Renewed

Chapter 6

It was 3 days before the dance. Rosanna got asked by Sean like I predicted.

I still don't have a date which means I might just not go altogether. But why not? I could stay in bed and watch Netflix while munching on popcorn. Or I could record like 5 videos and not need to care about making more in time.

I sighed again like I have been over the pass few days and click the "upload" button. I had continued another episode of Life Is Strange and edited it over and over again.

Life is strange. Not the fact that some random girl can time travel. But the fact that the things we do now have consequences to our future. For example if I do a bad thing to a friend, she will remember it and will use it against me if I ever try to be nice.

I miss it all. I miss the times where he would kiss my cheek, or randomly kiss me out of the blue. Give me hugs, cuddle with me.. Do everything with me. I miss him.

I miss how his smile could just put me in a good mood immediately or how his laugh is the most beautiful thing in the world. Now.. Now it just makes me sad. Probably because it used to be the things that made me happy.

People keep saying its fine to miss it all. But I don't know why.. Missing it more is just hurting me even more. Like the ache in my heart hurts me so much. Especially when we used to game together and he would beat me..

I stood up from my desk after staring at one sentence for more than 10 minutes just spacing out. Stretching my arms and legs, I grabbed my phone and scrolled through all the unanswered texts until I reached Max.

He sort of spammed me a bit with "hi"s and a few other random stuff. It was like fanboying about the latest books or movies but yeah. He doesn't fanboy.

We ended up skyping and I cried on the line. I legit started crying. I wanted to stop, well, I had to stop but I couldnt. But after crying, I felt better, like a small fraction of my hurt disappeared.

I was feeling better day by day but when I thought about those memories the pain just all comes back.

I hung up the call after a while then lay on my bed and cried again and again..and again.

My phone buzzed beside me.. I checked it.

Max texted me..

Hey wanna go grab some food?

I replied...

Sure.. Where?

He answered..

Surprise. I'll come by to pick you up.

I shouted, "mum!! I'm going out for dinner!"

"Okay honey! Just don't be home too late!" She yelled back.

I got dressed into a simple graphic tee and wore a denim shorts, I then picked up my wallet, phone and sat on the porch waiting for Max to come.

When his car drove up to the front, he hopped out and gave me one of his bear hugs. I smiled. This was nice...

I almost didn't want to pull away from his embrace but I was hungry. Really hungry.

He brought me to my favourite Japanese restaurant. The moment we stepped in, my mouth watered instantly as I stared at all the sushi on the belt thing.

After we ate I paid for him even though he objected and was like, "I'm not a beggar."

But who cares, he's my friend and he has been helping me a lot and I was really grateful. And well, embarrassed because he was the first guy I cried in front of.

It was like the start of the school year, I had this secret where I wrote stories using the people in my class. Not anyone other than Alaska was meant to find out. But for some reason people started to ask me about it.

I got so frustrated because I didn't want anyone to know and one of the last few people who asked me was Max and at that point, I was beyond stressed out. So I broke down.

It was pretty embarrassing but anyway that story is finished and done and messed up. (A/N: mhm its an actual story called Teenagers. It's kinda messed up and bad. Its the first story I wrote so don't judge!)

He drove me home and I kissed his cheek in thanks. I wasn't developing feelings for him at all. It was just a friendship thing. After all... I way too broken to like someone else right now.

I went into my room and shut the door. Suddenly I heard a knocking at my window. I panicked. Was it a ghost? Is someone going to murder me? I can't die this way!

I drew back the curtains and saw Max smiling at me cheekily.

Opening the window I said, "what the hell?"

"Sorry! I forgot to ask.. Will you be my date to the dance?" He said.

"Um.. I... I don't know.. Yes I guess?"

"Coool I'll come by to pick you up on the day itself. See ya!" His eyes lit up excitedly, then he slowly climbed down and drove away.

I have a date! I have a date for the dance. Oh god. Now I really have to go.

I called Alaska immediately asking what I should do.

She laughed and said, "you shall go to the ball."