Tommyinnit // [ MCYT ] Angst Oneshots

i cant [3]

Wilbur's pov

It'd been about 10 minutes. I shivered as Schlatt finally pulled up and happily got in his nice warm car. Though I felt deeply saddened as we left. I wanted to spend more time with her before she. . . before she's gone.

I felt tears prick my eyes once again. I couldn't even say anything to her, I-I just couldn't find the words to describe how I felt or what was going on- I just wanted to see her smile. . .

I noticed Karls car wasn't there, he must be out, I hope he gets back here soon, the snow is starting to stick. I hopped out of the car and Schlatt unlocked the door to the house, stepping inside, to which I followed shutting the door behind me.

I knew I should've visited mom sooner. I made her so sad, and she was so upset with me. I mean hell, Tommy visited more than I did and he didn't even have a car. God, I'm such a failure. I went to my room, I was a disgrace to my mother, I was a disgrace to my family.

I looked at my bed solemnly. I don't even deserve to go back to sleep, I mean, it's what got me into this mess in the first place. I don't even deserve to live.

I sluggishly dragged my feet to the washroom and opened the mirror cabinet. I grabbed the pills as they rattled against the sides of the container. I felt myself start crying as I held the circular tube, sinking down to the floor. I placed the pills on the floor and held my breath as I went to grab the glass of water from my room.

I successfully brought the glass of water to the washroom and shut the door behind me again. I opened the container of pills and poured them out into my hands, which were now shaking uncontrollably. I placed a bunch into my mouth and gulped them down with water, then I put the other half in, already feeling dizzy, and I swallowed that lot down as well.

I took a couple of weak breaths in as my mouth started feeling dry. I then realized what I'd just done. I panicked, looking around quickly before forcing myself to lean over the toilet, vomiting out whatever my body could.

I heard footsteps rushing towards the bathroom and Schlatt threw open the door, looking worried.

"Oh goodness- what-" he cut himself off once he saw the empty pill container on the floor, "shit- I'll call 999 okay? It's gonna be okay. . ." His voice trailed off as he ran to his phone.

I couldn't hold myself up anymore, and fell down to the floor, feeling myself losing consciousness as I fought trying to keep my eyes open.

Jschlatt's pov

I rushed back to the washroom as I attempted to tell the 999 operators what happened. They'd already sent an ambulance to help. But as I got closer to the washroom I didn't hear the sound of choking anymore, and my heart might as well have stopped.

Wilbur was lying there unconscious, well, not exactly, he was seizing. I felt myself breaking down. I'd never seen anyone like this in my entire life and I hope to never see it again.

After a few painful minutes had passed, Karl returned home, looking confused when he saw me on the floor sobbing, still trying to speak to the operator on the phone.

"Schlatt? Are you okay--" he looked in the bathroom and covered his mouth in shock, "Oh, goodness. . ."

Then we heard sirens outside getting closer, then the team of people rushed through the door. We quickly got out of their way as they began to help Wilbur, who was now completely unconscious and had stopped seizing.

They'd put Wilbur on the stretcher as they quickly brought him to the ambulance, then rushed away to the hospital. The operator told me I could hang up and I listened, then dropped my phone to the floor, still trying to process what just happened.

"Schlatt," Karl whispered, "wh-what happened?"

I turned to Karl, he looked very confused and worried. I felt nauseous just thinking about it. God damnit when I went and got him at the hospital he looked really sad, and then when he stepped inside the house he looked worse. I-I could've helped him- I-I should've asked him what was bothering him- but I didn't. . .

"Karl--" I swallowed hard, "I'm gonna throw up- I-I can't go in there-" I started sobbing again.

Karl leaned into the washroom and grabbed the trashcan placed beside the sink.

"Here, sit down, i-it's gonna be okay," he spoke, pushing the bin under my mouth.

I shakily sat down, placing my head over the bin, emptying my stomach containments. I sat there for a second, letting myself cry. I looked up at Karl, who looked terrified. I was terrified.

"W-we'll need to call Philza and tell him about this. . ." I muttered.

"Yes, we will, but let's just calm down a bit first, okay?"

"Ok. . ."

Wilbur's pov

I slowly opened my eyes, welcomed by a dimly lit room, a hospital room. I looked around slightly, nobody was here. I turned to look out the window, it was dark outside, with a slight drizzle of snow. I set my head down, letting myself remember what happened. Schlatt found me. I've never seen Schlatt get that scared before, I hope he's alright.

I looked down at my think shaky hands, not really knowing what to do. My throat felt all sore and scratchy, and I felt horrible. I mean, shit, I'm alive. Why am I alive? I should've died! Tears formed in my eyes.

I wonder if im at the same hospital my mother's at. Probably, I mean it's the closest one to where I live so it's most likely. I wonder if I would get told off if I got up and went to see her. . . Though I probably shouldn't, I feel pretty sick, I wouldn't want to make her sick. Well, she probably doesn't even want to see me, and I probably wouldn't even have enough energy to make it there, I felt pretty weakened.

"Hey, Wilbur!"

A nurse entered my room.

"Oh, um, hi," I said.

"How are you doing?" The nurse asked.

"Err. . . I don't know," I said.

"Mmm, you have a slight fever, so if you feel a bit sick it's normal," she spoke, "and you've had visitors but they had to leave as it was getting difficult to drive in the snow."

"Oh, alright," I spoke.

"If you need anything, just hit that red buzzer and the loo is right here if you need it," she pointed to the loo.

"Okay, thank you," I said.

"Oh, and we'll need to perform some tests just to make sure everything is alright."

I nodded.