Renewed

Chapter 17

"How are you doing getting over Adam?"

"Umm okay I guess, I've been starting to forget stuff and all.. And yeaaah."

"How about Max?" Alaska wiggled her eyebrows.

"We are just friends!"

"Friends with benefits?"

"No!!"

"Then why make out with him?"

"I was drunk!"

"Do you like him?"

"I... I don't know. I think I do but then with the whole breakup thing I can't get myself to like him more than a good friend..," I sighed.

"Its okay. Take your time. He already has a crush on you anyway," Alaska smiled.

"What?"

"Yeah! Isn't it obvious or something?"

"Either it isn't or I'm just some blind asshole," I facepalmed.

"I think its the second one," she grinned.

"How late do you want to stay up?" I asked.

"As late as you can go."

So we ended up talking till 2 am before falling asleep. I was wondering if when people fall asleep, will their minds change to become another person?

I asked Alaska about Eunjik and she said both of them were together. She was a bit suspicious about whether he was cheating though... I told her to do some digging but not the obsessive way. Just ask him stuff and all...

Bleh, I slept anyway. The next morning I woke up and said bye to Alaska. I decided to sneak into my room from the window. I would lock the door as if it was my own little "home" and then just live in there.

I could sneak out of my room while my mother ain't home to get food or I could ask my brother to help. He knows I was kicked out though.

A few days passed and I live on my own. Not literally but yeah you know what I mean.

I made videos, I went to school and I hung out with my friends all the time. Climbing in and out the window comes natural now. I can do it in less than a few steps and well, its awesome.

At night I keep the lights off so I do stuff in the dark. If I keep it on my mum will find out for sure and then lock my window as well.

Like, where does she think I would go anyway?

Now that I have loads of free time, I think about what Max meant to me. Was he a crush? A good friend? A brother? I had no idea.

I've been avoiding Adam at school anyway and well its been going okay. Whenever he was there, I would avoid his gaze, his presence in total because the minute I would look into his eyes, everything will start coming back and I was trying to push it aside.

Day after day I start to remember what happened that night I got drunk. So far I only got the making out part which I still don't remember in detail.

How great is that? Making out for the first time and not remembering shit about it. Nice...

Max avoided the subject of that night too. Either he doesn't remember or he's too embarrassed. Plus, it was his first kiss. Lucky him.

I had a simple and small peck when I had my first kiss. I started to laugh remembering that moment.

It was funny how awkward it was after Adam kissed me. There I was trying to believe it was real and there he was trying to read my expression but failing.

It took a long time for me to believe it was real until we did it rather frequently, meaning kissing every time we met up. It was only small pecks though. Which meant my drunk side knew how to make out.

Kisses are a magical thing, almost like seeing a sparkly rainbow with unicorns flying over it while farting gold dust.

It was beautiful, amazing and most of all it was the best feeling I ever had. As much as I'm sad over what happened, if I had the chance to replay any moment of my life it would be that one.

Because first kisses only happen to you once in a life time, and well, you gotta treasure it.

The next day was a school day. I grabbed all my shit and left out the window. We had a science test today and I could not miss it. I can't afford to fail.

I walked through the doors of the school feeling a sense of familiarization. These were the halls I walked pass everyday. Well excluding weekends.

I walked to my locker getting my science textbooks to study and headed to class. I walked pass Eunjik and a random girl making out. It was gross. I avoided looking at that horrid make out scene and proceeded to class.

Wait. Eunjik. Alaska. Holy fuck.

I ran to class straight and looked for Alaska. She wasn't there. Class started and she still wasn't there. I bet she skipped class again.

I aced the test. I don't want to sound like a bragger or something but it was pretty fucking easy.

As I was walking out of the class I asked Rosanna, "hey have you seen Alaska around?"

"Nope. She's probably hanging out with Eunjik or something. I wouldn't be too worried if I were you," she replied.

"Okay! Thanks," I smiled.

My expression changed the moment Ro went away. I worry a lot. Eunjik was cheating on Alaska and I don't want her to get hurt.

Wait but telling her will hurt her, but letting her find out herself will hurt her too..

Sylica walked pass me. That's it!

"Sylica! How do you tell a friend that her boyfriend is cheating on her?"

"Woah Heather what's up?"

"Um not the time. I really need your help. I'm like at war with myself in my head," I said quickly.

"Just do it. Don't be scared. Whoever it is, she will get over it eventually and its not exactly good for her to find out herself. She'll freak out and if she knew you knew about it... Boom," she made a hand explosion thing.

"Thanks!" I grinned.

"No problemo," she laughed.

I had to call her. She cannot get hurt that way. I love her way too much.