Our way to each other | Binwoo

twenty nine

A/N note: As you know, Moonbin was on hiatus back in 2019, so I'll use it in this story and make my version of it, I just wanted to say that I understand that it was serious and I'm not downplaying his real problems at that time. I'm glad that Bin is all right and he found the strength to come back. But since it's AU I wanted it to be like that. I hope you understand what I mean. Enjoy the chapter!
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This time Bin slept more because alcohol made him sleepy. But his head was about to explode and his stomachache was still there. He wasn't in his best condition to practice the choreo but did he have another option? No, because he didn't want the boys to know about him drinking every night. This day and this night were almost the same. Practicing, drinking, tough morning but no crying at night.

November 7 is the day when it started. Moonbin woke up after an ordinary night but he realized he didn't want to drink anymore. But there was another thing he hadn't realized yet.

"Good morning, Binnie."

"Morning."

"You look fresher today."

"Thank you."

"Are you okay though?"

"As always, yes."

"Okay..." Drawled MJ but he noticed that something was different.

Today Bin was more concentrated and tried to make his every move sharper and better. All the previous days he was sluggish and sad but not today. The boys thought it was because Eunwoo joined them again for practices, so they didn't ask anything.

November 11. Eunwoo joined the members for dinner but his head was down and Minhyuk noticed how one tear dropped from Eunwoo's eye.

"Hyung?" Everyone looked at the boy. "Are you okay?"

Only after a minute, he replied.

"I didn't want to check my name on Twitter, why did I do that?"

"What do you mean?" Asked worried MJ.

"A lot of bad things about me."

"Oh no, Eunwoo... People may be rude, try to pay attention to nice words, there're way more nice words than the bad ones." JInjin tried to comfort the boy.

"I know, I just needed support but saw-"

The boy was interrupted by the way Bin scoffed and smiled. Now he got everyone's attention. Even Eunwoo raised his head, and his eyes were locked with Bin's. The younger saw the watery red eyes of the older and the smile immediately disappeared from his face. Not waiting for another second, Bin got up and left the kitchen.

One person appeared in binwoo's room, the one who began to look thoughtfully out of the window. A minute later, the second person appeared there, it was Jinwoo, who followed Bin.

"What happened?" Asked the leader.

"Ridiculous. Fucking ridiculous."

"Hey... take it easy, what happened?"

"I don't feel anything."

"What do you mean?"

"That's what I mean. I don't feel anything. No emotions."

"What?"

"In the kitchen, I laughed at how miserable I am, not because I like Eunwoo feeling terrible."

"Wait, you mean-"

"I mean I feel nothing. Happiness, sadness, excitement, anger... it's nothing."

"What? When did it start?"

"Four days ago."

"And you didn't say anything?"

"I'm saying it now."

"Because I asked."

"Look... I just need some time."

"Should I talk to the company? Because we should make a comeback but it might be too hard for you."

"Y-" Moonbin wanted to make a decision right there but he understood he needed some time to think, so he bit his finger to quickly interrupt his speech and returned to his thoughts, leaving Jinjin without an answer.

"I got it, you need time. But please don't delay with the decision." And the leader was about to leave as Bin grabbed him by the sleeve.

"Don't tell anyone."

"I will not."

'-'

The 12th of November.

Bin has been thinking about what Jinjin said for almost 24 hours and came up with the decision. He was unsure as he never was. He contacted the leader and both of them went to the company.

"I want to take a break and not participate during the promotions."

Jinwoo's eyes widened, he didn't hear that until Bin said it to the managers and other distinguished people there.

"What happened?" One of the men asked.

"I'm not confident in myself. One problem causes a lot of others. Now I can't express my emotions well. So I'm not sure I can convey the message to the fans. That's why I can't sing well, I lose my concentration. That's why I can't dance properly because I get distracted easily."

"Well, you know it's a serious decision."

"I know."

"We need to change choreography and make new lines distribution."

"A lot of work, I know, I'm very sorry but I can't let the whole group down because of me."

"Bin, we need some time to make a decision-"

"Please, I need you by my side right now. I need this time to improve and sort myself out," interrupted the boy.

"What does the leader thinks?"

The two members exchanged glances.

"I think Bin really needs it right now. I know it has been bothering him for a few days now."

"All right, wait here."

And those people left the room, leaving only Jinwoo and Moonbin inside.

"The company will probably give you the rest you ask for but they'll also post an announcement and the members will find out anyway, what will you say?"

"A lie."

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Okay, I hope you read the note above the text of the story and understood what I meant. Moonbin hiatus, yes, even in a fanfic :(

BY THE WAY! Putting a countdown: the story will be ended in 3...

Thanks for reading <3

And... it's D-Day! Candy Sugar Pop is coming!