C.2.R

Chapter 12 I'm Sorry

Chapter 12 I’m Sorry

            “I’m so happy this week is almost over,” Skylar said as she plopped her books on the desk in front of her and sat beside me.

            “You’re not the only one,” I replied before looking up at the teacher. Mr. Stewart, our Math teacher who was currently teaching us about Calculus but, I blocked him out his words becoming muffled till I could no longer understand what he was saying and he was simply just making weird, exaggerated hand gestures. I just couldn’t help it for my mind kept drifting elsewhere.

            Josh. As much as I hate him right now I just can’t keep holding this grudge even though I want him to pay. I want him to feel everything I felt when he said that one name but… I can’t. I can’t do that to someone I care so deeply about. The worst part is people are starting to notice now. He’s no longer the playful joker with a constant grin on his face. Now, he’s dark, cold, almost grim and simply avoids the world even Daniel. I know how guilty he feels and knowing…let’s just not say the name he probably didn’t do it by choice. I just wish I had held back my anger long enough to listen to the rest of his story.

            “Class dismissed!” Mr. Stewart yelled and students quickly grabbed their belongings and headed for the door. I guess I’ll just have to grab notes from Sky later. I pushed pass Sky and headed out the door. I don’t want to be bothered right now I just need to think.

            “Why long time since I’ve seen you,” said a snappy voice that made my ears bleed every time I heard it.

            “Not now Nicole,” I said grimly this is the last thing I need.

            “Oh come on I haven’t even gotten in 10 words.”

            “Well, as happy as I am that you can finally count something besides how much bleach it takes to dye that rat’s nest you call hair I need to get going.” She held her perfectly polished manicured hand in front of me and I wanted to rip it off of her arm.

            “Not so fast I’m not done with you,” she said. It was then I realized that her posse was once again right behind her unlike the other day. I guess something changed but, that didn’t matter or at least not to me anyway. She was holding me up and it was taking everything in me not to rip her into shreds right there. I would normally have a lot more self-control right now but, I have a lot on my plate and I’m not exactly thinking straight. Then, another voice decided to pitch in our conversation and I’m glad it did. I felt a strong hand grip my shoulder trying to relax me and then they began to speak.

            “Nicole,” the voice spoke. To anyone else it would have been obvious that this person absolutely hates Nicole and would do anything to have her permantly removed from their lives but, Nicole being well Nicole of course took it the wrong way. She smoothed down her hair and fixed her skirt before putting on a big smile and began flirting.

            “Why I didn’t see you there,” she said edging closer to the person who still stood beside me. She placed a hand on their arm “It’s been a while,” she said biting her lip and giggling. Agh she disgusts me I thought to myself but before I knew it the person shook her arm off abruptly.

            “Not now Nicole, not ever. Now will you excuse us?” the voice said pushing past Nicole.

            “You didn’t have to do that you know,” I said once we were far enough.

            “Oh I know. Trust me I would’ve loved to see Nicole beaten to a pulp but, there’s enough going on right now and it’s just not worth it.”

            “Yeah tell me about it,” I said rolling my eyes looking at the ground.

            “Hey,” the voice stopped and put their hand on my chin making me look up at them. They grabbed my hand and pulled me to a corner away from everyone’s gaze. “You want to know something? Boys are stupid. They make mistakes just like any other humans but, that doesn’t mean they shouldn’t be forgiven. I know none of us have been on our A-game lately but, that doesn’t change the fact that we still love each other. No matter what happens whether it is Stephanie, Becca or a freaking hurricane we’re still going to be there for each other, for you.”

            I took in all the information the person just told me and fell into their arms. Their arms automatically wrapped around me in a hug and they placed their head on mine probably getting a face full of hair. I stayed in my same position before the voice whispered softly “I’m sorry.”

“Thank you. Thank your Xavier.” That apology wasn’t about Josh or Derek or even Stephanie it was about him. He was saying sorry for not being there. For getting caught so caught up in himself and his own worries he forgot about me, he forgot about everyone actually. Him saying those words didn’t make me feel happy or thankful they actually made me feel guilty. Guilty that I was making the same mistake he was. I was so caught up in my own world I didn’t even think about Sky and how she must be feeling, Daniel and his guilt for not telling the truth, Derek and Becca’s relationship problems, and Xavier who had to deal with it all. Xavier had the hardest job which was staying strong for everyone. All of his friends were so broken he didn’t have time to be as well. He’s been comforting all of us and that’s hard.  So, when I said thank you it wasn’t about Nicole it was about him being there, being strong, for all of us.

            He pulled away and slung his arm over my shoulder. “Till the day we die I’ll have your back and you’ll have mine,” he said and with that we headed off to class, almost 10 minutes late.

AHhh it's my first performance today but, before I left I just wanted to uploas this chapter. Yeah, I know it's not as action packed it's more lovey dovey but, next chapter it's going down and someone needs to yell timber. Btw yes, I deleted the cast because, honestly that just kills the imangination of it all so yeah. Anywho hoped you liked this chapter and see you next week :* <3 FOTC: I don't play any sports and I never have.

-xoxo Li.Gi November 20,2014