WHEN WILL IT BE ME?

Chapter 7

Terrence's Pov

I woke up feeling some hot breaths above my head that's when I realized that Calvin is hugging me. My head is resting on his chest and his chin is resting above my head. We both are still naked. 

Never forgetting what happened last night, how he forcefully push his self to me, how he ignored my pleads to stop, how he became to harsh to me, I unconsciously pushed him away from me. All I can feel is fear. Nothing but fear. 

He slowly open his eyes and it immediately landed on me. His eyes widened upon realizing our position. I just stared at him, still feeling scared. I'm afraid he might do it to me again. 

He tried to approach me but I sat up and move away from him. He sat up also and tried to approach me one more time but I'm too afraid of what he can do next. He has a worried face and I don't freaking know what it means, all I know is that I don't want to be near him.

"T-terrence... I-I..." he can't finish what he wants to say. His voice is trembling for an unknown reason. He looked away and pulled his hair letting out a groan. My brows furrowed for his actions but I can only care for less. 

What I want is to be out of this room soon. I never noticed that my tears are falling one by one and I also don't know why. He again looked at me and his eyes, his eyes...

~Is he worried?~

I just shut my eyes and stopped thinking impossible things. I pulled the blanket and wrapped it up around me before walking weakly to the door. But even before I reach the door way I felt my body being lifted and there I saw Calvin carrying me, bridal style. His only wearing his boxers. 

I attempted to protest but his much more stronger than me so I just let him be. He didn't look at me again even before he lay me on my bed. He whisper something before walking out of my room but I didn't quite understand it. I just shrugged it off and cried silently again. 

~I love you but you're giving me too many reasons to hate you... I don't want the day to come where all I can feel towards you is all hatred... But what can I do? The person I love is also the person who makes me feel unloved...~

After what happened between us that night, we never talked again. I always refused to go to the parties that needs my presence and I'm quite surprised that Calvin isn't forcing me to attend. I also stop coming to the company and just stayed at home.

Sometimes, JL and Lou will bring me outside, to mall, to park, everywhere I can unwind. Calvin doesn't know all of that because I never told him. I don't know if JL and Lou was still talking to him but I don't care anymore.

Every morning, there is a bouquet of daisies outside our door. JL and Lou are the only ones who knew that daisies are my favorite flower so I just assumed that those are from one of them. I just don't understand why they don't just hand it to me personally.

Its been one month since that happened and one month ko na ring hindi nakikita si Calvin dito sa bahay. Well, I'm very thankful for that because I really don't wanna see his face. Today, Lou and JL will come and visit me. I requested them to cook something for me. 

Lately, I don't like eating fast foods or any food from outside, I wanted home made food. I also like smelling JL's and Lou's scent everyday so they are here everyday. Hindi pa naman sila masyadong busy sa mga trabaho kaya okay lang na palagi silang nandito.

Napapadalas din ang panonood ko ng mga palabas na may kinalaman sa history and literature. Laging doon lang umiikot lahat ng pinapanood ko kaya nagrereklamo si JL sa akin na sobrang boring daw ng mga pinapanood ko. Wala naman siyang magawa dahil gusto din ni Lou ang mga palabas kaya wala siyang choice. 

I'm about to walk towards our kitchen when the doorbell rang. I immediately walk back to open the door at bumungad sa akin sina JL at walang alinlangang pumasok sa loob ng bahay. Andami nilang dalang pagkain kaya nangunot ang noo ko.

"Hey! I told you na ayaw kong kumain ng mga pagkaing hindi lutong bahay di ba?" I said kaya humarap sila sa akin. Busy sila sa pag-aayos ng mga pagkain sa dining area. 

"Don't worry, kami naman ang nagluto nito. Ayaw na lang nga naming magkalat dito sa bahay mo." Lou said kaya lumapit ako sa kanila para lang makaamoy ng malansa at parang panis na pagkain. 

Napalayo agad ako sa dining area at dali-daling nagpunta sa lababo. Bumaliktad ang sikmura ko dahil sa amoy. "TJ, what happened? Are you okay?" JL said habang hinihimas himas ang likod ko dahil sa pagsusuka.

"Hey, tell us." Lou also approached me. Naghilamos muna ako bago sila harapin. 

"Panis na ata yung dala niyong pagkain. Ang baho!" reklamo ko. Napaawang naman ang mga labi nila dahil sa pagtataka.

"What? Hoy, bago lahat ng ingredients na nilagay namin sa sinigang. Anong panis?" Lou defended.

"Sinigang? Eh bakit ang lansa ng amoy? Hay naku! Hindi ko kakainin yan!" pag-aamok ko at maglalakad na sana papuntang sala kung hindi lang ako pinigilan ni JL. "What?!" naiirita na ako.

"When is your last heat?" seryoso niyang tanong. 

"Huh?" I confusedly asked. I grabbed back my hand.

"TJ, when is your last heat?" he slowly repeated.

~Kelan nga ba?~

After what happened between me and Calvin, hindi pa ako ulit nakaka- experience ng heat but hindi pa naman ako dapat magkaka-heat ngayon, next week pa.

"Uhmm, since that night. That's the last, pero next week pa naman dapat yung susunod. " I honestly answered.

"Kahit na, we need to be sure." he said as he went to the living room living us behind.

"Be sure of what? JL, could you please tell us what's happening." Lou said as he followed JL. Sinundan ko na rin silang dalawa.

"Ano bang nangyayari?" I interrupted.

"Mag-ayos ka, pupunta tayo kay Dra. Jacque." JL said.

"Dra. Jacque? Why are we going to see an OB-gyne?" Lou asked.

"TJ, there's a possibility that you're pregnant." JL said looking right into my eyes.

~Me?! Pregnant?!~

To Be Continued...