some drafts so I just wanted to let you know about this😅

Thanks for reading <3