When we got home Ro and Ja'Kelton were in the living area asleep on the couch and my mom was in the kitchen
Me-Hey Ma
Mom-Hey babygirl
(Looks over at me) And may I ask why you home so early
Me-Well something kinda happened(pulling Tionne into the kitchen)Tionne hurt her hand(showing her the cast)
Mom-(Gasp) Oh my goodness Tionne baby are you ok
(looking at her hand)
Tionne-Yes mom I'm ok
Mom-Well what exactly happened, how did you hurt your hand
Me-(Sighs) One word mom Derrick
Soon as I said his name Ro got up and came into the kitchen with Ja'Kelton in her arms
Ro-Did I just hear you say Derricks name
Me-Yeah because he came thinking he was bad trying to make threats towards me and even got in my face and pointing his stank ass fingers in my face too but Tionne didn't take that lightly and got in his face in which he called her out her name and so she laid him out cold which is where the cast comes in at
Ro-(Hugs Tionne)Oh my goodness Tionne boo I am so sorry you had to deal with that and you to Zaza(hugs me)I'm sorry
Me-Boo no because you have nothing to be sorry for
He asked for it trying to be all gangsta and I don't feel 1 ounce of bad about it so you shouldn't either ok(grabbing Ja'Kelton out of her arms)
Ro-Ok,well look I will deal with him because I don't want yall getting in trouble behind me
Tionne-Ro we got you no matter what and I would do this over again if I have too
Me- Actually no baby you won't because the doctor already said how lucky you were because if you would have hit him a little harder then you most definitely would have broken your hand
Mom-Well we will not be having none of that anymore and Ro me and your father will handle Derrick from here on out ok
Ro-(Nods head) Yes ma'am
Mom-(Smiles) Good then, now I need all my pretty Beautiful girls and my very handsome grandson(kisses Ja'Kelton) out of my kitchen so I can finish cleaning
Me,Tionne,Ro-Yes ma'am
We left out the kitchen and upstairs to me and Tionne's room
Ro-(Closing the door behind her) You know I got somebody on call who is really ready to handle Derrick permanently (sitting down in the chair across from my bed)
Me-(Shakes my head) No Ro! Absolutely not your brother because you already know he's trying to get himself back together after beating those attempted murder charges
Ro-(Sighs) Yes Za I do know that, I was there in court with him remember
But I also know for a fact he definitely would not appreciate his little sister's life being threatened either
Me-I mean yeah you do have a valid point there but Ro boo please let's not jump from worse to worser ok and give mom and dad an actual chance to handle it ok while you focus on this little guy(looking down at Ja'kelton in my arms asleep) and school so you can become the best mother and provider for him ok Ro promise me
Ro-(Sighs and rolls eyes) Ok Zaza I promise
Me-Alright, now you go lay down and rest a bit cause you look completely exhausted and me and my cutie here(winks at Tionne)will look after him
Ro-Ok,thanks boos,I will
She gets up and kisses Ja'Kelton's cheek and then kissed me and Tionne on the forehead and left out the room
Tionne-(Smiles looking at me) You know baby I really could get used to seeing you like that
Me-(Rocking Ja'Kelton and smiles)Yeah I could to baby (leans over and pecks her lips)
Because sometimes I do wonder how I would be as a mother because he hasn't been here 2 days and Ro seems so natural with being a mom
(Smiles) I actually did use to tell her she was born to be a mother but yeah I one day want this to be us
Tionne-(Kisses my forehead) It will be us one day beautiful and I have no doubts that you will be a great mother because I mean look how well you take care of everyone in this house so I believe you too were born to be a mother
Me-(Smiles extra big) Awe baby you just seem to always know what to say and thank you and I love you so very much
Tionne-(Kisses my cheek) Your welcome beautiful and I love you so very much too
We sat for a couple of minutes just staring into each other's eyes in which I felt myself starting to become lost deep in her soft brown eyes in which I had to quickly break the stare because I knew where it was going
Me-Ok baby before our hormones take over here lets cool it
Tionne-(Laughs) I am cool but if I'm to much to handle then just say that(seductively licking her lips)
Me-(Rolls eyes) Whatever Tenese,you ain't getting me that easily but anyway how's your hand feeling baby
Tionne-Nice way to change the subject but we both know I got you so wet right now(smirks at me)but to answer your question the hand is fine, just a little sore but nothing I can't handle because trust me I have had worst things happen to me besides a small fracture in my hand
Me-Good, and fyi I am not wet (totally lying) but seriously baby can I ask you a question
Tionne-(Smirks) sure you not but yes baby what's up
Me-That away game in Francisco when you had to be rushed to the hospital and came back to school in a full arm cast and said it happened because you were pushed in the pool to hard by one of your teammates, was it your dad that really broke your arm that night
Tionne-(Looks down as a tear drops) Yeah he did baby among other things because he told me since I didn't follow his directions instead of my coaches in the game because he's the only one allowed to tell me what to do that I needed to learn some discipline and took me out on the balcony and that's where it started from that led him to breaking my arm and once he realized what he had done he told me to clean myself up and then when he called the ambulance he told me to lie and say I was horseplaying with my teammates and I got pushed in the pool landing on my arm
Me-Oh baby(lays Ja'Kelton down and scoots over closer to Tionne and hug her)
I'm so sorry baby I didn't mean to make you cry ok, I won't ask anymore questions(wipes her tears and kisses her) I'm sorry baby and I love you
Tionne-(Smiles and looks at me) I love you too beautiful (kisses me again)and it's ok baby for you to ask questions because I really don't mind you asking and because I have never talked with anyone about any of this at all, not even my mother and she was there seeing it happen
So honestly baby I do need to talk and get it all out of my system so(puppy dog eyes) any chance you want to be my personal therapist
Me-Awe how adorable are you (kisses her cheek) and since you asked so nicely of course baby I would love to be your personal therapist because as long as I can help you make it through this I'm gonna do whatever it takes
Tionne-(Kisses me) Thanks beautiful I love you
Me-I love you too baby
Tionne-Well hey since we are technically babysitting want to watch a movie
Me-Sure,but you can pick it out
Tionne-Alright
So Tionne goes to go through my movies in our room and decides on a comedy in which we had to not laugh so loud because of Ja'Kelton
After the movie we fell asleep with Ja'Kelton sleeping between us
We slept for 2 hours before we were woken up by Ja'Kelton starting to become fussy
So I got him and changed him then took him downstairs to get him a bottle that Ro already had made of her breast milk and warmed it up and gave it to him and went back upstairs
I then finished feeding him and burped him and rocked him back to sleep
Once he was back asleep I laid him back down between me and Tionne
Tionne-(Looks over at me) Baby
Me-(Looks over at her) Yes my beautiful baby(Smiles at her)
Tionne-(Smiles at me)Uhmm I been doing some thinking and I think I want to go see my dad and get answers to why he did what he did to us and I think I want to try and go find Chase because honestly baby she belongs with me
Me-Wow baby are you sure I mean not that I don't understand because I really do but do you think your actually ready to do that so soon because your just now starting to heal from everything mentally and emotionally and I don't want anything to trigger you and reverse the progress you have made so for because again you just literally made it to the point to where you can actually talk about it
Tionne- I see your point and I completely understand what your saying baby and your absolutely right about everything but it's something I know I have to do in order to really begin the true healing process to be able to fully move on from it
Me-I hear you baby and I'm very proud of you for recognizing that you are ready to face it full on and no longer give it power to keep controlling you or your life in which that's the very first step in healing and so I give you my full support and will be right by your side through it all including finding your daughter if that's something you still want to do after you work through everything
Tionne-Thank you baby and that's why I love you and yes once I get through everything my daughter will be my next focus
As we continued to talk Ro walked in
Ro-(Surprised)Oh my goodness Tionne I didn't know you had a baby,so how old is she and what's her name
Tionne-Actually Ro nobody knew and her name is Chase and she's about 7 now
Ro-Wow! Tionne how come you never said anything and who's the father
Tionne-(Looks down)My dad's the father
Ro-Oh no Tionne I'm sorry boo (hugs her)
Tionne-(Tears up)It's ok Ro you have nothing to be sorry about and to answer your question (wipes her tears) I never said anything because I had her at 13teen and was sent away to a boarding school until Chase became officially adopted and then was brought back home and was told to go back living my life as if nothing happened
Ro-Damn Tionne that's really fucked up
Tionne-Yeah tell me about I know and the worst and most fucked up part of it all is after all that I was still being beaten and raped in which I tried committing suicide a number of times that I lost count and was almost successful at it a good number of times as well
Me-(Shocked) Oh wait baby, so is that what was going on that day I found you passed out in the girls bathroom and when I got you awake you said you passed out because you were severely dehydrated and started throwing up blood
Tionne-(Shakes her head yes) That was one of my almost successful attempts because I had stole a bottle of pills from my mom before I left for school and took the whole bottle once I got there but I never made it out until of course you found me and the principal called the ambulance
Ro-(Tears falling)Damn Tionne I seriously had no idea how bad things were really going for you
I mean I guess since you always went around smiling and laughing all the time I just never really paid real close attention to you
Tionne-Well yeah because that's how I wanted it to be because I was scared of what would happen if anyone actually found out
Ro-(Hugs Tionne tightly) You poor poor thing having to deal with that type of pain and torture all by yourself and it's just amazing how you still managed to even make it through any of it
But I'm for sure am very glad you did because now I have two of the bestfriends/sisters I could ever as for and I love you so much boo boo
Tionne-(Still hugging Ro) Awe boo I love you too and thank you and yeah I am too because I got two of the most incredible people in my life that has brought so much love and joy to my life and heart,yall are the best and even though I can now talk about it I still know I have a lot more work to do on myself to really heal from everything but having my bestfriend and my beautiful queen by my side (winks at me) I know I will make it
Me-Well we will be by your side and we will have your back every step of the way because we will never let you go through any of this alone (kisses her cheek)
Tionne-(Hugs me tight) Thank you baby because truthfully if it wasn't for you and your parents who knows where I would be right now
Me-Well(kisses her) lucky for us we won't ever have to find out
Ro-(Picks up Ja'Kelton because he started crying) Mommies here baby what's the matter little man(bouncing him and patting his back)
Me-(Still in Tionne's grip) He's probably wet because I did just feed him not to long ago
Ro-Oh ok, well little man let's go check Mommies little stinker(leaving the room)
