The cure for my madness

Part 23: The fight

Saturday was finally here and I was excited to go to the party with Alex and Zoey. They both meant so much to me and I just wished they would get along. I was so thankful that Alex wanted her to come along since she doesn't have so many friends.

-"How do I look?" I asked him. I bet I had an uncomfortable smile and forced myself to like the tight dress I had on. I only tried it on because he might like it, Marcus always loved me in tight dresses that made me hard to breathe in. Only dresses that fitted like a second skin.

-"Beautiful." His eyes traveled all over my body until he met my eyes. He noticed that I was uncomfortable.

-"Do you really mean it?"

-"Yeah but you don't look comfortable Dol. If you are not comfortable in it, just choose another one."

-"Like what? I have no clothes."

-"Your closet is filled with clothes." He laughed and pointed to my overfilled closet.

-"But it's filled with ugly and uncomfortable clothes."

-"Why do you keep all of them then?"

-"I don't really know to be honest. But can you help me choose a dress?" I asked to change the conversation. I didn't want to reveal the truth behind why I kept all of the clothes. He searched around my closet and his eyes lit up when he spotted a dress.

-"How about this one?" He was holding the dress that I wore at the club when we first met. His smile was a mischievous one.

-"I have forgotten about this one." I smiled and felt the fabric of the dress and looked up on him and met his eyes.

-"Try it on and see what you think."

When I put the dress on, I looked in my mirror a lot. Inspecting everything about my body, how every inch looked. This was my favorite dress and I used to like how it fitted me but tonight everything was wrong with it.

-"Is it better than the other one?"

-"Much better. Do you like this one better?" I smiled and lied to him. Hiding my own insecurities just to not make myself annoying. We were already a bit late so I didn't want to cause problems.

-"As long as you are comfortable." He pulled me closer and kissed my lips.

-"We should get going, right? I don't want to be too late when I meet your friends."

-"Are you nervous?"

-"A bit." I said biting my lip and my thoughts starting spinning. Creating crazy and over dramatic scenarios. A bit was definitely an understatement.

-"Don't worry they will like you, I mean how couldn't they be? You are amazing."

I smiled at his comment and looked away in shyness. He was just too nice, I was so thankful to have him.

When we entered the party all we could see was drunk people and the only thing we could hear was loud conversions over the music.

-"Al!" Said a man when he saw Alex.

-"Hey Zach!"

-"And who are these two?" Said Zach looking at me and Zoey.

-"It's my girlfriend Dol and her friend Zoey. Dol and Zoey, this is Zach."

-"Nice to meet you." He said and took out his hand to meet mine and shook it gently.

-"You too." I smiled back. Zoey also took out her hand to meet Zachs and she forced a smile and didn't say anything when he said it was nice to meet her as well.

-"Do you guys want anything to drink? I can show you where the alcohol is."

-"Where is that?" Zoey asked curiously.

-"You can't drink Zoey." I whispered madly.

-"I'm going to get some drinks for you two, chill out. I will be right back."

-"Okay." Said I softly. Alex and Zach got lost in some conversion about music or whatever. So I stood there pretending to understand what they said. Just nodding and smiling awkwardly. This went on for a while and I felt like I needed a break.

-"I'm just going to the bathroom real quick." I said to them but they didn't seem to hear that because they talked about it so passionately. It was like they slipped out of reality. I had to tap on his shoulder to get his attention.

-"I'm just going to the bathroom real quick." I repeated myself.

-"Oh sure. Are you okay babe?"

-"Yeah I'm fine. I will be back soon." I said and kissed him. The kiss made him smile.

-"She's quite a catch isn't she. I'm lucky to have her." I heard Al say to Zach when I walked away. When I entered the bathroom I could finally hear my own thoughts. I'm not used to going to parties like this with people I don't know. Why was I so awkward and didn't socialize with people? Since Alex was so occupied with his friends I had to talk to other people. Then I remembered that Zoey was at the party too and she had been away for a while, so I decided to look for her.

-"Have you seen Zoey?" I asked him.

-"No."

She was nowhere to be seen. My eyes scanned through the crowd of people with no sight of her. Then after a lot of searching I found her sitting on a couch distant from the majority of people. She had found three people that she was chatting and laughing with.

-"There you are, I have been searching for you for the past like 30 minutes."

-"Oh sorry, I didn't know you were my mom Dol." She said with a sarcastic tone and she sounded slightly drunk. Then I spotted the wineglass in her hand that took me by surprise.

-"Zoey, are you drinking wine right now?!" I screamed as I took her wineglass out of her hand.

-"Ehh yeah, and what's so wrong with enjoying a glass of wine?"

-"Because you are fucking pregnant." I whispered in a mad tone as I placed the glass on a table far away from her. When I met her eyes she just had guilty eyes as if she was hiding something.

-"Wait, are you even pregnant?" She gave me those eyes again and shook her head.

-"I CAN'T BELIVE YOU FUCKING LIED ABOUT THAT!!"

-"WHAT WAS I SUPPOSED TO DO?!! YOU NEVER CALLED OR TEXTED!!"

-"OH PLEASE, GET THE HINT!!! I DON'T WANNA BE YOUR FRIEND ANYMORE!! YOU CAN JUST.....FUCK OFF ZOEY!! I HATE YOU!!"

-"Dol...please listen to me!!"

-"I DON'T WANNA HEAR FROM YOU IN FOREVER!! I NEVER WANT TO SEE YOU IN MY LIFE!! " I said as I stormed out with Alex following after me.

-"Dol? You okay?"

-"NO!! I'M NOT!! OKAY? AND YOU ARE PROBABLY GONNA SAY "What did I tell you?" I JUST HOPE YOU ARE SO HAPPY NOW BECAUSE I WILL NEVER BE FRIENDS WITH HER AGAIN!! JUST LIKE YOU WANTED ALL ALONG!!"

-"I wasn't gonna say that. I am not happy about what just happened Dol."

-"Oh stop pretending". I bet you are thrilled.

-"NO DOL. I AM NOT!!! EVEN THOUGH SHE WAS TERRIBLE SHE WAS STILL YOUR FRIEND. ALL I WANT IS FOR YOU TO BE HAPPY."

-"WELL I AM NOT NOW"

-"Do you wanna talk babe?"

-"No, leave me alone. I just want to be alone tonight."

-"Are you sure?"

-"YES I AM!!! JUST FUCK OFF ALEX AND LEAVE ME ALONE."

-"If that's what you want then." He said with a calm and hurted tone and swallowed some tears in his throat. Then he left the party to go home to his place and not to mine as we decided.

When I was finally home I started crying uncontrollably. I didn't know what was worse, Zoey lies or the way I acted to him. Could he ever forgive me for this?