C.2.R

Chapter 21 Talk

Chapter 22 Deep Conversations

I am good at a variety of things archery, knife throwing, science, video games, babysitting, cooking spaghetti, cooking spaghetti and babysitting, hell I'm even good at crocheting but, there's one thing I'm not very good at doing and that is apologizing. It's not even really that I'm bad at apologizing I just really hate doing it. It makes me feel vulnerable and to me vulnerability is the absolute worst thing ever. It makes me feel like a puny little kid, kind of how Ro-he made me feel, and once he was out of my life I made it my life mission to never let someone make me feel that way again.

Some people say apologizing means nothing you just say two words and it's all over but, that's not true. There's so much more behind apologizes, there's remorse and regret and fear of what's to come after you apologize. Anyway because of my giant and sometimes slightly ridiculous phobia of apologizing I for the most part never apologize for anything. Now don't get me wrong I say sorry if I accidently step on someone's shoes at the grocery store or if I bump into someone in the hallways but, I never say sorry for something serious, I've never had a reason to until now.

The story behind Derek and I is pretty simple he was an absolute jackass and he happened to think the same of me. Yet no matter how strong our hatred for one another was we were constantly paired with one another in C.2.R, their way of trying to get us to bond I assume. Eventually we discovered how great of a duo we were and spent more and more time together. Everyone expected us to be a couple with the amount of time we spent together and because we were so alike but, that never happened. Derek and I discussed it and we just thought we were better off being friends. Long story short we were inseparable and almost everyone knew that so us not being in the best of terms now is extremely unusual. Us being apart is like separating a head from its body both halves are pretty useless.

"Have you talked to him at all today?" Sky chided from my side.

"Gesh Sky give me a minute I just walked through the doors," I said to which she rolled her eyes.

"Kitty," a voice sung from beside me.

"Daniel," I grumbled in acknowledgment "why are you so full of energy today? In case you haven't noticed its Monday."

"That's a question none of us have yet to find the answer to," Xavier said lining up next to his brother.

"Watch out Ultra Bitch coming through," Josh warned joining us. Sure enough Nicole and her posy of tiny waisted barbies were strutting through the halls in our direction.

"Nicole," I greeted "it's been so long since we've spoken why did you have to ruin it?"

Ignoring me she spoke "I see you've ditched the chubby four eyes glad you finally decided to throw out the trash."

"Nope still here," Becca said coming into view with Derek alongside her as usual.

"Unfortunately it looks like for once you're correct."

Trying to avoid the two getting into a bigger argument than necessary I cut in "If you're done now I'd like to actually go to class."

"Since when have you cared about school?" Nicole rebutted.

"Since you opened your mouth," I replied pushing her out my way and my friends followed behind me glaring at her posy of blonde airheads and the scrawny jocks whose arms they were wrapped in, along the way.

The day went on second period Sky pestered me about Derek, third Becca scolded me for some unknown reason and Blake wasn't really around, free period was uninteresting, fifth I was left unbothered in Drama class, and lunch was dull. During seventh period Josh tried restricting Daniel from angering me further, and eighth I had class with yours truly. Derek. I had no plans on speaking to him at all that period no matter how much any of my friends disagreed. I wasn't going to be forced into apologizing I was going to do it my way and that was when we weren't surrounded by as I like to call them, gossip leeches.