The cure for my madness

Part 17: Mall

My day was just filled with boring work, at least I was distracted from overthinking about what Zoey said. While at work I got a text. Do you wanna go the mall for some shopping?? I just miss you so much!! <3

I drove by my parents house to pick up Sophie to drive to the mall. We were listening to our playlist that we have together whenever we are going somewhere together. There were mostly Lana Del Rey and Taylor Swift songs on that playlist. Songs like Brooklyn Baby, Without you, New Romantics and Style. I loved having Sophie as my baby sister, we have always been so close. Sophie is like sunshine, always lightning me up on my rainy days. I loved to listen to our songs together and sing them together on the top of our lungs. That day Sophie had almost too much energy, she was dragging me into store after store. Asking advice after advice on outfits. What color her new sneakers would be. Always asking the same question when she found a clothing piece. "Does this look good on me?" Sophie reminded me so much of myself when I was 18, so unsure of myself and being socially clueless with new people. It could look like Sophie had confidence sometimes but in reality she could be super insecure. It was all an act as she described it one time when I asked how she does it.

Now we were sitting at a café to relax after running through almost every store in the mall. My eyes got glued to the floor, my thoughts started to spin.

-"What are you thinking of Dol?" The comment made me snap out of my thoughts.

-"Um.. What? Sorry, it's nothing."

-"I can tell when you lie. Don't even try with me. You can tell me anything, you know?"

-"It's just Zoey said something that made me really scared."

-"What did she say?"

-"She said, what if Alex found someone on tour that he liked more than me. Like what if he cheated on me."

-"Why did she tell you that? I just know he wouldn't cheat on you. He loves you so much."

-"I don't know why she told me, maybe to warn me?"

-"Warn you? Have you seen any redflags with Alex? He is nothing but sweet to you, right?"

-"Yeah, but that doesn't matter though. Marcus was also very sweet to me and he still let me down."

-"But that was Marcus, Dol. Don't judge Alex the same when he hasn't done anything."

Then I realized that it wasn't enough to break up with Marcus to cut him loose, he was still haunting me.

-"I know, it's just hard to trust others after everything with Marcus."

-"I get it Dol. I just don't want you to misjudge someone great like Alex."

-"He is really great." I said looking at the table with a smile thinking back to when we were dancing at his place. The way he made me feel was indescribable, like I was the luckiest girl in the entire world. How caring he was when we first met, not judging me at all.

When I came home from the shopping trip I was exhausted, but I needed to stay up because I had to call Alex later that night as we always do. I took a nap and put on an alarm so I wouldn't miss his call. I woke up to a text. It was him. Before the show he sent me a text asking what outfit he would wear because he couldn't decide on his own. I chose a dark blue pair of pants and a black button up with a dark blue matching jacket on top. I later watched clips of the concert and he added himself the bandana I gave him for christmas to wear around his throat. His hair had gotten a little longer and got some cute curls in it. I couldn't wait to run my fingers through his little curls.

-"How was the show baby? You looked so great in the outfit I chose for you." I giggled.

-"It was great so many people. You made a great choice with the outfit, my private personal stylist."

Then we laughed together until I stopped all of a sudden. The atmosphere was tense.

-"What would you do if you will find someone while you are on tour?"

-"What do you mean?" He asked, confused.

"I mean what if there is someone that you start to catch feelings for, someone who is prettier and funnier than me. You met a lot of people while traveling.

-"I'm not gonna cheat on you Dol. Why do you think that all of the sudden?"

-"It's just.." the pause was long, I built up the courage to say it.

-"It's what?" He asked impatiently.

-"I have talked to Zoey again. I have been scared to tell you, maybe you would get mad at me."

-"Why did you start talking to her again?!" He said in an aggressive way that almost triggered me to cry.

-"She just texted me and wanted to catch up and she apologized for everything."

-"And you just accepted her apology? Just like that?"

-"I have missed having a friend around, especially when you are away."

-"She is not good for you. She just hurts you. You deserve better."

-"She has apologized."

-"Do you think she is all different now all of the sudden? You have said that she has always been this way. So what changed now all of the sudden?"

-"I don't know Alex, okay? I just don't want to fight with anyone. It felt like she really meant it this time."

-"I highly doubt something has changed. She just sucks your happiness out and leaves you completely ruined."

-"That's not completely true though. She makes me happy."

-"I...I just don't want you to get hurt Dol. I care about you, almost too much." He wasn't mad at me. He was just caring about me and it came out too aggressive.

-"I know, I know. I just feel so alone when you are away."

-"I'm coming home soon baby, It's just a couple of weeks left. I can't wait until I can cuddle with you in bed until we fall asleep, our arms wrapped around each other."

-"Me neither, I have been wearing your shirts all the time when you have been away, to feel close to you somehow."

-"And I have been wearing yours." He giggled.

-"Do you remember the first time we met?"

-"It was like it was yesterday, darling." He gave me a smile.

-"What were your first thoughts when you saw me that night?"

-"I thought you were stunning. You really took my breath away."

-"You were so cocky in a way when you talked to me."

-"Haha cocky? I was just faking my confidence. I was nervous as hell."

-"I felt so special that all of the girls in the club, you actually talked to me."

-"You are special Dol, that's why I talked to you. You looked so sad when you were standing at that club alone when Zoey was away. All I wanted was to comfort you and take care of you."

So that's why he wrapped his arms around me. He wasn't at all as I thought he was when we first met.

-"I remember feeling so confused about why you stayed. After I shared too much of my ex."

-"It was because I could relate to your feelings. It felt comforting in a way to hear someone talk about something similar to my experience."

-"I'm so happy that you found the courage to talk to me. I'm forever thankful to have you in my life Alexander Turner. I will love you endlessly." I said with a forced cheesy voice. But I still meant every word.

-"Dolores Hart, you have made me one of the luckiest men in the world. I will love you as well endlessly." He said playing along, but still meant every word.

Hearing our full names made us giggle a little. He really gave me pure happiness. But fuck what I missed him...