The cure for my madness

Part 16: A proposal

During the next day I suddenly got a text. Hey! Do u wanna grab coffee or something? I miss u so much <3 It has been a long time since we met. Love Zoey.

Why did she text me out of nowhere? I didn't know if I was so excited to see her. But I do miss her. I will give her a chance to explain herself. I saw her sitting at a table at the Cafét we usually go to. She looked nervous as hell, biting her nails and looking around nervously.

-"Hey Dol, I just asked you to come because I have realized that you are right. I was jealous of you and Alex even though you are just friends."

-"Well, we aren't friends anymore."

-"Really? Did you have a fight or something?"

-"No, I mean we are not just friends anymore. We are together now."

-"Oh, like a couple?"

-"Yeah."

-"I'm happy for you."

-"You are?"

-"Yeah and I'm sorry for everything. I really am. I have really missed you. Can you forgive me?"

-"I will forgive you, Zoe. I have missed you as well."

-"I'm thankful that you have forgiven me and again I'm really sorry. What else has been happening in your life? Besides getting a boyfriend."

-"Well, what can I say?"

-"Where is your boyfriend right now?"

-"He is um...away. On tour with one of his bands. So he is away for a couple of weeks."

-"That must be awful. Considering you just got together. You just want to be together all the time."

-"Yeah, it's really hard. But it can be healthy to be away from each other."

-"I suppose so. I would be a complete mess if my boyfriend would be away for weeks. I wouldn't be okay. Aren't you also scared he might find someone while he is on tour? There are a lot of fangirls, you know? Girls who would kill to be in your position."

I haven't thought about it before until Zoey said it, but I trusted Alex. My thoughts were everywhere now. I have been left before by someone who found someone better than me. No I need to but my trust in Alex now, he wouldn't cheat on me. At the same time I didn't think Marcus would ever cheat.

After the talk with Zoey I felt positive in a way, maybe this was a fresh start? I don't know what has changed this time. But it felt like she really meant it this time. I was just scared to tell Alex about it. Maybe he would just say she is the same person and she will just hurt me. Some of her comments made me overthink. What if he meets someone better than me? Someone who hasn't a psycho ex and someone who isn't always second guessing herself. He deserves someone better. Maybe I'm not enough for him...

I didn't sleep so well that night. My thoughts kept me awake. During the day I got a text from the siblings group chat. It always makes me smile to see a notification from that group chat.

Hey! Can we all meet up at the Café? I have really good news for you!! <3

It was from Claudia, maybe she was pregnant again? But she said that she and her boyfriend were fine with just two kids. I have no idea what it could be about.

-"So the news are....that we are getting married!! Me and Liam!!" She said with the biggest smile and showed her proposal ring.

-"Wow it's beautiful, I'm soo happy for you two!!" Said Sophie with a smile.

-"And soo I have a question for you two." She said as she pointed at me and Sophie.

-"Would you like to be my bridesmaids?"

-"Obviously!! Wow, I never thought I would be a bridesmaid."

-"What do you say Dol?"

-"Yeah of course!! I would love to."

-"Liam said that he wanted you Leon as one of his bachelors, and Alex apparently."

-"What really?"

-"Yeah. He said they are good friends now after Olivia's 5th birthday party and then the dinner at yours."

-"When it's the wedding? I'm just wondering because he is away now for a couple of weeks."

-"It's the 4th of May. How are you holding up when he is gone?"

-"Well it's hard. I really miss him. But every couple has to be away from each other at some point right?" I chuckle to lighten up the mood, I hate to talk about feelings and personal stuff.

-"You can call me anytime if you can't be on your own. I will come by." Said Claudia while looking at me with her serious eyes.

-"I'm thankful that you are here for me. I knew it was going to be hard, but I must have underestimated the feeling or my strength.

-"We are always here for you Dol, whenever you need us." All of my siblings looked at me with a smile to reassure me.

Later that night we called before going to sleep like we usually do. It was something I looked forward to everyday when I woke up. I was not going to bring up the fact that I have talked to Zoey nor my worries about him finding someone on tour. I didn't want any drama tonight during our call. I just wanted to enjoy our precious time together.

-"Oh by the way do you know what Claudia told me today?" I said, very eager to tell him.

-"No, I have no idea Baby." He chuckled, my excitement was something that made me look so cute he had said.

-"She is getting married and she asked if me and Sophie wanted to be her bridesmaids."

-"Aww How fun!! Is my girl going to be a bridesmaid? He smirked at me, like he was proud of me.

-"You know something else? Liam wanted you to be one of his bachelors."

-"Really? I would love to be that to him. When it's the wedding by the way?"

-"In May, the 4th so it's two weeks after you have come home. Which I can't wait until."

-"Me too darling. It is really fun on tour but I can't relax and enjoy the fun knowing that you are crying at home without me. I crumble completely when you cry."

-"It feels like I'm ruining it for you..."

-"No, not at all. It's just me who just wants you to be happy all the time. I am the one who is causing your pain though, by being away like this for such a long time."

-"I'm probably just being too sensitive."

-"You are not being sensitive at all. It's normal to miss your partner, especially when they are really far away and for weeks like I am. But I'm glad we can always call even though it is not the same thing."

Then my eyes started to sting and my lips shook. His words were confirming that I talked to him through a phone. He didn't lay there next to me as I always had imagined him, laying next to me when I went to sleep. So his words made me snap out of my imagination, making me face the heartbreaking truth.

-"Dol? Baby are you okay?" He asked, panicky.

-"Can you sing something for me? I have missed hearing your voice. It's not the same to hear it on the speakers in my apartment." The fact was every waking hour I played his songs either in my earphones or my speakers in my apartment. Just to hear his voice.

-"Of course, anytime. Any requests?" He smiled at me.

-"You choose something. You always seem to choose the perfect song."

-"Baby, I'm yours. Baby, I'm yours. And I'll be yours, yours. Until the stars fall from the sky..."

His voice was like the cure for my sadness, it never failed to calm me down. My eyes were heavy as he continued the song. His voice just melted my problems away.

-"I'm gonna stay right here by your side. And do my best to keep you satisfied..."